today's jie jie bday!! "happy birthday to u.. happy birthday to u.. happy birthday.... happy birthday........ happy birthday to u!! wooohoooo!!" ahhaha.. u r old already.. so stop thinking that u r very young!! hahah.. =P
Had JTS yesterday. was damn funny.. because we bluff our seniors.we got them to wear beachwear and to bring 2.5 lemons. i bet all of them thought we were going to the beach or perhaps parkway to eat.. ahha..we "lure" them to parkway.. it aint our final destination thought. then, it turned out that kengmun knew where was the actual place and blurted out.. man.. but at least was fun!=) we brought them to mandarin garden. booked the function room there and there was food there!! yippee.. was famished!! chatted with the seniors and took several pics.. haven upload the pics yet. hehe.. thanks ratchaphorn for tt shirt! i really like it.. Thanks claire, rebecca and steph for praying for me.. really appreciate that.. =) thanks

hmm.. had been thinking and reflecting alot on myself recently. i realize that i had been too busy with my work that i tend to neglect the people around me.. i'm so sorry mum. i know it appears that i dont want to talk to you, and the computer is now my "best" mate, but its not true. its because i really have lots of work to do. i really want to make up the time lost and i hope that i can make up during the holidays. =)
hmm. dont you feel that whenever we are busy with our work, we tend to take the people around us for granted? we expect them to help us just because we are busy with our current projects and work. aint we too selfish? dont they have their own work too? aint those things that we expect them to do our own duties and responsibilities? i know that there are times we feel really drained.. we feel cranky and pissed with everything. but its just not fair that we vent all our anger on innocent parties. they aint the one who gave us the extra projects or work. its us we have to blame. its us, ourselves.. nobody can force us to take up extra projects if we really dont want to isn't it?
our pace in life is certainly too fast. shouldn't we slow down every now and then? we are missing out far too many things if we continue at this pace. we missed our love ones, we missed our friends, we miss opportunities in life.. shouldn't we take one step back to reflect on what we have done so far, instead of just heading straight all the time? in the process of acheiving our goals, we are missing out lots of things, we forget to look around, we just head straight.we left people behind, n perhaps, even lose ourselves in these frenzy. is this worth it?
ok. i know i sounded really emo but its just my way of thinking. kindof of messy flow of thoughts.. but who care? ahha.. its 12.20 am!


at times i wonder, will he walk too fast to notice me?

oh gosh.. its like 11.30 pm.. i should be dozing off on my comfy bed.. yet i m here blogging.. my time shown on blogs are all wrong de.. dont know who to amend it. =( listening to SHE latest album now. =)
Hm.. its the holiday! n yet i m still so busy!! Co camp! Makeup lectures.. tutorials..swim meet duty.. nvm hang on there! jiayou!
i dont think i going to make this a long blog.. cos.. i really want to go and slp!! ahhah.. tmr have lessons! starting from 8.30.. i feel i have no life..haha.. sch.. sc.. co... home.. damn. my life is so routine based.. no more going out.. perhaps only on sunday? hahah.. no more movies.. no more hanging out with friends to chill..=( well.. i chose this path myself.. so stop grumbling! hahah.. i m always contridicting myself.. when i m busy, i complain. when i m free, i also complain.. why m i always finding fault with myself? i also dont know.. (damn, my blog is getting so nonsensical.lolx)
i think i better stop here.. because, i think my blog is getting more and more "no link".lolx. so good nite ppl!sweet dreams.. as for me.. i will go slp on my superb comfy bed with lots of pillows! =)

had general meeting in the morning today with the 31st student's council. was feeling so drained after 2days of sports carnival.. discussed about the event coming up. had to find ppl to do 3 events. swim meet, tutor-parent dialoge and homecoming. hope i can find ppl who are willing to do duty! =)) had ppl signing up to do swim meet le. its on the 13 of june. hope we win cos i know the swimmers train really really hard, thrice a week.
Then, left early for CASHFLOW in NTU. was such a long journey, its in Boon Lay! east to the west.. hahah.. had such bad luck today. was the last to get out of the rat race.. =( but nvm. Rosemary, the ntu facilitator for our group was really nice and sweet. thanks for helping us as the "banker" for the game! really appreciate the encouragement you gave me. =)
Ate lunch with tricia, jy and yuang. had such a long discussion about vulgarities. hahah.. i was so anti-vulgarities while yuang was like "its normal mahs".. haha.. n tri n jy was like kindof neutral, ok when ppl are angry, not ok when ppl use on everything. yup.. cant believe that conver last so long, from our lunch to bus ride back to boon lay. hahah..
I dont know why but these few days, i just feel kindof down, kindof sad. shoulden i be happy? its the beginning of my council term.. holidays are here.. concert over.. no more late trips home.. lesser late nights chiong-ing work.. pe getting better games..see him so many times=)
yet, i dont know why m i feeling so emo these days. i dont know the source of it. just cant seems to smile. i get easily irritated, not tt cheerful/enthu, just not my normal self. why? is it because i m just too tired? hmm.. i dont know.orh maybe its just because i m sad that my snrs are sad because they are leaving already.. no more 30th.. well.. maybe..
or is it just him? my source of joy and saddness? such irony.


