yeah!! feeling happy today!!no longer emo-ing. cant wait for this thurs to come!! going to meet wanyin to catch Shrek 3!! venue is probably at tm!! yeahness!!haha.. hasnt met her for so long already.. going to have lots to talk about!! heex.. hope nadiah can come too.. =)) n the rest of the npcc girls!! really miss the days where we hang out together so often, planning for proposal, gossiping about each other's love life, bitching about people we dont like, etc. we were so close, bestest of friends. no barriers between us, just like the npcc march says " between all races there is no barrier. in npcc we all join hands!" yup! i miss all of u!! we shared tears, sweat, happiness, displeasure, trainings, punishment, stress, everything and anything!! n think these are the things that really bonded us together!! hahah. i think if there is an award "most bonded npcc girls" award, it will be given to us! haha..love my unit and love my batch the most! =) i hope that whatever misunderstanding anyone of us have with other party can be resolved. smiles and face the future and remember the happy times we shared in npcc.these memory will never be forgotten. the journey we had together was brilliant, all of u taught me so much! =))

Oh.. n i cant wait for week 3 to come. because my cg is going to the zoo!! yeah!! can see my favourite polarbear and the other animals.. heex. feel like some primary school kid so excited about going to the zoo. its like a school excursion!but i guess before i go for my "field" trip, i will be going to the inter-jc swim meet at ite simei! =)) see hotties!! lolx.. hope tj will win and owned the swim meet! lolx..its on the 13 of june. haha.. jiayou!

So many things coming up. oh.. n i m also looking forward to this weds. going to suntec with my mum n maybelle, the cute girl who is under my mum for tuition. smart and hardworkign girl. she did well for her mid years so my mum bringing her out as a treat. n i will be her "big jie jie".lolx. never been a big sister before. for all of my 17 years, my role is stuck at "mei mei" cos my mum's "factory" stop producing anymore "naughty lil things" after me. lolx. so..pretty exciting! haha.. but i guess i will be ok since i m already an aunt to so many niece and nephew. a very childish aunt indeed who used to play some stupid duck game i made up on the spot with them. lolx. =P but now, all of them have grown up, seldom meet anymore, kindof distant.

no more tutorial and lecture for the rest of my june holidays.! but that does not mean slacking.. JCTs on the 1st week of school. boohoohoo. this is no good, no good at all. =( hope i can do well.. still so confused over so many concepts. well. i guess i better start to understand them before they "finished" me off.

ooh.. i managed to borrow the special edition of "angels and demons" by dan brown, complete with pictures! so excited!m reading it now. felt like a young child who just found her favourite candy and is slowly savourind it,bit by bit. borrowed "Da Vinci code" the last time, complete with pictures as well. was great as the pictures aid in my understanding. hope this book will be just as nice as the "Da Vinci code"! hahah..=) ok i know i sound totally geeky here, but hey. i like to read! its fun n entertaining, and it is great for de-stressing as well. ok.. i can hear u guys saying how, since it involved reading, some sort of studying, how can it be fun. but interesting books with great plot are really a fantastic way to spend a whole afternoon with, esp if u have a cup of coffee or tea in your hand. it is very relaxing! =)) try it if u dont believe, but make sure the book is one u will like. heex.

on fri: oh my god, i think i was too obvious. i didnt wear my specs and was squinting my eyes at the other end of where i m standing to see if my friend was there and if the co ppl were there.was late for co camp. how would i know he was there too? if he hadn't stood up and walk in my direction, i would never know he was seated there! wad if he thought i was looking at him? omg!so paiseh! n i was holding on to mash potatoes! was looking for people to them away.think i must have look so stupid =(

just realize the other day that my tagboard is at the very bottom, after all my posts. kindof stupid, cos all along i thought i have no tagboard! how blur can i get?

today's jie jie bday!! "happy birthday to u.. happy birthday to u.. happy birthday.... happy birthday........ happy birthday to u!! wooohoooo!!" ahhaha.. u r old already.. so stop thinking that u r very young!! hahah.. =P
Had JTS yesterday. was damn funny.. because we bluff our seniors.we got them to wear beachwear and to bring 2.5 lemons. i bet all of them thought we were going to the beach or perhaps parkway to eat.. ahha..we "lure" them to parkway.. it aint our final destination thought. then, it turned out that kengmun knew where was the actual place and blurted out.. man.. but at least was fun!=) we brought them to mandarin garden. booked the function room there and there was food there!! yippee.. was famished!! chatted with the seniors and took several pics.. haven upload the pics yet. hehe.. thanks ratchaphorn for tt shirt! i really like it.. Thanks claire, rebecca and steph for praying for me.. really appreciate that.. =) thanks

hmm.. had been thinking and reflecting alot on myself recently. i realize that i had been too busy with my work that i tend to neglect the people around me.. i'm so sorry mum. i know it appears that i dont want to talk to you, and the computer is now my "best" mate, but its not true. its because i really have lots of work to do. i really want to make up the time lost and i hope that i can make up during the holidays. =)
hmm. dont you feel that whenever we are busy with our work, we tend to take the people around us for granted? we expect them to help us just because we are busy with our current projects and work. aint we too selfish? dont they have their own work too? aint those things that we expect them to do our own duties and responsibilities? i know that there are times we feel really drained.. we feel cranky and pissed with everything. but its just not fair that we vent all our anger on innocent parties. they aint the one who gave us the extra projects or work. its us we have to blame. its us, ourselves.. nobody can force us to take up extra projects if we really dont want to isn't it?
our pace in life is certainly too fast. shouldn't we slow down every now and then? we are missing out far too many things if we continue at this pace. we missed our love ones, we missed our friends, we miss opportunities in life.. shouldn't we take one step back to reflect on what we have done so far, instead of just heading straight all the time? in the process of acheiving our goals, we are missing out lots of things, we forget to look around, we just head straight.we left people behind, n perhaps, even lose ourselves in these frenzy. is this worth it?
ok. i know i sounded really emo but its just my way of thinking. kindof of messy flow of thoughts.. but who care? ahha.. its 12.20 am!


at times i wonder, will he walk too fast to notice me?

oh gosh.. its like 11.30 pm.. i should be dozing off on my comfy bed.. yet i m here blogging.. my time shown on blogs are all wrong de.. dont know who to amend it. =( listening to SHE latest album now. =)
Hm.. its the holiday! n yet i m still so busy!! Co camp! Makeup lectures.. tutorials..swim meet duty.. nvm hang on there! jiayou!
i dont think i going to make this a long blog.. cos.. i really want to go and slp!! ahhah.. tmr have lessons! starting from 8.30.. i feel i have no life..haha.. sch.. sc.. co... home.. damn. my life is so routine based.. no more going out.. perhaps only on sunday? hahah.. no more movies.. no more hanging out with friends to chill..=( well.. i chose this path myself.. so stop grumbling! hahah.. i m always contridicting myself.. when i m busy, i complain. when i m free, i also complain.. why m i always finding fault with myself? i also dont know.. (damn, my blog is getting so nonsensical.lolx)
i think i better stop here.. because, i think my blog is getting more and more "no link".lolx. so good nite ppl!sweet dreams.. as for me.. i will go slp on my superb comfy bed with lots of pillows! =)

had general meeting in the morning today with the 31st student's council. was feeling so drained after 2days of sports carnival.. discussed about the event coming up. had to find ppl to do 3 events. swim meet, tutor-parent dialoge and homecoming. hope i can find ppl who are willing to do duty! =)) had ppl signing up to do swim meet le. its on the 13 of june. hope we win cos i know the swimmers train really really hard, thrice a week.
Then, left early for CASHFLOW in NTU. was such a long journey, its in Boon Lay! east to the west.. hahah.. had such bad luck today. was the last to get out of the rat race.. =( but nvm. Rosemary, the ntu facilitator for our group was really nice and sweet. thanks for helping us as the "banker" for the game! really appreciate the encouragement you gave me. =)
Ate lunch with tricia, jy and yuang. had such a long discussion about vulgarities. hahah.. i was so anti-vulgarities while yuang was like "its normal mahs".. haha.. n tri n jy was like kindof neutral, ok when ppl are angry, not ok when ppl use on everything. yup.. cant believe that conver last so long, from our lunch to bus ride back to boon lay. hahah..
I dont know why but these few days, i just feel kindof down, kindof sad. shoulden i be happy? its the beginning of my council term.. holidays are here.. concert over.. no more late trips home.. lesser late nights chiong-ing work.. pe getting better games..see him so many times=)
yet, i dont know why m i feeling so emo these days. i dont know the source of it. just cant seems to smile. i get easily irritated, not tt cheerful/enthu, just not my normal self. why? is it because i m just too tired? hmm.. i dont know.orh maybe its just because i m sad that my snrs are sad because they are leaving already.. no more 30th.. well.. maybe..
or is it just him? my source of joy and saddness? such irony.


I was just thinking
is it just my imagination
or my senseless rumbling?
or is it just you i cant stop thinking.

Is it you or me?
that cause me to choke on my maggie mee.?
Is it true that love is blind,
if so, i guess i must be blind.
Were you just being kind
or are you really one of a kind?

You make me confused.
so very confused.
was that a hint of laughter i see?
laughter out of mockery?
or laughter out of pure joy and happiness?

Hope you are happy.
because you make me smile everyday! =)

*happy? or sad? =S confused





i m tired, disappointed,sunkissed(sunburnt) and pissed!

