Stupid wisdom tooth.

Doc said my headache could be due to my wisdom tooth as the gums are swollen. And my body-ache and soreness in my arms are due to too much stress or over strain, so I'm told to rest and relax. That is if I can afford it. Got a new nasal spray as well, a different brand though. Hope it works for me. :/

I'm really kind of tired. And truth be told, if people were to see my thoughts, I think it will scare them. One constant theme= death. And no, I'm not suicidal. Its just that the inevitable ending to life scares me and yet life after death fascinates me.

Mum told me that one day she will leave too. And I don't know why, but every time I recall this, and realize how very old my parents were, I just have this uncontrollable feeling to cry. Jack is equally old too, and his health is failing. I know it may sounds silly, but I'm trying to picture death, so when it really comes knocking again, I hope I have the strength to face it bravely. Sudden dismissal creates void that will be filled with coldness. If I'm prepared, maybe I can fill the hole with happy memories, and have the person live through me.

I'm scared to sleep at night. For my dreams seems to haunt me by the thought I have in the day. And when the lines between reality and dreams blur, I don't know which to believe, whom to trust anymore.

I just hope I can maintain my sanity.

HORSES!

The romance star is shining on us this year! Tao Huas many many.!

May even have wedding bells ringing. Jiayou people! Your princess/prince is on the way!

Huat arh!
new past