I was just thinking
is it just my imagination
or my senseless rumbling?
or is it just you i cant stop thinking.

Is it you or me?
that cause me to choke on my maggie mee.?
Is it true that love is blind,
if so, i guess i must be blind.
Were you just being kind
or are you really one of a kind?

You make me confused.
so very confused.
was that a hint of laughter i see?
laughter out of mockery?
or laughter out of pure joy and happiness?

Hope you are happy.
because you make me smile everyday! =)

*happy? or sad? =S confused





i m tired, disappointed,sunkissed(sunburnt) and pissed!

Today is the 2nd day of sports carnival. i stayed over last night, watched two movies, "step up" and "she's the man" i KO during "she's the man". didnt gt to watch the ending. Was too tired to kep my heavy eyelids open. And my sunburnt was hurting like hell. stinging pain. hate being so "loved" by the sun. keep making me "blushed" after my day out in the sun. So i woke up feeling blur as ever. So when yuen ask me tell jiayi to go toilet together. i just mumbled" go toilet" then jy ask "why" and you know what i replied? i said "dunno".. ohgosh.. i must be damn blur at that time man.. go toilet and dunnoe why go toilet.lolx
Then we went to the sports com to cheer the pdp reps on for their "wheelchair 3km" challenge. in the end, the 31st also took part. Hand was aching after the 200m-300m distance, now i understand the difficulty of getting around in wheelchair..
Since its the 2nd day of sports carn and i had no duty, i was superb ethusiatic and happy as now i can spent time with my cg and gt to participate in the events with my cg.! yup, i know i hardly have time for them, so sorry bout tt, so i really cherish the times we can spend as a cg. then, unhappy things happen at one of the event. oh gosh was i pissed at the referee. he was nt doing his job at all.! talk talk talk, back faced us, nv do his job properly, anyhow allocate points, nv look out for casualty. i was so pissed! he said we lost that match when it was so clear that we won 5-4 and not lost 3-4. we were fuming and yet he still insisted he was right. please.. u should be doing your job well and not neglect your job to chit chat! he made xiang rui so sad and angry that he cried lo. Xiang rui played so hard, he got himself injured and the ref dont even know!thats why he was so mad, he played so hard, we won and yet we are wrongly annouced as "loser" due to the ref negligence in his duty. fair? i ask you? no of course. our whole cg backed xr, such cls spirit. (Btw, thanks number 5 ref for trying to calm us down and sorry for being the one who have to tolerate all our bad temper and attitude. thats because we were all so mad at that point of time that we just kindof "burst" and exploded and u have to b the innocent victim of our onslaught on that particular ref) *Disappointed at such unfair treatment.
PS: to cg 14/07, so sorry about the whole thing. we arent mad at u guys, we are just mad at the ref. sorry for any misunderstanding and sorry for whatever we had said that may offend anyone of u. we didnt mean it.
The sun really love me alot, gave me "full attention" such that i gt sunkissed everywhere! so pain.. add on to yest one. stupid mozzies have to add love bites too. =(
hm.. what got me happier was when i went for dragonboating at kallang river in the evening. it was part of sports carn(our sports exposure)love the moments spent in the water paddling and splashing water. i always feel happier out in the sea or doing water activities such as kayaking or white water rafting. =)
then went to eat kfc with fengyi and felicia. we crap and gossip so much.. as usual, place 3girls together, this is probably the main content of what they are talking about. haha.. they two were superb crappy and we spent the time laughing and laughing. mood was getting better. =))
Now i m so tired! whole body aching! n i m sunburnt! can feel heat radiating out of me. lolx. i feel like going to my comfy bed to slp now! hahah..
Tmr is the "cashflow" competition held at ntu. hope we guys can win something back! jiayou 18/07 ppl! we are the best! yeah!
hey good job!!! he won a medal today. was happy for him, but the event he and his cg won was the event me and my cg was most unhappy with and pissed at. such irony. but we were playing for diff age grp. so i guess its ok. haha.. =P *happy to see you smiling!

