Life isn't about winning or losing, it isn't about you getting everything. Its a journey of discovery. A journey to unravel the mystery that life holds. We seek answers, but before we do, we have to stumble upon countless of questions. The journey will not be smooth sailing, but with perseverance, the outcome will be fruitful. Throughout our whole life, we seek, but do we know exactly what we are seeking? Mindless seeking is tiring and worthless, as it leads to no where...

Do you know what are you seeking for?

Random thought of the day: RAH, I need a job. ):

If things were to take a better turn,
 I will... I would... I may...

Slow down
Take a stroll
Smell the flowers on the way

Wear a dress
Walk barefooted
Over the green grasses

Hold your hand
Tightly and surely
And walk till the sun set.

But...
Will you, would you, may u?(:

Just like Cinderella, when the clock stuck 12, all the fairytale's gone...

I wondered how exactly did Cinderella felt. Would she wish she never meet the prince before so she would never long for him? Or would she resign to fate simply because of her social status? Or believe that she and her prince belonged to two different worlds and thus she did not deserve him?

To be or not to be.

Sometimes I wonder if my memories are crafted in a way to deceive me. I choose to believe what I want to believe. Pictures capture happy moments, sadness is only embedded deep in memory. Maybe that is why our memories are kept personal because they make us vulnerable. If two people were to experience the same event, will their memories telly?

I wonder, I wonder... You disappeared when the clock strike 12...

你会因为错过遗憾而伤心吗？还是为了不要知道事实伤心而抱着遗憾呢？

因为害怕我会选择不知道事实。只有这样我才能傻傻的想信我所要的。在自己的保护膜里，不让心受到任何的伤害。

曾听说过人会因保护自己而把最美丽的一面给大家看。脆弱的心灵是不会给他人看到的。只有在信任下才会把保护膜拿下。

你会为了我而把你的面具拿下吗？

Its getting too much. I seriously see no point in you still behaving this way, seriously... If you choose to believe it then so be it. Why is it that every time you do something wrong, we have to be the one to clear the mess? Why do you always have the ability to conveniently shift the guilt of it all to people around you? Why can't you just be a man and accept everything? Don't tell me you don't see it coming... Bragging and all is what you do best right? What about those promises you make? When you can't fulfill them, you go around hiding, then when you are cornered, you start to blame everyone and point fingers at everyone. Hello, please see that the root of it all is you, not anyone else. I'm sick and tired of seeing this situation all the time... Let go of the stupid pride and ego, and admit it all. 


For that I will respect you.


If you have no idea what I'm talking about, you are not the intended audience. 

Two parallel lines will never meet...

She and him are like two parallel lines, belonging to different worlds, never meant to be.

But somehow, their lines managed to intersect, converge by the hands of fate. His appearance causes her world to become topsy turvy. From upright detest at the beginning, his demeanor rubbed her off in the wrong way. He was loud, always in the spotlight, the one people always notices, while she fade into the background, the shadow in which he cast. But somehow...

She doesn't know why, he always seems to be around whenever she needed help. She starts to see beyond his loud facade lies a smaller him. A person with such insecurities has to protray a stronger front to hide his weaknesses. He shared with her some parts of him, she empathizes and finds him less irritating. Thankful for the help he renders, grateful he sees her and willing to be her friend. His little gestures and actions grow on her, and soon, she found herself caring for him subconsciously. What's behind that frown? Doesn't he seems more weary? What happened?

But as much as she wants to reach out to him, she knows she is but someone distant, never in his world, never to be the one to be beside him.

"Just knowing you care is good enough, and I will care from the sideline. Always there for you, even if you can't see me because you are surrounded by so many others, I will still be around you, always..."

Two parallel lines were never meant to be...

Someday,

when u look back,

you will find me,

standing there,

waiting for you...

Always been there,

not daring to move away.

Someday you will know...

Someday...(:

Year 1

A great year filled with unexpected twists, adventures, sweat, tears, new friendships, spastic moments, great memories and many more.

Staying in hall, meeting new people, forging close bonds, being in this close knitted community. As my term in hall comes to an end, I realized just how very attached I'm to this place, to the people and all. Taking everything off my push board, from photos to lovely postcards given to me and the Birthday Board by Draco, my room felt empty as I cleared everything out. The soul of the room, my humble abode was only made warm by the people around me. I will miss all this, there is no replay button, but at least I can take away with me the lovely memories.((: I will miss so many many people, esp Jingyi, Jessica, Zhilin, Seohying, Ziting and Aikkun.

Going to Econs, with only one friend at the beginning of the year. Our friendship grew closer, thanks Amelene for being such a dear.(: Meeting Rachel was one of the best gift I received. Its hard to meet someone who thinks alike, even harder to find such a selfless person, but I found her, Rachel. Thanks dearie, for being such an angel to me.(: Not to forget the other awesome people like Siewghim, Ruzi, KaiChi, Lilian, Shermain, Lydia and Samantha.

Thanks for putting up with my nonsense, blurness, spastic moments, childish antics and "accidents", people, you know who you are.
Friends are keepers, worth the effort to continue reaching out even after parting. To me, you guys are keepers, I call you my friend.

I want you to know that you are special to me. Don't doubt yourself, never, believe in your strengths and abilities. I hate to see you sad. (:
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