Today is the 2nd day of sports carnival. i stayed over last night, watched two movies, "step up" and "she's the man" i KO during "she's the man". didnt gt to watch the ending. Was too tired to kep my heavy eyelids open. And my sunburnt was hurting like hell. stinging pain. hate being so "loved" by the sun. keep making me "blushed" after my day out in the sun. So i woke up feeling blur as ever. So when yuen ask me tell jiayi to go toilet together. i just mumbled" go toilet" then jy ask "why" and you know what i replied? i said "dunno".. ohgosh.. i must be damn blur at that time man.. go toilet and dunnoe why go toilet.lolx
Then we went to the sports com to cheer the pdp reps on for their "wheelchair 3km" challenge. in the end, the 31st also took part. Hand was aching after the 200m-300m distance, now i understand the difficulty of getting around in wheelchair..
Since its the 2nd day of sports carn and i had no duty, i was superb ethusiatic and happy as now i can spent time with my cg and gt to participate in the events with my cg.! yup, i know i hardly have time for them, so sorry bout tt, so i really cherish the times we can spend as a cg. then, unhappy things happen at one of the event. oh gosh was i pissed at the referee. he was nt doing his job at all.! talk talk talk, back faced us, nv do his job properly, anyhow allocate points, nv look out for casualty. i was so pissed! he said we lost that match when it was so clear that we won 5-4 and not lost 3-4. we were fuming and yet he still insisted he was right. please.. u should be doing your job well and not neglect your job to chit chat! he made xiang rui so sad and angry that he cried lo. Xiang rui played so hard, he got himself injured and the ref dont even know!thats why he was so mad, he played so hard, we won and yet we are wrongly annouced as "loser" due to the ref negligence in his duty. fair? i ask you? no of course. our whole cg backed xr, such cls spirit. (Btw, thanks number 5 ref for trying to calm us down and sorry for being the one who have to tolerate all our bad temper and attitude. thats because we were all so mad at that point of time that we just kindof "burst" and exploded and u have to b the innocent victim of our onslaught on that particular ref) *Disappointed at such unfair treatment.
PS: to cg 14/07, so sorry about the whole thing. we arent mad at u guys, we are just mad at the ref. sorry for any misunderstanding and sorry for whatever we had said that may offend anyone of u. we didnt mean it.
The sun really love me alot, gave me "full attention" such that i gt sunkissed everywhere! so pain.. add on to yest one. stupid mozzies have to add love bites too. =(
hm.. what got me happier was when i went for dragonboating at kallang river in the evening. it was part of sports carn(our sports exposure)love the moments spent in the water paddling and splashing water. i always feel happier out in the sea or doing water activities such as kayaking or white water rafting. =)
then went to eat kfc with fengyi and felicia. we crap and gossip so much.. as usual, place 3girls together, this is probably the main content of what they are talking about. haha.. they two were superb crappy and we spent the time laughing and laughing. mood was getting better. =))
Now i m so tired! whole body aching! n i m sunburnt! can feel heat radiating out of me. lolx. i feel like going to my comfy bed to slp now! hahah..
Tmr is the "cashflow" competition held at ntu. hope we guys can win something back! jiayou 18/07 ppl! we are the best! yeah!
hey good job!!! he won a medal today. was happy for him, but the event he and his cg won was the event me and my cg was most unhappy with and pissed at. such irony. but we were playing for diff age grp. so i guess its ok. haha.. =P *happy to see you smiling!

hmm today is such a long, tiring but funfilledday! yup!its sport carnival! yeah! was down for refereeing duty for dodgeball.. well. it was no choice.. but nvm, enjoyed myself!just that i felt that some people really take the game realy seriously and can turn pretty violent. hey hey ppl, its supposed to be a friendly match,to bond ppl together and not to turn violent and start wacking your opponent with the ball like nobody's business.lolx. but was a fun experience. =) We referees played one friendly against some pdp. didnt know what pdp it was.. blur as ever.. but nvm. i was the lone survivor among my the other 4 comarades.. n i have to dodge all the balls alone.. was so difficult. did so many funny postures. mayb i should consider yoga.. lolx.. the sun was merciless. now i m like a lobster.. or should i say like i m constantly blushing? ahhaha.. =P so overall, was a great experience.. btw. thanks ratchaphorn for the delicious donut! and thankx to whoever who help me during my refereeing duty. greatly appreciated! =)
Went to toapayoh to watch the badminton finals.. we lost to rj! but its ok. Cos we r still proud of u guys.. did such a wonderful job, yeah! so smiles ppl, dont look so glum! =)
well.. gtg soon. gg back sch for stay over with the rest! yippee.. going to be fun fun fun.. so yeah.. byebye.. hehe

oh gosh.. that was really nice of u! =) u made my day.. =) if what jm says is true..then.. y shud i worry so much? hahah

phew.. one thing off my shoulders already.. 31st Student's Council Investiture is official over! well.. in my opinion, i think it went pretty well.. heex.. not much hiccups. except perhaps at the beginning when it was pretty messy, if not everything went pretty smoothly. =)
Justin and me! haha.. former student lounge director!love ur braces!(we both have nice wide smile!)
me an jiayi!! hahaha.. yeah! we r in the same Dept! RAP!! relations and publicity! love working with u girl! we must jiayou together.

Had much fun today.. have to get the other photos from the others. esp the one taken with both ratchaphorn and joel! 3oth! all of you will definitely be missed. the lessons u taught us, the times u shared with us, the advice you gave us, the hugs u gave to cheer us up, the shoulders you lent when we need it, the listening ear u spared when we grumble, the number of hours which you can spent studying are sacrific to teach us mass dances.. all this and more, the tears, sweat and smiles that we share is what bonded us so closely and strongly.. no matter what happens.. all of u will be my fav seniors! thanks 3oth council for everything u gave us! u will definitely be missed! =)

he came! he came! oh my goodness.. hahah.. was so happy.. tts was why i keep smiling throughout my investiture! hahah.. but is he really gay?

Busy busy busy! gosh. i only have time to blog now. been online for past few days but have been busy with school work and investiture! woo hoo. tmr's investiture. excited n ready for new challenges but sad that seniors will be leaving us soon.. =(
PW!! haix.. so many things to do yet so lil time.. if only i can stop time.. then maybe we can get everything done. all of us are so busy.. with our commitments and stuff.. oh gosh.. m i too greedy? taking up so many things? SC,CO, law electives, investiture comm.. but good news is investiture will be over by tmr 2 pm! so one less commitment and more time for other things! n holidays are coming! cant wait.. but there will still be make up lectures and tutorials but at least i will gt breaks yeh?haha.. n there will be cg outing to the zoo! hehe.. will be fun.. =)
Had pe today.. was pretty fun, we played capt's ball. was not in the mood to play actually so i was the defender instead.a shortie as defender? lolx..n was fun teasing yulan with mr hot.. hahah.. she was so paiseh.. whole face red. =P
Even though it is about 9pm now.. i can feel my eye lids drooping and my head throb. too tired? haha.. maybe..

Well shall blog more nxt time.. haha..

Had a great time on sat! CO concert at SCH. my very first experience.. haha.. was pretty smooth.. my hair was sprayed with glitters.. didnt want it at first.. haha.. but then gt "attack" by the "spray"!haha.. but heng manage to avoid putting make up.. i ahve enough pimples! i dont want more! lolx

gay or not? confused! plz give me a sign.. dont leave me there bewildered.. anyway.. have u ever notice me?

oh gosh! i suspect my eye candy is a gay! =(oh gosh.. y oh y.. let hope its not true!! plz..

haix.. ended co pract around 10. feeling damn lousy.. haix.. all time low.. its not that i cant play. i think i simply have no confidence at all, hence i always tend to present my worst in front of others. haix. its really saddening. i trained until my mouth still quiver after i stop n my teeth are feeling sour. yet.. i still cant produce any good result. n tmr is the concert already. i feel so stressed out.haix. and some ppl just dont understand that i m trying very hard already. all he does is criticise others. yar right.. i know i shall play superb soft so i will not ruin ur solo ok? so u will shine ok? so nothing will happen and ppl will rmb u as the superb good player ok? i just dont know why he cant understand. i mean he had been through what i m going through now n he definitely know how stressed out i m already, having to master the skills and the song in such a short time. its a miracle that i can even manage to play out the higher octave tunes. cant he even try to be nice?since its already one day before the concert? why must he keep demoralising me? "oh.. that wont sound nice, er.. can u play softer.. so XX can cover u?" to say the truth i was pretty pissed. however i cant be bothered already, too tired to talk, mouth still hurting. n i have other stuff to worry about..

why must life play such a cruel joke on her? shes still so young.. lets pray that its nth n just a scare.. no matter what. must jiayou! will be supporting u!

oh my gosh!! my eyecandy gg my investiture! over the moon!! =)

its saturday!! n i cant even get a decent sleep in.. had to wake up early to go sch for 1st GM. had internal election. had the 2nd post i wanted.. quite happy about it.. gonna be fun fun fun!! n i gt 2 plan for grand nite!! hahaha.. co0l.!
Investiture cuming!! arh!! hope nth gets screwed up. heex.
had dizi today. went pretty well. except i was horrible. teh rest were good. joanne making superb progress.. me.. slowpoke as ever. =( horrible. sat is the performance le.. haix.. maybe i will just do back stage den.
went to tm after that to do gpp. was superb tired.. been like rushing non stop since the morning. all my commitments.. haix..better gt the gpp up soon. its due nxt week. i cant believe it la. we handed our 1st draft like weeks ago n gotten it back like this week. and then told that nxt fri we gt to hand in!! arh! stress! why wasnt it given back earlier! gosh!
been ranting quite alot these days.. so many things happened. so many things to do but so lil time.. when will i ever gt my well deserved break? when can i ever feel relax n not so tense up?

the only reason i m still smiling is because of you.. but .. is what i saw really true? im confused. damn.

arh!! was all prepared to go supreme court for learning journey today!! even went to buy sweets with the rest. we bought all the sour sour sweets like sour skittles, sour power( green apple), sour cassies.. then.. we cant go.. because we have mother tongue enrichment class and that has higher priority, so we cant go.. so disappointed.. all of us were in high spirit at 1st.. because we go cg outing.. then.. cancelled!!
went for the mother tongue enrichment feeling rather sore.. however, cant say that is was a waste of time or sth. the DJs from jia 883 came to our school to give us a talk bout the life of a DJ and so on.. we saboed xiang rui to take part in a game. n he won!! hahah.. cos they think he very cute n cos we cheered the loudest for him. haha.. so funny.. xiangrui is lyk the wang sha in our cls while randy is lyk the late ye feng. the comedy twosome.. haha.. n xiangrui can do the famous "titi you dada" with that retarded face. so funny..
after that, went parkway with junmin. haha.. wanted to buy sth for mum for mother's day. however, got nth instead.. cos cant find anything nice for her.. argh!! its this sunday!! how how?? tmr bah
have internal elections of sc post tmr!! first GM.. haha.. think my uniform superb crumpled but nvm lar.. hahah. have to do gpp tmr!! we handed in so early.. but only gt back like this week? n nxt week must hand in le!! argh!! stressed n pissed! grumpy!

CO got gold with honours!! congrats!! jiayou jiayou!!
TJ soccer nt tt bad like.. though will be trashed like siao by VJ but turn out to b a good game afterall.. good job guys!! we r proud of u

ok.. fine! i know i m a girl. but so what? u mean girls cant do as good a job as a guy? u think that only guys r mentally n physically strong. i do admit guys r definitely better in physical stuff, but for mental strenght, i can say that both girls and guys r equally strong. so stop being so egoistic n stuff. we are living in the 21st century.. not some way back 9th century or sth. u r jux baise. u have nv ever given me a chance to prove myself. its so disappointing. u r sumone i hold in high esteem n take inspiration frm. now.. its all gone..
feeling rather low.. but thankx 4 all the support i gotten frm my cg!! love all u guys!!with u all arnd, i will nv feel alone cos i know i can always depend on u all! n dont worry, i will nv ever forsake u guys!! =) love u guys to bits!! n to those ppl who gave me encouragement, who believe in me, who were there for me, a big thankyou!!it is greatly appreciated n i take comfort in those words u all tell me! =)
yes. i will bounce back to normal in no time!! smiley n superb enthu kia will be back yeah!! hahha.. i still want to be model student leh.. lolx..
was washing mass tins the yesterday.. horrible job.. joshua washed till his hands look like they r going to rot soon. i was looking like sum ah soh washing at the market. haha.. very funny. scrub and scrub!!

was that a smile for me? why do i have to meet u when i m looking atmy worst.. damn.

