I wish the term to end, but on the other hand, I hope it doesn't.

As much as I said that it doesn't concern me. As much as I said thats all the better. As much as I want to avoid the whole issue, its still glaring in my face. Somehow, whenever I think I had let go of it, that little string still attached to me will tug at me ever so gently to make me turn back and see that I don't want to.

Getting myself busy with all the projects, meetings, assignments and all. My own brand of remedy to get everything off my mind. Somehow, I will end up so exhausted and tired at the end of the day and feeling all lousy, thinking that I've accomplished nothing.

It had been a bad week, especially without roomie around for 2 nights. The nights get longer as loneliness set in. Its been an equally bad week for her too. Hopefully we can survive together, if not hug each other and cry. Jiayou roomie if you are reading this. Don't bother yourself with people not worth bothering.

Remember that no matter what, we can sing our blues away like the "emo-ed" night on Thursday. No problem is ever to big for us, we had climbed mountains before, lets scale up to the clouds and reach for the limitless sky.

Was it so evident? Weiren said I looked depressed. Despite my many smiles and laughters, I guess my weariness is starting to show. Thanks for the ice cream cone! Yeah, it really did cheer me up, and that performance from your friend.! Highly entertaining, though he doesn't sing that well, he sure knows how to get the crowd going.

Projects after projects, I kind of wish that I had mid terms rather than all this project.




Dear Winifred Tan, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Other people find you very interesting
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : But you are really hiding your true self
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Your friends love you because you are a good listener
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You like serious
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Smart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Determined people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't judge a book by its cover
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship
The seriousness of your love:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are very serious about relationships
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : If you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will fall deeply
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Beautifully in love
Your views on education:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can
The right job for you:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You'll be set for life
How do you view success:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous
What are you most afraid of:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Independence is important to you

I'm stunned. Its perhaps the most accurate quiz I've done thus far...

Realization hit me hard on the face this week.

Quoted from Wanyin " Loving you was never difficult. Letting you go is..." At times, learning to let go of someone or something that you love is like cutting a certain part of your body. The pain and anguish are indescribable, thats why sometimes, you would rather cling on to that little shred of hope and stubbornly refused to let go, for fear of the torrents of emotional hurt you will receive once you let go. But hope is nothing but an endless pit of misery too isn't it? Wistful thinking will get you no where, your stubbornness will only prolong the pain. The heart can only take this amount of hurt. People say that only by going through misery and pain can you learn to be stronger, but to me, I guess its not because you become stronger, you just merely formed this layer of armor to protect yourself, or perhaps you become so numb by it all that it no longer hurts. Numbed by the things around you, forming the blase attitude, whereby whatever that happens no longer concern you anymore.

 Now that is scary...

Tired.

One bad news after another, how much more can I take it. Nothing can summarized my feelings better than the word disappointment.

At least yu ang's msn message cheer me up.
yu ang says:
*angel!!!!!
*hah
*crashing ntu tmr!!


Deep personal reflection has been the hall mark for you of late, Pisces.

Had a run at 3pm just now, almost got killed by the scorching sun. D: Should have ran at a later time. When I was running, many thoughts were running through my head. Had I been to busy with work to notice changes around me? My life has just sunk into this mindless hectic routine week after week. The people around me had been tolerant of my neglience, giving way to me when they sense my displeasure or weariness. But this is no way to go. I am so sorry for being such a bad daughther, sister,friend, roomie, co-worker lately. I get so caught up with work.

I am looking forward to a break, a disturbance to my routine.
new past