hmm today is such a long, tiring but funfilledday! yup!its sport carnival! yeah! was down for refereeing duty for dodgeball.. well. it was no choice.. but nvm, enjoyed myself!just that i felt that some people really take the game realy seriously and can turn pretty violent. hey hey ppl, its supposed to be a friendly match,to bond ppl together and not to turn violent and start wacking your opponent with the ball like nobody's business.lolx. but was a fun experience. =) We referees played one friendly against some pdp. didnt know what pdp it was.. blur as ever.. but nvm. i was the lone survivor among my the other 4 comarades.. n i have to dodge all the balls alone.. was so difficult. did so many funny postures. mayb i should consider yoga.. lolx.. the sun was merciless. now i m like a lobster.. or should i say like i m constantly blushing? ahhaha.. =P so overall, was a great experience.. btw. thanks ratchaphorn for the delicious donut! and thankx to whoever who help me during my refereeing duty. greatly appreciated! =)
Went to toapayoh to watch the badminton finals.. we lost to rj! but its ok. Cos we r still proud of u guys.. did such a wonderful job, yeah! so smiles ppl, dont look so glum! =)
well.. gtg soon. gg back sch for stay over with the rest! yippee.. going to be fun fun fun.. so yeah.. byebye.. hehe

oh gosh.. that was really nice of u! =) u made my day.. =) if what jm says is true..then.. y shud i worry so much? hahah

phew.. one thing off my shoulders already.. 31st Student's Council Investiture is official over! well.. in my opinion, i think it went pretty well.. heex.. not much hiccups. except perhaps at the beginning when it was pretty messy, if not everything went pretty smoothly. =)
Justin and me! haha.. former student lounge director!love ur braces!(we both have nice wide smile!)
me an jiayi!! hahaha.. yeah! we r in the same Dept! RAP!! relations and publicity! love working with u girl! we must jiayou together.

Had much fun today.. have to get the other photos from the others. esp the one taken with both ratchaphorn and joel! 3oth! all of you will definitely be missed. the lessons u taught us, the times u shared with us, the advice you gave us, the hugs u gave to cheer us up, the shoulders you lent when we need it, the listening ear u spared when we grumble, the number of hours which you can spent studying are sacrific to teach us mass dances.. all this and more, the tears, sweat and smiles that we share is what bonded us so closely and strongly.. no matter what happens.. all of u will be my fav seniors! thanks 3oth council for everything u gave us! u will definitely be missed! =)

he came! he came! oh my goodness.. hahah.. was so happy.. tts was why i keep smiling throughout my investiture! hahah.. but is he really gay?

Busy busy busy! gosh. i only have time to blog now. been online for past few days but have been busy with school work and investiture! woo hoo. tmr's investiture. excited n ready for new challenges but sad that seniors will be leaving us soon.. =(
PW!! haix.. so many things to do yet so lil time.. if only i can stop time.. then maybe we can get everything done. all of us are so busy.. with our commitments and stuff.. oh gosh.. m i too greedy? taking up so many things? SC,CO, law electives, investiture comm.. but good news is investiture will be over by tmr 2 pm! so one less commitment and more time for other things! n holidays are coming! cant wait.. but there will still be make up lectures and tutorials but at least i will gt breaks yeh?haha.. n there will be cg outing to the zoo! hehe.. will be fun.. =)
Had pe today.. was pretty fun, we played capt's ball. was not in the mood to play actually so i was the defender instead.a shortie as defender? lolx..n was fun teasing yulan with mr hot.. hahah.. she was so paiseh.. whole face red. =P
Even though it is about 9pm now.. i can feel my eye lids drooping and my head throb. too tired? haha.. maybe..

Well shall blog more nxt time.. haha..

Had a great time on sat! CO concert at SCH. my very first experience.. haha.. was pretty smooth.. my hair was sprayed with glitters.. didnt want it at first.. haha.. but then gt "attack" by the "spray"!haha.. but heng manage to avoid putting make up.. i ahve enough pimples! i dont want more! lolx

gay or not? confused! plz give me a sign.. dont leave me there bewildered.. anyway.. have u ever notice me?

oh gosh! i suspect my eye candy is a gay! =(oh gosh.. y oh y.. let hope its not true!! plz..

haix.. ended co pract around 10. feeling damn lousy.. haix.. all time low.. its not that i cant play. i think i simply have no confidence at all, hence i always tend to present my worst in front of others. haix. its really saddening. i trained until my mouth still quiver after i stop n my teeth are feeling sour. yet.. i still cant produce any good result. n tmr is the concert already. i feel so stressed out.haix. and some ppl just dont understand that i m trying very hard already. all he does is criticise others. yar right.. i know i shall play superb soft so i will not ruin ur solo ok? so u will shine ok? so nothing will happen and ppl will rmb u as the superb good player ok? i just dont know why he cant understand. i mean he had been through what i m going through now n he definitely know how stressed out i m already, having to master the skills and the song in such a short time. its a miracle that i can even manage to play out the higher octave tunes. cant he even try to be nice?since its already one day before the concert? why must he keep demoralising me? "oh.. that wont sound nice, er.. can u play softer.. so XX can cover u?" to say the truth i was pretty pissed. however i cant be bothered already, too tired to talk, mouth still hurting. n i have other stuff to worry about..