MAMBO NIGHT!! SO RETRO RIGHT!!

TRICIA AND ME!! (oh gosh! my pimple so big~!!)

hm.. been so long since i last blog. been really bz with preparation of second orientation 2 update. hehex..
lemme refresh my memory.. hmm.. oh ya.. my o lvl results.. well.. nt exactly fantastic tho. gt 7 As, l1r5 8. bit disappoint tho but its okie la.. @ least i gt my place in TJ secured!! hehe.. TJ!! =) stay in the same cg as 1st three mths.. 9 of our ex 18/07 left us, either to other jcs or other cgs. well.. cg18/07 will nv b the same wothout them.
so embarrassin on orientation night. i cried even b4 it ended. becum too emotional.. so unlike mi.. haha.. den those we try comforting mi ended up crying 2.. sum cg mates leaving for good n the end of scip.. realli realli sad.. no more mass dancing session wif the "entertainers" who r best @ self entertaining. haha.. memories of the days spent with u guys will b etched in my memory 4ever, promised! =)
mr koh, our econs cher is so cool! he gt 7 dist for his A lvl! top student!! wau.. so honoured to be taught by him. hahah. congrats!! =)
i m 17 oready!! haha.. 19/03 my bdae! thankx 4 the gifts, cards n well wishes!! =) so old oready!! arh..can time plz slow down.. i dun wanna b so old.. =P

a lil poem composed randomly

dull ticking of the clock
i stare blankly at the lock
admit defeat n b released?
No way, my heart will nv b at ease.

terror, fear griped mi like a vice
for once i feel as scared as a mice.
who's this talking outside my cell?
i thought beside me there shud b no one else...

jus when i thought everything went fine
a news came n spoil everything divine
is it true? or is it jux a fragment of my imagination.?

nowadays, i feel so empty? lyk i m jux passing the days without much thought. day afta day, routine afta routine. is this the way i really want my life to be? i don't know.i m confused. i m scared.scared to explore the unknown, scared to do it alone.

been asked to go for the pre-u seminar. having an interview this thurs. results for o level will be out this fri. really nervous. hope i do really well.=)

argh!! his attached le.. so sad.. =.( nvm ... fate will bring me to find my zhen ming tian zhi de. =) search slowly bah

argh!! y my angel nv gif mi anithing!! hahah.. is it he/she thought i m a guy n find no nd 2 gif mi anithing? =( so sad la.. everyone seems to recieve sth frm their angel, letters, notes, snacks, gifts. i dont ask for much. jux a note will do.. =/ so difficult meh?
ARH!! gt allegic reaction to a caterpillar!! rashes everywhr!!itchy!! arh!!

I gt into scip!! yeah!! went for the camp on saturday. Was so fun! my grp was called snoozeroo. Cheryl, steph and rebecca was our ic. we did many daring n embarrassing stuff together. but was really fun. we went to changi airport 2 shake hands with visitors. ask ppl to read the time off our watches. etc etc. was really fun! n at night, we had only 2 hours to plan a party for the snrs. it was kindof role play as the snrs take on certain characters n roles to test us. =) tiring but fun!! =) n my grp played the "truth or dare" game. we did "daring" stunts such as taping ppl's leg hair, taking ppl's phone n type in own phone number, touching sumone n sae u r hot.. etc.. =)

Aiyo.. my name very weird meh? FRED is NOT my sirname!! keep getting comments that my name is unique, etc.. n ppl tot i m not singaporean!! haha.. they tot i came 2 singapore to study..=/ ppl!! winifred is a real english name.. its not an accident or anithing. n i lyk my name becos its unique n i really grow 2 love it alot over the yrs! if u dun lyk it.. so be it.. its my name n its in my birth cert.. wad can u do bout it? nothing.. so if u dun lyk it.. jux keep it 2 urself ok.. cos i dun wan 2 hear ani negative things bout my name. my parents took the time and effort name mi n its my pride tt it is unique n i really lyk it. so plx dun b so mean n make fun of my name. its jux nt funny at all.

haix.. o lvl results gg 2 cum out real soon. really hope i gt gd results! *cross fingers. planning 2 run for sth in scip. so hope i gt it 2.. *cross fingers!! praying really hard for things 2 happen!! plz grant mi my wishes!!=)

Went for scip interview today. kindof nervous at 1st n the air-con was really cold. so i was like holding my hands together n trying to speak at the same time. kindof funny because i look like i m praying . haha. i did my interview wth 2 other girls. they are both foreigners but they are really nice. wonder if i gt selected, results will be out tml. n there will be a camp on sat. crossing my fingers! =)

there will be a handball competition tml!! hahah.. maybe playing for my cg, if not i will cheer them on.hope we win, den can gt the vouchers.. lolx. climbing is on tml too. wanna go n c too, but i dont think i have the time too. n i m supposed to b at debate at that time! so many things happening at the same time slot!! omg..

tests coming soon! its only 1st three mths! argh!! its nt even honeymoon at all.. its pre-hell orientation. ! hahah. but den, sadist u may sae, but i kindof enjoy myself, rushing around and doing things.but a lil tiring tho.

have to do both english fair skit n bio project. think there will be points award that will b taken into consideration as assignments and cls participation. better do a gd job! =) hope our skit will be a blast!

well.. gtg le.. its gg to b 10 soon. n i will be swimming tml in the morn at the swimming complex! hahah.. bye=)

My tears are mingled with the rain outside. Thats why u see none on my face...

It the third week inTJ! Hmm. Been adjusting and fitting in pretty well. I'm in cg 18/07. Nice people there. Going for CG outing tml! Lunch and movies, but too bad i can't join them for the movie, because i have to rush back for my scip interview. Hope I get through!=)
Went to CO orientation today. It seems pretty fun but I have no music background. Hm.. may consider bah. haha. if not i join climbing or debate lo.
been pretty hectic these days those. Lectures, tutorials, projects, blah blah blah.. feeling a little bit more tired than usual these days too. Hate it when i have to do everything while others just relax and do nth.=( but i cant jux sit around n wait for things to happen. i want to get over and done with it, i want to finish it, and do the best in everything i pursue or thrown into. if given a task, its either i do my best, put in all my effort, or don't even take it in the 1st place. thats just me, its not because i totally enjoy in doing things or anything, but i just want to finish as soon as possible, so i will have time to do other things. i just don't like to procastinate, wait til the last min. people who don't understand me will think that i m just acting hardworking, but its not. if i appear very enthusiatic about certain stuff, its not because i totally love it, i just want to raise the energy level up, so everyone can do their best, because people work best when their happy. hate to be misunderstood by people. if u don't know me, don't try to think you know me, because what u see is not what u get. you can try to guess who i m or wadeva, but i can bet you, u are no where close to who i really m.
i hide my emotions in front of others. i dont really lyk to be sad or angry infront of people, because i will tolerate n put up with people first. but please.. dont try to test my patience! theres a limit to one's patience too, including the most patient person on earth! though i mask my emotions through laughters, i m still a human, n i have feelings. i will feel angry when being used n sad when people dont understand me.
tired n sleepy already. =) going to slp so0n.. wish me luck 4 my interview!!

been a week since i embark on my JC journey in temasek. it started with uncertainty n insecurities. perhaps its only me, but i just feel totally weird in a strange environment. its lyk the place i have been wanting 2 go n here i m now, in my dream jc..

orientation was pretty fun tho(og 6) orexus!. made many new frenz n the seniors r really very friendly n welcoming. but i jux feel lyk a close flower bud. unable to fully express itself n show its true self. i was mostly hiding my true self. i dunnoe y. perhaps 2 protect myself from external harm becos i m in a new environment? subconciously i jux keep reminding myself tt i have to behave.. not be silly me. its so weird 2 not act urself tho.

hmm. 2nd week was following a special timetable. no tutorials. only lectures and civics. i m in CG 18/07. same cls as jy,jm n lynn. yeAH! rejoice! ahhah. when i m with my frens. i feel totally comfortable n slowly, bit by bit, i open up my petals to reveal my vulnerable side 2 others. i tok 2 strangers, dare to voice opinions already. =) being more comfortable.

hmm. hope tt i stay in tj. i dun wan to go thru the same tedious process of hiding my true self. acting lyk an enclosed flower bud for fear of geting bruise from the new environment.

this post sounded so anticlimax! hahah.. so not lyk my usual style nor my personality. i think i mayb growing up le. i dun wan 2 be so naive animore. dun wan 2 b cheated or betray again jux becos i open my petals out 2 fast n exposed my vulnerable side 2 b hurt.

i shall be brave now n open them out slowly. =) plz give me the strength 2 do so . =)

i decided to write an entry on the new hangouts of teenagers! haha.. teens nowadays not only hang out at orchard road n bugis street but there are new places adding to the ranks.!The old hangouts include orchard cineleisure, heeren,fareast,bugis junction and bugis street.

the new hangouts
*scape theme park
this is not exactly a very new theme park. it is situated behind orchard cineleisure. its main attraction in the past is mainly skaters and bikers because there are ramps for them to show case their stuff. however,now, this park is also drawing a hugh crowd from different areas such as the rockers, gothic, hippie, trendy..this is due to the LIME flea market held there every fortnight. The flea market is now one of the "IN" and "happening" place to grab cheap and trendy items. There is a theme each week such as "room makeover" or "vintage". be sure to find cute and querky stuff.! =)

beaches!
this include east coast park, pasir ris beach, palawan beach in sentosa and many more! a Hit to those who love the sun, sand and sea. teens can be found bbqing, camping or even playing beach volleyball on the sandy beaches.! camping there and bbqing is much cheaper and much more fun than having a chalet(personal view). listening to the sea waves is a great way to destress too!

library.
shock to see that library make the rankx? well. libraries do have its advantages and the lure to attract teens. the air-conditioned libraries provide a get away frm the merciless sun.the comfy sofas are good to rest. teens can also study there in such a condusive place. comics and computers are also there and the greatest advantage is: you will nt fear of seeing ur parents when out wif ur frens! the shelf provide good hiding places to avoid ppl you do nt wan to meet.!cool huh?

vivo city
the lastest attraction!! the biggest shopping centre. many ppl are heading there to check out the shopping centre. a pity tho, there are far too many high end boutiques and too little teen shops. perhaps they shud alocate an area for teens hence retaining the teen crowd?

sentosa
its an island offshore! haha.. less chance of meeting ppl you wanna avoid. and the many attractions will ensure a day of fun fun fun! more over wif the beaches there(read above),it will definitely be a hit.

Toa Payoh HDBhub
the hub is a mini shoping centre. there are many small carts which sells cheap clothings and accessories! the heartland stores outside also offer cheap and trendy clothings, bags and shoes.!

hmm.. theres still others. blog more nxt time.. tata!

been a long while since i last post anythong here. been really busy with my preparation for my "o" lvls, night study, extra lesson, extra practical, peer tutuoring, etc etc,, jc open hse n poly open hse. now its finally over.. "o" lvls over n i spent the past few days slacking, gg overseas, using com, toking 2 frens, gg out, doing things i lyk n even manage 2 read a couple of gd novels.=)
i gt 12 points for my prelims but thankx 2 my hmt, afta bonus, i have 8 points i manage 2 "squeeze" into temasek jc science stream 4 first 3 mths!! haha =) so happie! i m over the moon.but so sad.. nt all my frens made it. lets hope we can all enter tj afta our o lvl results r out but i m really nervous about my o lvl results tho.
my friends had gotten their "N"lvl results. gd job guys! all promoted 2 sec5s! =)
hmm.. at the end of nov i went to this tp rawks event in temasek poly. its really fun actually n almost sway me towards having my nxt stage of education there. but i doubt i can b suited 2 poly life. i m so odd ball.. hahah ..=) n i m superb blur n accident prone. how 2 survive there? blur ppl lyk me will only lost my way 2 lecture, crash wrong tutorials, mess up my time table, etcetc.. hahah..=P
x'mas is coming!!yeah! one of my favourite holiday! so i wish all of u a merry merry x'mas. afta x'mas it will b new yr.. lets dump all our unhappiness in 2006 n start 07 wif new prospectives n new outlook in life! 4gt all the heartbreaks, bad results or wadeva n start of a brand new yr wif a smile! this way life will be much sweeter n u will feel much happie! so long! n make new yr resolution.
my x'mas wish:
1. gt excellent o lvl results
2.everyones wish to come true
3. Santa 2 visit me
4. family to be safe n well
5. u?hahahah=X

today ment PA for campcraft com.. so early wake up.. den frnt gate locked!! argh.. bus late?den we almost late 4 com.. BUT heng...hahah.. manage 2 reg. in time..=)
competition was nt so intense lar.. jux tt were much faster den usual?haha.. =)gadget was fab.. shelter was v.gd.. so think gt chance? i hope so.. *cross fingers..
yesterday nite student. i was lyk coughing lyk siao.. haix.. den charmaine n mi keep luffing ova everything.. was so fun.. n funny.. haha.. so i was lyk luff cough luff... haha.. den on my way home i sprain my ankle..!! so pain lor.. i was lyk... unable 2 walk.. so limp home..all my phone's fault.. ring at the wrong time.. =(
been pretty busy this days.. den down with cough.. feel so tired lor... haix..

i getting tired le.. oso dunnoe wad 2 write.. think this blog is rotting.. haha.. =P

hmm.. been a long time since i last visted here.. haha.. been kindof enjoying my holidays.. cant sae fantastic, cant sae sian.. a balance bah.. hahah.. n i gt a job! haha.. not exactly lar.. jux peer tutoring my neighbour.. =)

yesterday when orchard.. hmm.. tot will start 2 haf the christmas festive feeling le.. but disappointment!! 1. TAKA christams sale not ready yet! ARGH! 2. no irritating x'mas song!! i kindof start 2 miss them..=P 3. the lightings r not tt fabulous compared 2 past years..(shake head) 4. shopping centres no longer take the "nicest decorated shopping centre" competition seriously.. sad.. cos gt no santa figurine.. nor reindeer..5. no X'mas sale aniwhere!! make mi cum home empty handed!! =(

hmm.. went to cineleisure yest. went to this buffet.. v nice.. haha.. gt steam boat, terriyaki.. n best of all i gt to fry ice cream!! its this cool cold plate.. den pour the flavour of ice cream u lyk(in liq form) then it harden n u enjoy!! we ate lyk 10 diff flavour.. haha.. gt vip treatment seh.. i wan the salmon sushi, they go make 1 plate specially 4 mi,, no xtra charge.. the ice-cream waffle sent to us without us needing to take ourselves,, haha..

supposed to go K-ge de.. but i gt flu.. how to? so sad leh.. met a lot of dmn ppl at orchard oso.. wanting, karen and a bunch of dmn guys i dunnoe de.. probably sec4 this yr bah.. haha.. hmm x'mas cuming le.. gg 2 haf headache of wad 2 buy 4 ppl le.. haha.. =)

So long.. happy advance christams day!!=)

so happy!!

my heart pound so fast..
my face turn frm beige 2 red apple!!
argh!!!=)

yeah!! going holiday liao..! so far nv kena any remedial.. hope not! haha.. yeah!! nv fail any subject 4 end of yr.. even manage 2 scrap 2 As.. hahah.. quite unexpected.. the funniest was tt me..being one of the lousiest in chinese..actually top my hmt cls 4 the paper.. i was lyk so stun when she tell mi.. hehehe..
another good news!! i m known 4 toking alot..esp crap.. but hu will expect this crappy n oni tok nonsense gal 2 win best speaker in debate? hahaha.. was so shock 2 haf won.. cos i tot i mess it up..=P my team oso won GOLD!!hahha.. happie!
hmm.. 31st of october cuming liao le..!! '0' lvl chinese exam.. realli nervous..n scared.. been staying bac everyday 4 chinese xtra lesson... STRESS!!!
2molo last day of school liao le.. gg 2take back report book.. i veri scared leh..haix.. n so sad.. sum of my clsmate ask 2 drop 2 sub science.. Sad..hope they can dont drop n con't lor.. cos its lyk we haf been doing pure 4 one yr.. den all of a sudden drop 2 sub.. lyk weird weird leh..
holidae haf to be back 2 sch 4 xtra lessons..prepare 4 sec4 next yr.. 2nd n 3rd week of holiday. heard its oni the languages...so may not be so stressful lor..
we had post exam activities 2day 4 sec3!mi n wy suppose 2 do duty 4 boggle wif nadiah n cass.. in the end we took part cos our cls no representatives.. haha.. n we won 2nd!!not too bad rite? even learn a few new words lor..=P

PRAY HARD 4 my report book results!!! hafing report book phobia liao.. haha..

signing off.. ice


is he gay?haha

yeah!! no more exams!!well.. at least not for the next 2 weeks!!haha.. exam free!! end of yr exam ended last fri n mon will be marking day!!=P gg out 2 sstudy 4 "0" lvl chinese 2molo..c i so guai!! hehehe
so relieve tt yr end exam ova le.. those r all KILLER PAPERS!!! who set those papers??!! haha.. nevertheless.. i tthink the setter mux b preparing us 4 "0"s nxt yr.. sooo u shall b pardon..hope i pass my examx wif
Flying COLOURS!!
haha.. pray hard!!=P

hmm.. though exams r ova.. i haf other worries.. =( CCA start oready!! fri gonna haf a preparation 4 promo training... promo cuming so0n.. but kindof sad.. cos this yr no suspense for us.. we all noe the date.. last time owaes is surprise spring promo.. so its more fun.. haha.. ppl all scared scared de.. den mux c normal training gt pay attention anort.. those were the days..

haha.. i receive an award but my gender was a male!! hahah.. was really funny n paiseh at tt time.. my name realli veri masculine meh? hahah.. hope not.. =P

2day is so cold.. rain the whole day.. will be great 2 sleep.. haha.. oh!!4gt to share a gd news n bad news.. my guinea pig gaf birth oready!! garlic gaf birth to 2 babies!! haha.. one pure white..not an albino as its eyes r black.. not red.. one is white wif a patch on the eye.. haha.. both r veri cute.. at first i tot y r there tissue paper in the cage..upon a closer look.. i saw the 2 babies.. i named them sugar(pure white) n spice ( one eye patch)..hehe..garlic is a realli protective mum..now she dun allow u 2 carry her..cos she dun wanna b seperated frm her babies..yup.. motherly love!! so touching.. hahah.. now i gt 6 guinea pigs!! tts alot.. Dale(the father of 4), Garlic(mother of 2), salt& pepper(sons of ginger who pass away..='( ...) and sugar&spice..

now the bad news.. the hamster scratchy died today.. its really sad.. its the cutest hamster i hve eva seen.. so active.. will ask 4 fd..but it pass away 2dae.. ='(

hmm.. shall blog more next time

sMiLeZ..

living in the world of my own

"i could hear nth but the soft thumping of my heart and my breathe.. was it all real? izzit the end? i dun noe i do not wanna noe.. plz dun tell mi.. plz keep all this 2 ur self... i may not be able to take it........"

y r u stopping us frm acheiving wad we wan? y cant u jux listen to us? y do u oni listen to others n not us? dont u trust us? if not .. y gif us such high post? aint u contridicting urself... i m veri tired.. veri tired of it.. u nv listen to us.. do we still wanna work under u?

this days i m feling very bump out.. 1st exams r drawing near.. its lyk 2 weeks later i will be taking my yr end exams.. 2nd..CCA.. training.. promo.. 3rd... my own prob wif sch work.. cant seems to grasp it.. i can do in cls.. in cls test but when cum to exam..

hmm.. did chemistry pract today!! was kindof fun.. 1st time i actually did the pract all by myself.. my lab partner doing his own... cos gt 2 experiment.. each of us do one.. yup.. 1st time i did without help lor.. n can even write out the equations.. hahaha... =) now i sch using coms... hehehe.. thursday is english oral.. taken by HOD miss yew.. i kindof glad she to0k us cos she is a realli nice cher but u noe.. HOD.. she definitely haf high hopes on us.. esp my class ppl.. so.. i beta take gd care of my voice.. dun wanna croak in front of her.. hahaha

wau.. nadiah sitting opp mi now.. she lo0k so sian den face her com.. mux be thinking of whoever frm "C" school.. !!! hahah.. opps.. sorry nadiah.... hmm wondering how is wanyin doing wif her oral now.. she gt it 1st as her register is b4 ours.. haha.. hope she do well..!

tty day on sat there was this recycling dae in my school.. we broke a guiness world of record for the longest chain of plastic bottles!! haha.. gt my effort.. i bring bottles.. drill holes..etc etc.. so ppl.. mux recycle arh... dun anihow throw away.. now my sch still selling ice cream n malt candy.. tt taariq dun wanna gif mi the malt candy!! wan mi buy.. dots... frens oso mux buy... in the end i nv buy.. buy frm pasar malam.. cheaper n bigger.. hahaha..

hm.. sell write more next time! byebye

yup.. i noe i haf not blog 4 such a long time le.. yup.. sorry.. but been pretty bz.. wif competition.. examx.. life science.. cca.. all cramp..its pretty amazing i still can blog.. hahah..=P
yeah!! national day.. happie 40th birthday to my darling nation-Singapore!!yup.. its pretty young 4 a country rite? hahah.. 2day celebration quite lame.. veri short.. den mi n a few frens went2watch movie.. hahah.. charlie n the choc factory @ princess.. wau.. c00l men the show.. the oompa loompas r actualli oni one man.. n the factory look so co0l.. make mi wanna eat choc oso.. haha.. was realli nice.. so go watch kx?..
hmm.. many things happen lar this says.. haha.. dun wanna sae.. =X ahaha
let u all go guess..
hahah
..
byebye...