why must life play such a cruel joke on her? shes still so young.. lets pray that its nth n just a scare.. no matter what. must jiayou! will be supporting u!

oh my gosh!! my eyecandy gg my investiture! over the moon!! =)

its saturday!! n i cant even get a decent sleep in.. had to wake up early to go sch for 1st GM. had internal election. had the 2nd post i wanted.. quite happy about it.. gonna be fun fun fun!! n i gt 2 plan for grand nite!! hahaha.. co0l.!
Investiture cuming!! arh!! hope nth gets screwed up. heex.
had dizi today. went pretty well. except i was horrible. teh rest were good. joanne making superb progress.. me.. slowpoke as ever. =( horrible. sat is the performance le.. haix.. maybe i will just do back stage den.
went to tm after that to do gpp. was superb tired.. been like rushing non stop since the morning. all my commitments.. haix..better gt the gpp up soon. its due nxt week. i cant believe it la. we handed our 1st draft like weeks ago n gotten it back like this week. and then told that nxt fri we gt to hand in!! arh! stress! why wasnt it given back earlier! gosh!
been ranting quite alot these days.. so many things happened. so many things to do but so lil time.. when will i ever gt my well deserved break? when can i ever feel relax n not so tense up?

the only reason i m still smiling is because of you.. but .. is what i saw really true? im confused. damn.

arh!! was all prepared to go supreme court for learning journey today!! even went to buy sweets with the rest. we bought all the sour sour sweets like sour skittles, sour power( green apple), sour cassies.. then.. we cant go.. because we have mother tongue enrichment class and that has higher priority, so we cant go.. so disappointed.. all of us were in high spirit at 1st.. because we go cg outing.. then.. cancelled!!
went for the mother tongue enrichment feeling rather sore.. however, cant say that is was a waste of time or sth. the DJs from jia 883 came to our school to give us a talk bout the life of a DJ and so on.. we saboed xiang rui to take part in a game. n he won!! hahah.. cos they think he very cute n cos we cheered the loudest for him. haha.. so funny.. xiangrui is lyk the wang sha in our cls while randy is lyk the late ye feng. the comedy twosome.. haha.. n xiangrui can do the famous "titi you dada" with that retarded face. so funny..
after that, went parkway with junmin. haha.. wanted to buy sth for mum for mother's day. however, got nth instead.. cos cant find anything nice for her.. argh!! its this sunday!! how how?? tmr bah
have internal elections of sc post tmr!! first GM.. haha.. think my uniform superb crumpled but nvm lar.. hahah. have to do gpp tmr!! we handed in so early.. but only gt back like this week? n nxt week must hand in le!! argh!! stressed n pissed! grumpy!

CO got gold with honours!! congrats!! jiayou jiayou!!
TJ soccer nt tt bad like.. though will be trashed like siao by VJ but turn out to b a good game afterall.. good job guys!! we r proud of u

ok.. fine! i know i m a girl. but so what? u mean girls cant do as good a job as a guy? u think that only guys r mentally n physically strong. i do admit guys r definitely better in physical stuff, but for mental strenght, i can say that both girls and guys r equally strong. so stop being so egoistic n stuff. we are living in the 21st century.. not some way back 9th century or sth. u r jux baise. u have nv ever given me a chance to prove myself. its so disappointing. u r sumone i hold in high esteem n take inspiration frm. now.. its all gone..
feeling rather low.. but thankx 4 all the support i gotten frm my cg!! love all u guys!!with u all arnd, i will nv feel alone cos i know i can always depend on u all! n dont worry, i will nv ever forsake u guys!! =) love u guys to bits!! n to those ppl who gave me encouragement, who believe in me, who were there for me, a big thankyou!!it is greatly appreciated n i take comfort in those words u all tell me! =)
yes. i will bounce back to normal in no time!! smiley n superb enthu kia will be back yeah!! hahha.. i still want to be model student leh.. lolx..
was washing mass tins the yesterday.. horrible job.. joshua washed till his hands look like they r going to rot soon. i was looking like sum ah soh washing at the market. haha.. very funny. scrub and scrub!!

was that a smile for me? why do i have to meet u when i m looking atmy worst.. damn.

MAMBO NIGHT!! SO RETRO RIGHT!!

TRICIA AND ME!! (oh gosh! my pimple so big~!!)
new past