can help grinnin!!

hmm.. today 1st day of sch.. i woke up early.. get ready early.. jux lyk ani other schooling days.. BUT CAN U BELIEVE THIS? i was LATE!!! laTE!! n its becos of tt stupid bus!! cum sooo late.. the bus stop was lyk sooo packed liao lor.. haix.. but heng heng.. councillors nv gif detention today.. hahah.. wanyin was lyk so superb shock to c mi at the front gate lor.. hahah.. her eyes soo big.. when i was at the side gate.. the aunty lock the gate infrnt of mi lor..kao.. cant wait meh.. still gt 1 min leh.. aunty.. i gt watch oso lor... dun bluff mi lor.. make mi walk such a big round..
ITS oni 1ST day of sch.. n my day is lyk so rotten.. n a hectic week ahead... haix.!

tues: do physic webquest
weds: NE tour ( wonder go where.. hahhaha.. long time nv go excursion le.. pri sch so mani.. go zoo.. bird park.. museum... shud be sum historical place or wadeva lar.. hahah but nvm.. shud b quite fun lor =) ) *mus rmb sign consent form
thurs: NPCC training 4 the competition on fri + refresher course 4 life sc.. prepare 4 sat
fri: NPCC fancy drill competition.. (gd luck ppl!)
Sat: excelfest at suntec.. ( go there do duty 4 life science lor =) 11am to 8pm!!!)

haix.. 1st week oni leh.. packed till full lor.. oni sunday free. most prob will be doin hw bah.. haix..sian lor.. y sec3 so hectic.. den today selection 4 inter class debate.. 4 mani speaker.. one reserve.. gt eugene.. eirene..andre.. kesavan..n mi lor.. ahhah.. dunnoe hu reserve.. i think is mi lor.. =P den eugene veri funny.. ask mi " cant dun write my name?" den i reply.. " even mi haf to write my own name down.. so u say leh?" hahah den he jux luff..
Time table change liao le.. yar lor.. sian.. mux rmb new one liao le.. hmm.. beta take 28 tomolo? hahaha.. c 1st lar..

*was it him tt i saw?* *SmileZ*

*still living in self denial?*

*cant help grinning*

hmm.. long time nv blog rite.. well got news.. i m out of the fancy drill team.. surprise?? hahha.. nvm.. its ok.. i miss 2 trainingd.. n gt a serious talk over it..haha.. nvm lar..
oh yeah.. wad happen to mi over these days.. hmm.. i met a guy on the bus.. he look so familiar.. i m sure i c him b4.. maybe in sch.. hahahha... he look kindof cute actually.. ahhahaha =P happie!
haha.. can u believe this? jon actualli gt into dragon boat(cca) in poly!!! co0l rite? hahahah.. mux be attracting alot of gals now wor.. hahahahha.. *dian xiao mei mei..*zap zap*
hahha.. hmm.. not much this days lor..
gt pk(police knowledge) course in hq.. hahha.. wif other areas.. howeva.. i think my area is the most united de.. haha.. maybe becos of lmsc? our area is lyk closer.. n we help each other more lor.. lyk we will remind each other if we c a mistake so we will not kena.. n etc.. yup.. hmm.. learn a couple things.. so ppl.. dun bully mi arh.. cos i noe the law!! hahahaha.. can sue u.. ahahha.. jkjk..
den got this silly game.. hold ur breathe thing.. den mux sae "arh...." area 8 lyk not competing 4 longest breathe.. but 4 shortest.. ahhhahah.. den tt stupid weida.. how dare u step on my boots!! no wonder u haf such a short breathe!! ahahhahah.. =P cant beat mi...
hmm..not much le lar.. sch reopening soon.... blog nxt time..

*living in self denial?*

*cant help smiling!*

hmm.. actually arm pain.. so dun wanna cum n write de.. but so mani days nv update.. feeling weird.. so here i m.. hmm.. mux be wondering wad i m up to this few days arh? hahah.. i went 4 LMSC( leadership n mentoring skills couse) with area 8.. it in in dunman.. was quite a nice course.. we did MOI.. we played games.. teambuilding n learn things lor.. den i lyk one phrase a lot " to lead is not to hit others on their head, tts assault not leadership!" =) nice rite? so ppl.. dun hit my head oready ok? i stupid enuff oso.. hahha =)
my grp is grp one.. wif cass n izzat.. haha.. we kindof stick by each other.. cos is lyk we noe each other beta mah.. hahha =) den the first dae was veri funny.. cos no other sch noe wad is discernment..den i gt a mnm cos i noe wad it meant.. of cos i noe lar.. dunmanite leh.. hahahha =P den ppl tot dmn ppl english so powerful.. hahahha.. *fakos*
hmm.. today woke up early early 4 spds.. actualli dun wanna go de.. cos i gt runny nose n cough.. but bcos i oready promise nadiah 2 go.. i pull myself to go lor.. den we did sum pt in the morn.. i wasnt tt enthu.. partially becos nose was blocked.. n worst..when i run.. it blocked.. how to breathe? i used mouth.. i cough.. how? in the end.. i end up gasping more 4 air lor.. hahaha.. den we did normal training.. wasnt kindof glad.. cos nadiah n wy went 2 teach cheers.. n i m stuck in the garden mastering my full jumbo.. learning ground toss.. n doing combi jumbo.. haix.. den formation n stuff.. think i suck.. i think i m lyk the worst in the team lor.. make mistake queen.. or BLUR queen... haix.. sorry guys.. i shudden even be in the main team.. in the end.. i hurt my hand.. gt a big bruise between my thumb n index finger..haix.. so pain..
den aftanoon gt drill com.. was kindof slack in my drills.. cos i oready veri tired liao.. but so long nv drill.. i feeling more of happie bah? hahah.. sweat it out! hahha.. there was selection.. i was selected!!haha.. wif the otehr sec3s.. was happie n was feeling great.. perhaps this year meant more to us(sec3s) cos is our last yr to take part in this le.. n will be held in our rival sch (hai sing).. aim is to win dem! hahahah.. hope so.. its their home ground.. so mux drill harder... together everyone acheive more.. riteX? =)
well hand really veri pain liao.. cant even use my thumb to type.. haix.. mux take care of my hand.. " cos it is my most impt thing now.." " cannot gt sick"(though i gt sick oready liao) "cant gt in the rain"(this was the excuse the sec2s gave mi so i will shelter dem to the mini mart... evil...)

living in self-denial

Haf i lost my smile?

hmm.. jux back from spds training.. u mux be realizing i m missing for days rite? well.. i went ubin on mon-weds for atc(adventure training camp).. it wasnt tt thrilling afta all. veri sian n slack actually.. this yr gt bvss join area 8.. hm.. nt tt i m not anti-social or wad.. but i m not exactly happie tt they join us.. they r not lyk our area.. we r more conservative? more well-behave? ah lians kindof exist there.. n they even bully us!!! cut our queue during bath time.. its lyk sooo... argh!!! u haf to queue rite? imagine u r dirty n u r so close to bathing in the nice cool water den sumone jux cut in ur line n rush in.. wth? =(
on sunday,, i was kindof busy preparing 4 the camp.. its lyk oni 2 day rest b4 another camp.. wasnt feeling veri hype.. haha.. den watch water boys.. nice show.. the guy was cute.. hahah.. opps!
on mon,, 1st day of atc.. we arrive at changi jetty. hmm.. been one yr since i been there.. last time was last yr atc.. so diff now.. gt departure n arrival hall.. haha.. den dunman gt on the boat early.. den we took a van to the campsite( kampong bahru) instead of hiking lyk the rest of the other schs.. haha.. yeah! so we kindof rest superb early.. haha.. den we play games.. telephone line.. bili blanja and chop chilli chop... haha.. was so fun.. den other schs arrive... mux stop.. cos one sch gt casualty den mux be silent.. shhhh...haha.. coral was in charge of logistic while hai sing was the hosting sch..1st day as usual.. grouping.. counting.. pitching tents.. mock campfire.. etc etc.. day pass without much event.. i was same group as nadiah.. my group gt 5 hai sing gals leh! n oni 2 dunman.. so little..
on tues... hmm.. started the day with pt.. i stupidly volunteer myself b4 realizing it was 2 be pti.. haha.. wanyin oso kena.. so we both took them 4 warming up n cooling down.. during jogging.. we were the back sweepers..together with namirah.. haha.. was veri veri slack.. den we had breakfast..the guys was late 4 breakfast.. so in the end.. the gals have to take spurs(long ones) from the sec2 campsite for pioneering.. i stupidly volunteer again as i dunnoe wad we gonna do... haha.. in the end.. kao.. was so diff.. we have a trolley.. we have to go thru up slope n down slope.. so was kindof lyk a roller-coaster ride 4 us.. n the rest of the campers r actualli slacking at the campsite! =( shudden haf volunteer.. den we did pioneering and topograhy.. we have to build a structure to hold sumone.. so we kindof build it simple by using oni square lash n round lash to support.. den realize y so mani sch lyk nv teach these 2 lashings.. turn out mi n nadiah haf to teach along the way.. haha.. was kindof fun..=) den came topo.. haha.. heng i nv let dmn down.. i remember bearings... back bearings.. setting maps.. etc.. den came the last challenge.. was kindof tough.. had to cross a obstructure.. den i suggest we use man to man bearing.. to my horror.. my team mates dun even noe what i was tokin about! were they dreaming last yr during sec2 atc when we were taught.. so i kindof becum i tcher again.. sian.. dun think they understand wad i saying.. luckily nadiah oso rmb.. so we taught them 2gther.. HO zong yi sae our grp did the right thing.. the HOs n CIs oso did man to man bearing.. our angle was oso rite.. haha.. yeah!! =) afta lunch we did ATF!! yeah! it was high elements.. was so scary.. so high.. den tt wei da frm haising dun wanna give the rescue ladder 4 dmn gals.. u r lucky we aint doing the rescue ladder when u r trying or we will oso not give u arh.. hahaha =P.. at nite we have campfire.. it was kindof sian.. cos ppl not hyper.. so not fun wan.. my grp haising ppl nt reali tt hyper.. but when in their sch they veri hyper.. soo.. contridicting? tt nite.. we slp in the assemble hall instead of tent.. was much beta.. lesser mosquitoes.. i kena so many bites on 1st dae.. izzit i 2 sweet? hahah =)
3rd day.. basically is area cleaning.. we clean the tents.. guys..u all beta do more household chores! the tents u all clean r still so dirty.. the gals haf to help clean 4 u all.. haha.. was kindof looking forward to home.. best camper was given to siglap(boys) n bvss(gals).. the guy i have nth to sae.. he was go0d.. but the gal.. wel.. she was ok.. she was gd at times.. but she keep giving excuse of not learning topo cause she in norm stream.. tts not even a valid reason 4 not learning.. i was kindof hoping zubaidah win.. she was realli gd.. n keep gting her grp to hype up.. nvm. in my heart i noe is zubaidah can liao..
yesterdae n today.. went 4 spds training.. took the "express" way.. so lyk fastforward to learn stuff.. muscles aching as jux bac frm atc.. learn rotation, half n full jumbo.. now learning ground toss.. kao.. dey all sae i auntie.. i ask qnn oni.. sae i auntie.. i scare rifle hit mi sae i kia see.. so bad.. i dun think i can realli do full jumbo well but sir sae can.. kao.. dun bluff mi lor.. =( mux jia you wor.. so lousy in it.. now arm veri pain.. haix.. mux let it relax..cant over strain.. mux realli try harder 4 full jumbo.. cos if i feel i cant do it well.. i dun think i can do well for ground toss.. i dare not grab it when i toss the rifle in the air.. mux be braver..
wau.. my longest post eva? hahaha.. still gt much thigns 2 sae.. well.. leave to nxt time..

living in self denial

Yox! jux back frm annual camp.. yesterdae went out 2 eat at nydc so nv blog.. sorry.. haha =)
Well.. wad can i sae bout the annual camp neh? i can sae.. the sec2 r veri enthu! yeah.. haha.. yup... oh.. we learnt roller-blading lar.. i oreay noe liao.. so go there 4 fun lyk tt.. try n help my fren lor.. c they keep falling.. aiyoyo.. sad leh.. i at 1st not "zhai"(stable) den slowly gt back my old form.. haha =) its been so long since i gt on skates.. nv haf to wear the gears b4 de.. den go camp mux wear.. sian.. so hot sumore.. den sec1s n 2s keep luffing at those hu keep falling.. so bad arh..
den campfire.. well.. was fun i can sae.. haha.. cadets lyk billy blanja ALOT!! all so happie n enthu when doing tt.. haha.. =) happie.. i one of those hu taught them.. along wif wanyin n peiren.. hahaha.. =)
3rd dae.. we haf wet games.. cadets try 2 sabo mi n wanyin.. but 2 bad we gt walkie talkies.. cant get wet.. we not so dumb kx? gif u all our walkie talkies n let u all sabo us.. still fake us sae " we love you" n wan 2 hug us.. haha.. =)
sian.. 3rd dae still mux rush home bath n eat den go hq 4 interunit quiz competition... dots.. went there no more seats 4 us.. so mi & zubaidah let wanyin n nadiah sit the 2 available seats.. den the guys kena scolded for not letting the gals sit.. hahaha.. mux let mi n zubaidah sit.. muahahaha... =P hahah... den so coincidence.. we sat wif PRCS ppl.. dey sec4s leh.. so unfair lor.. haix.. nvm.. but at least is area8... den one guy so shock i chairperson.. den still sae.. gal be..wad the.. gal cant be izzit? he gt a prob? jux becos they boys unit mahx.. doesnt mean gals no good mahx.. make mi soo.. mad..den when we went in 4 the test.. its lyk so.. i dunnoe wad 2 sae... its not wad they call us 2 study lor.. all so diff.. we jux tikam.. den gt over it n done.. well.. look lyk dunman gg 2 con't hist of losing it.. haha .. sorri.. =P!
went 2 eat nydc yest.. was a realli nice place to eat.. the pasta was great n so was their mud pie! yummy!!! haha.. yeah... lyk tt place.. nice n funky place to eat.. =)
went 2 army market 2day.. buy my uniform cover.. time i change liao.. so tattered n torn.. sis gt a new sling bag.. haha =) sis oso bought gifts ... oh..
happy birthday kor kor!! haha=)

well.. 1st n foremost lemme mi wish my jie "HAPPY BDAE!!" happie birthday 2 u.. happie birthday 2 u.. happy birthday to jie jie ...... happie birthday to U....... =) lyk ur pressie? haha =)
hmm.. woke up early this morn.. was kindof cranky.. stomach pain oso.. feel terrible.. stupid headache oso... haix.. went 2 haf breakfast with mom.. den came home to be a couch potatoe.. haha.. relax a lil.. den afta lunch.. came online to do my npcc admin work AGAIN! haix.. stress.. sorry guys.. i will realli try to find back my smile kx? haha.. though u ppl c my white hair.. dun fret.. i will be happy once this stress period is over! hahaha... hmm.. dunnoe wad to sae.. was realli having sum serious thoughts of my future...
the question most commonly asked since young was " wad u wanna be when u grow up?" well.. when i was realli realli young.. i wanted to b a barbie doll.. haha.. real stupid rite? den as i grow older.. haf thoughts of wanna be a tcher.. cos it is a really fulfilling job.. u groom the nxt batch of leaders.. den.. eva wanted to b a police.. (link wif my cca npcc) haha.. pilot? navy? so many choices... haha.. yar.. i was realli fickle -minded.. haha
Now.. when i gif it a thought.. i was lyk.. what do i REALLY want to be in live? for passion or for money? i mean in this fast pace society.. u cant possibly jux survive on ur passion rite? yar.. den i was thinking.. sth with sciences? doctor? or sth i realli lyk? haha.. i oso dunnoe.. hmm.. i kindof lyk debate.. maybe cos i lyk to tok.. n lyk to reason.. or so called "tok back"? haha.. maybe i can be a lawyer yeah? or be a scriptwriter? packed with imaginations tt is sooo...far-fetched? hahah...wadeva it is.. i m quite sure i will gt my calling s0on yeah...? haha
well.. now most impt is to gt my grades beta.. den 'o' lvl... den jc... wad jc? i still thinking of it.. mux mux haf a goal to work towards.. hmm.. shud be to jc den uni... (traditional pathway?) haha.. i oso dunno.. well.. i realli fickle-minded in such things.. =( mux be more decisive nxt time .. haha.. will help mi in handling things nxt time 2...
i will end here den...

*living in self-denial*
(been writing the wrong spelling haha.. sorry =))

hmm.. back online to do npcc admin work again.. yest was doing the attendance.. completed at last.. haha..=) this holi lyk no holi at all.. sch has becom my 2nd home.. or shud i sae i spend more time there? =( jux finish editing proposal.. yeha.. sad cant go 4 the MacRitchie trek.. haix.. nvm lar.. =( studies more impt mahs!
hmm. do i realli look stress this days? or unhappy?hmm.. alot of ppl cum n tell mi leh.. sae they c mi most of the time angry or sad.. no longer my happy go lucky smile and manner.. well.. wad to do..? i will smile more kkx? hahahah.. jux perhaps i m stress over the up-coming camp lor.. haix..
gtg liao.. byebye

* living in self deniel*

well.. today last day of sch.. haf np training.. 2nd time being nco.. well.. quite ok lar.. taught tent pitiching and lashing.. alil rusty.. haha =) yar.. den quite scary lar.. den cadets movement all slow slow de.. wau lao.. can walk faster? haha.. mux be fast mah.. sense of urgency riteX?=)
well.. not exactly happie lar.. took report bk yest.. kao.. do so badly.. all Bs leh.. no As at all..
haix.. disappointed.. hu call mi nv study hard? =(
thsi holidae.. so mani xtra lesson n npcc stuff.. haix.. mux realli listen 2 my cher.. " set ur priorities!!" well.. okie lar.. i will study harder.. spend more time on it.. mux realli work hard.. cant sae sae oni mux show wif action.. hope time dun slip off so fast.. haix.. rmb i was saying i hate myself.. haha.. mux be becos of my pathetic results.. den shi jia sae how cud i? haha.. den she so cute.. sae wad ppl love mi.. family..frens.. lyk wanyin, nadiah.. her.. make mi so touch wor.. haha.. mux love myself..

bloggin so late.. doing np admin again.. haix.. byebye..

*living in self denial*

hmm.. sat ended.. we went tkgs to take part in UG day(uniform grp)... our usher is genevieve. she veri nice to us lar.. haha.. we feel quite bad cos we make her kena scolded by her guides' head... hmm.. our obsticle team members are mi, wy, cass, nadiah, zubaidah, peiren n _ _. we manage to find all the items 4 teasure hunt.. haha =).. den we went to the bomb shelter 4 obsticle.. gt gals there scream n scream lor.. haha.. den i natural reflex go shout "tiam lar".. den they realli tiam 4 awhile lor.. hahha.. =P hahah.. we complete the fastest leh.. hahah... we oni take 3 min pluz leh.. haha.. i even hit 2 gals acc. sorry...=)..
oh.. yesterday gt meeting wif sir regarding annual camp.. this yr so lil sir cuming.. haix.. quite sad leh...actually... haiz.. but gt sir's encouragement.. so we mux jia you.. dun let _ _ dampen our spirit... though he AP, scream at waikit, dun do hix team work.. kao.. so bad lor.. later i chop his head off during annual camp! hahah =)

hm.. today mahx.. start off the day wif gg to parade sq lor.. jux lyk ani fri..haha.. den shi jia veri cute.. sae she brought sth 4 mi.. wan mi go n guess.. so.. gt clues.. purple.. hard when cool n soft when hot.. haha.. veri tough hor.. still purple.. den turn out is cadbury chocx! yeah.. i gt it! haha.. den i start singing the cadbury song.. " wouldn't it it be nice if the world is cadbury....." haha.. =)
den created a new lingo.. haha.. white colour eating.. haha get it? is baichi! haha... direct translation mahx.. =) haha.. fed toffee today.. mux feed more to make her fatter.. haha.. n the mice! YIKES!almost escape again.. i so scare 2day open will c all escape but heng nv.. den mux feed them too.. YIKES! n is my turn.. i told them i scare of the mice le mahx.. haix.. but i still feed lar.. no choice.. hahah.. den went 4 teh chinese enrichment course.. no time 4 lunch.. =(
yeah! today gt 77/100 for tt chinese compo.. haha.. was photocopied.. n original given 2 sch.. 2 compos given leh! haha.. veri happie.. den went 4 npcc.. 1st training as nco.. haha.. scared..
went there.. all gg according as planned.. gt 4 grps.. n teaching.. yeah.. ct n royce went.. den i wanna go eat.. gt nth.. dey gt mi hashbrown n h20.. thanks.. fill my empty stomach.. den i went off to organize them 4 games.. den gt camp grp briefing..overal.. was a nice n happie dae..! yea..=) den so funni.. saw a guy 4 3 times leh.. n all 3 times i was in paiseh state.. haha.. wonder hu tt guy is.. think he think i siao le.. haha.. =) tata!

yeah! today was quite happie leh over all.. i pass i pass i pass my combined humanities! yeah.. hahah.. tot i will fail.. esp..ss.. but i pass.. =) happie! hmm.. 2dae cheryl brought food 4 teh mice.. i dun realli lyk mice.. or rather fear dem.. haha.. wad to do.. sae they jump to the lid n wanna escape.. nose oready out.. heng wanyin with mi.. seh manage to gt the mice down the lid.. so scare they escape.. gt 9 leh.. haha.. wad if they escape n go to toffee's cage? haix.. so in order to prevent this bad scenario.. we transfer it to the male staff toilet.. sorry cheryl.. no choice.. i was kindof freak when i saw the mouse nose.. haha..sorry..
hmm.. sell some tickets today..haha.. oni sold alil.. haix.. still got alot.. got taufik leh.. go leh go leh.. hahha.. oh yar.. 2molo nco 1st training wor.. mux jia you.. okie lar.. dun write much le.. mux go n c my 1st aid proposal still mux do wad.. =)

hm.. 2day back to sch afta along weekend.. yar.. gt back papers.. didnt do well at all lor.. haix.. oni gt back 4 paper.. yar.. physics b3, chem (cher nd 2 recheck whole cls so not to sure) Amathx gt c5=( n e-maths oni gt back paper2.. 35/50.. so if oni paper 2 i gt A2.. but i noe paper 1 i nd badly de lar.. haha.. haix.. wad 2 do..
haf 1st nco meeting today.. haha.. co0l.. everyone co-operate lor.. den 1 dae.. gt time plan 4 camp 3 daes n proposal 4 this fri leh.. not bad wor.. hahha.. i will try 2 fight 4 us to go 4 outdoor activities wor! yaeah! n this yr.. we gt to watch nite movie! hahah.. yar.. so happie.. committee out oso.. no one complain leh.. we veri fair.. let ppl choose mahx.. haha.. hope all wells ends well bah.. rmb 2 pass mi proposal arh.. haha.. kks.. den write 2 much.. so late le.. *yawns.. wana slp.. ZzzZZZzz


Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care
for others over yourself. However, many people
appreciate your caring side and would rather
stick by you than hurt you. But, there is a
downside. Some tend to abuse your kindness and
take advantage of you. You always try to see
the good in everyone and try not to hate.
Also, you have sharp insight and a great
personality. Calm, serene, and understanding,
you make a worthy friend and a valuble ally to
people in need. Don't change your sweet
nature, your constant being-there can save a
life.

I suggest your go into a field that
centers around working with others such as a
doctor, baby-sitter, psychologist, lifeguard,
or Teacher. If none of these occupations
interest you, it is okay then. I am sure that
there are plenty of oppertunities out there for
you.


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well.. today raining.. yar.. in the morning.. woke up late.. haha.. didnt realli do much today.. cum online.. check mailx.. do blog... chat wif frens..tok to edwin.. he told mi survivor winner is tom.. argh.. y him.. wanted ian.. ian gaf up to let tom bring katie to final two.. wau.. he is so nice.. he shud win lor.. hiax.. y not him.. at least he won a car in one of the challenge.. hahaha.. hope nxt time gt all stars again n he cum bac 2 win.. =)
hmm.. manage to 'copyright' my blog.. so cant steal anything.. haha.. =) thank xt 4 ur html.. hahaha.. actually wanna go out one.. den in the end gt sth on.. haix.. hope wanyin manage to download her msn afta the repairing of her com.. she bluff mi tt dae arh.. sae she cuming online.. in the end nv... i was waiting to send her the programe list n etc... npcc stuff.. make mi wait 4 nth.. =(

HTML are driving mi crazy.. haha.. hm.. 4gt it.. deal wif those stupid HTML another day.. haha

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well.. today went wif my mama to bugis.. went to the bugis bargain street. was so packed.. Saturday mahx.. it was realli huge.. can gt lost leh.. haha.. was lookin for this demin dress thing.. haha.. cant find at all.. well.. my luck den.. haha.. den went bugis parco to find.. oso no result.. y nv sell.? jux when i wanna gt it.. haha.. *regret.. shud haf bout the time i saw it.. haha..=) oh.. haf dinner at mos burger.. den went seiyu.. i was lyk quizzing my mama bout all the utensil usage.. haha.. veri funny..=) all ans dun telly wif the stardard ans.. not realli all lar.. sum was rite... haha.. mostly lar.. i think make sense can liao mahx.. haha.. was kinda tired frm all the walking.. but was fun wif my mum.. hm.. den my mum reminded mi bout mid yrs.. haix.. so scare to gt teh results.. think did badly.. yar.. =( haix.. jux dreading 4 tues..

well.. today end of exams le.. yeah!! haha.. met mr chua.. gave mi details on the TKGS trip.. annual camp.. etc etc..
Clear toffee's cage today.. to dirty.. as usual.. haha.. so cute toffee.. haha..



Your Hidden Power Is Water

You have a rather calm soul, but when tempted
will get pissed off at those who bug you. You
do whatever you can in your powers to help
those of your allies and have a okay taste for
human kind, but you find them rather annoying
on occasions.

Gem Stone: Saphire, Eye Color:Ice
Blue,Hair Color:Dark Blue that's long
that goes to your waist.

Quote:If you wait for meThen I'll come for you. Although I've travelled
far, I always hold a place for youIn my heart. If you think of me, If you miss me
once in a while, Then I'll return to you. I'll
return and fill that space in your heart

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yeah!!! tomolo last paper le..! so happie.. i gg ki xiao.. oh yar.. wanyin hao duo le.. came to sch 4 e-maths paper.. hmm.. paper today.. sae hard is hard.. sae ez is NOT ez.. is veri tricky.. wonder how will i noe.. *pray hard.. superb hard.. ahhaha.. hmm.. so still gg big walk mahx, guys? hahha..
hmm.. so mani things happen tis few daes.. ppl overly stress and everything.. today still got ppl faint beside mi in the bus.. u ok anot? i dont think u wan mi put down ur name bah.. mux take care kx? *feel bad..
hmm.. tts shud be all bah.. mux go ask nadiah n wy tomolo bout a com


You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.

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wo de xin hao tong.. tong de wo wu fai dui ni shuo wei she me.. kan zhe ni zhou wo de xin ye ken zhe zhou.. ni zhi dao mah? ni you hui tou mah?

well.. mid-yr start on mon.. sooo tough.. all sooo diff.. cher wan us all dead izzit? wan whole cls go back 4 remedial durin holidaes izzit? haix.. hu 2 blame? blame myself lor.. wanyin fall sick le.. in sch.. accompanied her to general office 2 arrange 4 her to go back early.. miss her bio paper2.. poor gal.. called her jux now le.. she feeling beta le.. yar.. dun worry..

xiang yu shi wo deng zhe tai yang.. tai yang chu lai le.. wo deng dao le chang hong.. shi zhen de mahx? wo ye bu xiao de.. zhi shi mo mo de deng zhe nan dao chai hong..

hmm.. wanyin send mi a msg.. veri funny.. hope she get well soon.. gonna miss u.. hahhaha.. oh.. yar.. this daes.. i dunnoe y during exam time i feel so nervious n scared.. i dunnoe y.. its lyk so many yrs.. nv lyk tt de.. den tt time raining den calm mi down.. yenkheng owaes do so fast.. den lyk so confident.. if oni i m lyk him.. so clever.. sumore still sit in frnt of mi.. gif mi lotsa stress..yar.. haix.. hand in nco tee design le.. hope faster print out kk? ahhahhaha..

to myself..: mux jia you.. bu yao fang qi.. bu yao rang xiao xiao de EXAM lai ran ni xin hui yi leng! yeah! JIA YOU

hmm.. today took HCL test.. it was a KILLER! so tough.. i scare compo out of point.. sae wad 'cheng gong, zhai yu ba wo ji hui'.. think i crap thru lor.. jux hope i pass =) n den my letter writing i oso anihow write.. Zhi you fai hui lor.. cos there wasn't ani clue or wad so eva.. so tough...

den paper2 was the real KILLER! At first okok lar.. at least noe how to do.. tian zhi i think got sum wrong.. but over ok.. zhao ju oso.. den come close passage.. i jux do lyk was cher sae... 'kao di yi gan jue'.. so.. haix.. den compre sooo tough.. compre n qn lyk not link.. ans i oso dunnoe.. jux write down wad eva i think is rite lor.. Summary so long.. wad chess is life.. crap lor.. so mani things.. i dunnoe which den is the main point.yah hor. Go eat crab lor...

afta tt i saw zhang lao shi.. told her it was tough den she sae where gt.. she told us it was ez lor.. den turn out lyk tis.. every1 feel so cheated lor.. sumore my chinese yi xiang no gd.. now lyk this.. haix.. die le..=(

clean toffee's cage today.. fed her lime for vit 'C'.. need to go buy her food pellet le.. she seems thinner now.. haha..eat so much hay den make a mess in her cage.. *notty gurl*=) ahhaha... If u dunnoe wad i m tokin bout.. toffee is the life sc guinea pig.. oh yar.. haven start on project yet.. think i nd 2 gt everyone down afta mid yr.. really behind time le...

haix.. mon is S.S. and physics.. jux hope it is not tt tough n chers will mark it leniently... plz ok? haha... or i think i will do badly.. hahaha =)

hmm.. Mid yrs are cuming... yar.. so fast.. den cher tok 2 ask bout holidaes.. realize mine holidae is soo jam packed.. camps.. camps... more camps... cum back sch to study study n STUDY.. Wad holidae is this? haix.. yar lor.. hmm.. so stress.. so scared.. cher tips is STUDY EVERYTHING.... oh.. yar right... hahahha.. nvm lar.. mux take within my stride.. ahhaha.. aiyar.. dunnoe wad to blog.. jux can sae i'm happie todae.. tata

hmm.. today start on my enormous pile of homework n revision n pask 'A' maths file.. haha.. heng nv lost ani worksheet..ahhah.. yar.. still kindof weak in log. but thankx sis.. teach mi make mi not so blur in it le.. haha..
hm.. today woke up veri early at first.. alomost wanna gt up n go sch.. den keep thinkin izzit a sch dae.. heng i was so tired.. went bac 2 slpt.. imagine gg so early to sch n realize its a Saturdae.. ahhah.. yar.. weather soo hot nowadays.. keep sweatin lyk nobody's business..den keep wanting to sleep.. c wad sch haf done to mi.. make mi so tired.. last time not so tired leh.. think becos last time cca on Sat.. den not so hectic lor..
aiyoyo... html is driving mi craze.. can't put a music in leh.. haix.. nvm lar.. tata..

hmm..was quite an emotional dae.. i dunnoe 2 luff or to cry..yar.. today was passing out ceremony for the sec4s.. yar.. they r leaving.. the long dreaded day.. y mux it be soo fast...? there was lyk exchange of post.. the last dae for us to spend time with the sec4x..
we took pictures.. n the new community elected.. mi as chairperson..wy as vice chair..nadiah as sec1 sq com.. zuibaidah as sec2 sq com.. cass as secretary... n etc etc.. i dunnoe to be happie or wad.. didnt realli wan tt post.. haix..
den huda came n bid us gd bye.. all of us holding back our tears.. dun wanna her to c us sad.. or later we will all cry.. i was realli controllin myself.. but my tears jux wana burst.. i keep trying 2 force a smile..to make them feel beta... jon oni told us to take care... yar.. everyone was trying to put on a brave front lyk nth was happening.. n everyone was happie.. but den we all noe deep in our hearts..
time reallli flies.. n realli fast.. we r realli taking over le.. its simply to fast.. we r not ready 4 it... but we haf oready promise our dear sec4s we will try... we will realli try.. try realli realli hard... thanks 4 guiding us all tis yrs.. being our mentor.. senior... fren... you will be missed..
its a realli emotional dae.. this feeling in mi is realli hard to describe.. mry heart is heavy n feel soo pain.. haix.. jux hope tt all wells end wells.. n we hope the best for our sec4s nco.. take care!

hmm.. 2dae stay back to dicuss bout nco tee.. yar.. my batch taking over the unit tomorrow.. the sec4 steeping down tomorrow.. time flies soo fast.. it jux seems lyk yesterday was 2002...
i was juz a little girl.. entering into the BIG unknown..my secondary scool life.. yar.. i rmb clearly mi standing at the gate... scared 2 go in... den 1st week was a real hectic week... there was choir tryout 4 everyone... haha.. rmb i selected but i reject.. n den gt cca thingy.. mux choose. n i jux chose npcc.. my 1st nco were shulaini and a guy called wad xiang one.. yar.. dey were our senior but soon they pass out b4 we even gt to realli noe them..
den came royce batch.. our squad com was chui fong n fu xiang.. our best times were wif them.. they taught us the basicx.. den baton.. we took our 1st lcp test when they were around.. wad fond memories.. used 2 gt 'bullied' by them.. but trainings were fun @ tt time.. not much pumping.. was realli pure fun n laughter.. those were the daes...
den they left.. n came doreen's batch... jonathan n huda became our squad com.. mux be tough on them.. since they haf to train us 2 b nxt batch of nco.. yar.. the days were filled wif luffter but oso sweat.. we learn values.. leadership.. responsibilitits... we took promo test.. n tahnks 2 them we manage to pass...
N now.. comes our turn.. we r scare of the obsticles tt lies in front of us... we r used 2 being pampered by our seniors.. we are scared.. but we promise.. we will do it.. n nt disappoint all our pst nco.. cos u haf nurture us.. from lil kids... to now...

hahha.. jux typing 4 nth.. hahha

well.. today gt field cooking competition.. didnt win 1st 2nd or 3rd.. but at least gt 4th.. nevermind... lost to marshiling.. their deco veri nice lar.... this is wad happen today actually...

" all schools afta graded by the teachers may proceed to the shade 1st before the next cher arrive." a sir told us.. As clever dunmanites, we retreated to the shady spots to rest lor.. was quite satisfied wif our deco.. but didnt gt 2 taste to c if alrite cos tt stupid northland sect 'leader' keep STARIN @ us lyk we owe him sth.. sumore go confiscate our watermelon..oh.. nvm... den we c how the other teams were doing.. Marshiling's was graded b4 ours... N you noe wad.. they are soooo.. as quoted from jason 'brainless', instead of proceeding to the shady spot, they hide themselve under cardbox covers and the canteen table... sooo... funny lor.. den we keep luffing cos when eva we c them we rmb 'BRAINLESS' n ppl were lyk thinkin dmn ppl siao liao.. we dun care... tts us wad... haha.. den there was tis northland sec guy hu seem interested in wanyin leh.. keep lookin @ her but he dare not ask for her number.. no guts?=)

Den afta grading, we waited 4 results.. they announce slowly lor.. den dmn n 3 other sch final 4.. we sooo hope we can gt @ least a 3rd.. but.... haix... nvm.. we lost... N we lost to the marshiling.. they won 1st.. den we heard their idea... wau.. we were wrong! they gt brains!! their idea was lyk.. wOOw... haix.. nvm.. we deserve to lose to them.. Congrats to u all...

wau.. so unexpected.. meet my pri sch tuition fren,benny.. He now in temasek sec.. oso in npcc and in the competition.. wad a small world.. @ 1st tot recongnize wrongly cos he look so tanned and more matured le.. haha.. i called him so mani times lor.. den tot if recognize wrongly so malu.. den wy help mi... we pass him den i ask him izzit take 'mrs xx tuition" den he sae yes... hahah... den wy sae u rmb her.. heng he sae yes arh.. or i gonna bash him arh.. nah... i not so baoli de.. haha..

went back sch n feed Toffee the guinea pig.. Thankx mrs neo 4 helping mi 2 gt the keys to the toilet or Toffee will haf to go on a diet.. Wau.. Toffee lyk getting fatter leh.. Eat wad eva we gif her n eat so fast... N shit sooo much.. beta gt the members down to clear.. or i jux leave cleanin ic taariq go clean.. muahahaha.. *evil* hahah..

hmm.. tts shud be all.. So much hw to do... haix.. tata

hmm.. been reading quite a number of post by other blogs..realize i am quite fortunate.. so many people are hurt by the word LOVE.. but LOVE isnt everything... you will still have your family, friends and people who care for you and stand by you... Everyone will come across a jerk every now and then.. its oni part and parcal of life.. hasn't it cross your mind that there are more less fortunate people than you in the world? look at child labour.. look at the poor kids who lost their family in the tsunami..earthquake...war... Cherish your life, your love ones, your frens and people who care for you.. take a moment to thank them... N 4 mi.. " thankx guys 4 standin by mi thru thick n thin.. i may be lyk a 'tigeress' at times.. n yet you all still dun mind n stood by my every decision.. Thanks 4 being there!" n 4 my family " i dun wanna wait till its too late to sae... "i love you" i love you 4 everything you do 4 mi.. be it a small gesture or a simple dinner.. it mean so little to others but i mean so much to mi.. you all gaf mi the warmth not all kids in the world get.. you all gaf mi the time i wan... you all gaf mi sumting special.. tt is LOVE.. you all will nv forsake mi.. Thanks 4 being there 4 mi..." May everypne take a minute or two to think this over.. you will realize you are being quite childish to think you r the most 'unlucky' person jux becos u met a jerk.. rmb you are nv alone.. there r ppl hu r there 4 u.. a shoulder to lend and a listenin ear to hear... dun gif up on life.. cos its beautiful...! =)

wau.. long time no write le.. ahahha.. nowadaes got so mani things cuming up... feld cookin... marksman com.. promo... etc etc... yar.. nowadays.. dunnoe y lyk the canteen during recess... haha lyk no.3 n 10.. ahahah... wad happen these daes neh? hmm.. becum sport's official den went 2 stadium 4 heats... den so mani unhappy event.. wau..lao.. make us all kena.. nvm lar.. dun care dun bother.. *mo mo ren gang..* ahhaha... byebye.. dunnoe wad 2 write

well... another 'nice' weather.. 1st sunny, veri hot den start rainy.. haix.. wad kindof day is this... to add to this, it is another boring mornday and the sound of the cher with the blazing sun seems to be a sleeping potion for us students. i pretty sure wad i heard from class sound rather like rubbish " the reason... ionx... electrons... ionic bond.. not..." ok.. sth lyk tt.. sound so lame rite..? den afta slapping myself, den i heard the complete version ' the reasons is because is contains moving ions and not electrons as they are ionic bonds therefore no mobile electrons." haah... better...now i understand.. c0mm0n test cuming oready so scared.. so mani things stil kindof confuse... class brainies making the tense class even more stress.. argh!!! how!!
aiyoyoyoyo.. dunnoe y nowadaes mood alil siao.. can be happie den nxt moment confuse... den sad.. oso dunnoe y... den gt a kindof sad feeling in mi.. haix yo.. stupid bus 17 today..cum late so i rush to bus 28 bus-stop myslef hoping to catch the 6.25 bus.. den tt bus 28 nv appear.. 6.30... 6.35... nt even a sign.. n oni arrive at 6.38!!! wad.. SO LATE N THE BUS WAS PACKED!!! so fuming.. den gt sum galx jux keep giggling on the bus intensifying my anger.. argh!!! i juz wanna shout at them leh.. the bus was like so quiet n silent den they cum n spoil it.. wad the.. nvm lar.. can oni sae bad dae... haix.. signing off!

hmm.. another tiring day.. yesterdae gt campcraft telematch.. tot my grp will die cos oni gt mi one sec3.. but surprisingly we won!! yeah.. save frm unpitching the tent.. lolx... hm.. quite tiring lar.. ahaha.. wau.. sir veri nice leh.. at first he sae maybe dun gif mi SANA bagde cos mi n wy gt the same person 2 do our wksht but in the end still gif us.. hao gan dong.. ahhaha.. hmm.. dunnoe y now feeling so tired.. maybe is weather lo.. aiyo.. afta this still need 2 blog on e-portal for weekend hw.. so cham.. hahah.. scare later nothing 2 write.. haha.. ttx all.. hope u lyk my layout..

wau... hmm... so happen that i go the urge to write 2dae. hm.. school started quite sum time le.. or shud sae end-of-term is cuming le.. this term seems so hectic.. practically everyday got 2 stay back in sch... not oni tt.. becos of 5day week thing, everything mux cramp into the 5 days... even ccas, projects....etc etc.. so sian.. den sumore new subjects all so difficult.. i hear until blur blur.. so mani new terms... haix..hu can help mi neh? y can't we haf back sat? it seems to make life ezier... one extra dae but at least u get to spread out ur work load instead of havin 5 hectic daes.. sumore nowadaes weather so hot.. in class, it seems like the teachers' voices are singing lullaby to you.. " go 2 slp now..." n den your head gt heavier.. ZZZzzzz...
Even the bushes in s'pore caught fire..! the heat is unbearable..!!! argh!!! wad is happening??? izzit the cause of excessive pollution? where is the rain?
haixyo.. y mux love this thing be so irritating.. all my frenx seem 2 be bother by it.. maybe oni time can heal their lost n broken soul.. Isnt love a great thing? seeing sumone being loved n happy is oso a great joy 2.. love isnt dominating sumone but to release him or her to let them seek their true happiness... can't be lovers but can still be frens mahx.. Ai yi de ren ken ben bu xu yao li you.. ai ye bu shi zhan you er shi dong de fang shou....

hahahha... i'm back.. long time nv write liao le.. well not much happen lar.. jux went up 2 perform the total defense thing on stage... so paiseh.. curtains were close n i went 2 gt mike.. in the end cant find way bac n everyone was luffin @ mi... haiyo.. but nvm WE WON 2nd!! yeah.. well was sick 4 the past few daes.. thanx guys 4 helpin mi out wif homework n well-wishes! n den oso thankx 4 givin mi v-dae presents.. dey r really sweet.. hope u lyk mine 2.. hmm tt all... byebye
new past