I really shouldn't be blogging.
Having a test coming up in less than 12 hours worth 10%.
Having a presentation in less than 14 hours worth 15%, which the last I check, still have many lose ends to tie up, plus my presentation timing is 3.30mins! well off the timing and has yet to do conclusion. I need to cut it, seriously...D:
Finished my tutorial for HE101, doing paper for MB103 now. So many things to do.
Still wanna revise for the test in less than 12 hours. D:

Too lil time, too many things.
But why do I still have so many other things on my mind! D:

我真的真的不愿意就这样陷入爱的陷阱

left out on Nov 3 1.16am

Time passes fast when you are having fun, but time passes even faster when you are studying.

Taking a break now to blog alil. Brain abit dead, but at least I'm studying interesting chapts. :D way to go, staying optimistic as usual.

Looking forward to next tues. Shroomy's visit to Hall 14. :D

Arh, I'm still undecided, S/u or not. D:

I am trying to finish my tutorial on time.
I am trying to understand my concepts better.
I am trying to forget all things and concentrate on whats important.
But I find myself lost.
What is important?

Sometimes, doing your best just isn't good enough.

It gets so tiring that whatever you do ain't appreciated, your inputs got taken away and your efforts go to waste.

Why no matter how much you try, some people can just take your work and rip it apart, leaving you in bits n pieces, and walk away...

Words can be so hurting. Intentionally or not.

Words ain't supposed to hurt, they are meant to say "I Love You".

I may laugh it off, give you a smile, but deep down I'm hurting. I'm sorry, I did my best, and if it ain't good enough, go ahead and rip it apart. Because by then, I'll be numbed from the pain.

The cruelty of life, the harshness of it all. Perhaps its time I realise I no longer live in a sugar coated world.

Met up with Min Yu and Anna today at white sands to celebrate Min Yu's bday! :D Wanyin unable to make it, poor girl, she fell ill, wonder is it due to the mounting pressure from the impending As. Jiayou Girl!(:

We ate at Manhattan Fish Market!(: Shared the seafood platter for 2 and ordered the new drink mango popping. The drink tastes like a certain kind of sweet. From Min Yu's happening life, to Anna's Uni life, the convo just kept going. It had been so long since we 3 meet up together! And the feeling is still that great!(:

Gave Min Yu the pressie that Roomie and I picked for her. Was so glad she likes it, the excitement all over her face when she saw it, it was classic! Haha, am so happy that I gave her a surprise!(since she hinted she wanted a surprise on fb! ahhaha) :D

So, happy birthday girl! Enjoy and day and may you grow prettier and prettier as the day passes, but please stop growing taller, if not your short friend her will have neck sore the next time she want to chitchat with you face to face!(: Love you always my beloved partner in cls- ONG MIN YU! Muaxh!

You wouldn't know but that little gesture you did had melted the little heart of mine.

Falling for you- Colbie Caillat

I don't know, but I think I may be fallin' for you, dropping so quickly.
Maybe I should keep this to myself, wait until I know you better.
I am trying not to tell you, but I want to.
I'm scared of what you'll say, so I'm hiding what I'm feelin', but I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.

As I'm standing here and you hold my hand, pull me towards you, and we start to dance.
All around us, I see nobody.
Hearin' silence, it's just you and me.
I'm trying not to tell you, but I want to.
I'm scared of what you'll say, so I'm hiding what I'm feelin', but I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.

Oh, I just can't take it.
My heart is racin'.
Your motions keep spinnin' out.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I can't stop thinkin' bout it, I want you all around me, and now I just can't hide it.
I can't stop thinkin' bout it, I want you all around me, and now I just can't hide it.
I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin' for you.
Oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh, I'm fallin' for yah.

Feeling like a zombie today, sleep late and set my alarm wrongly this morning! D: I set as PM! LOLz, lucky the typing sound from my roomie woke me up, if not I sure late for class alrdy! hahaha.

So many things, so little time, was so happy today, cos I ate Mr Bean's soya icecream! -Life Simple Pleasure! :D
SoyaBean is love! :D I wanna be Mrs Bean then I can have lots of Mr Bean products! HAHA. :D I sound so crazily in love with it! :D But I really like all their products!

"Msn" convo during marketing, complete with "whoever is added to the convo" and "nudges" LOLZ.

Feeling much better today, well, have to keep looking forward, stop looking back, because life is too short for regrets, let the past remain in the past, let what is going to happen in the future remain a mystery, just seize today because its a present! :D Alright!

GOGO WINI!:D

You will never know I'm here
Standing right beside you.
Hoping that you will turn around,
to see me smiling because of you.
All this you will never know,
because to you, I'm just another girl.
Another friend you can talk to, laugh with
But you never know that here I am,
standing there,
looking over at you,
wishing you good,
and not wanting anything,
but to just see your smile.
:D BUT TO YOU- IM JUST A STALE CURRY PUFF! SOBZ. hahahahahhahaha

Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb

Had my 2 quizzes today, and it confirmed that IM DUMB. Seriously, after spending so much time on accounting and maths, Im still so lost on the subject. I spent my whole recess week with them, spent my breaks with them, spent most of my waking hour with them for the past 2weeks or so, and yet.. D:

I'm feeling so lousy. Yes, academic grades are very very important to me. I don't care if I will be a stale curry puff or not, what I care most is my grades! Because they are the ones who will lead me to a successful career start or not. D: This is so frustrating. Their refusal to befriend me is driving me nuts.! D: HMPF, I need a night walk. Gosh..

Dear roomie just left hall for home. Going to be alone tonight. Gu jun zhuo zan.

I know im supposed to be reading tt HUGE accounting textbook, because my lecture notes teaches nothing at all. D: But I just wanna take that teeny weeny break. D: Its such a sad thought that not everyone are having pop quizzes after recess week. At least they can have some real break and not bust their whole recess week spending quality time with those huge textbooks.

Plus, I'm having my 2 quizzes on the same day, and for my final exams, the two subjects are held on the same day too. Congrats to me, seriously, didn't know that the 2 of them will be that tough. Grr..

Having Darts training on Mon, but Im not going. Going to con't studying for the quizzes on Tues.

I will be so happy once they are over- at least for awhile.

Because, by then I will have to return back to my cycle of mugging, final exams are looming. Oh gosh. Whoever said JC 'A' Levels was the toughest times? I can tell you stop living in self denial, seriously.

Alright, back to books.

I wanna be a chao mugger.

I begin to wonder...

Life,
is'nt it too short for sorrow?
isn't it more worthwhile to live the way you want it?
isn't it better for the world if we stop fighting, for everything?

Dreams
Why dream when you know you can't reach?
Why let it affect you so much that you can't move forward?

Love
is'nt it supposed to be sugary sweet?
then why are people around me agonising over it?
crying over it?
a mental need for affection and belonging?
what good does it do if it ain't reciprocated?
wouldn't you fall into an endless pit of sorrow?

I longed for a miracle in this gloomy day, let me see there is still beauty and hope in this world we live in. Bless those people who are struggling against nature- natural disasters. Bless those innocent children, before their minds get polluted in this dangerous world.

Bless me to remain sane.

A fleeting moment, a moment of instantenous connection, but poof, its gone, gone with the wind and never back...

I know not what I want.
I just follow what you want.
All this time.
When you are gone,
who is to fill this void you leave behind?
I wonder.

Going to celebrate Ms LIMFENGYI DATOU MUOGU HELMET.......BIRTHDAY later! hahaha. I miss that siao girl many many!!! Even though we met on sunday during Qianying's send off, but I still miss that girl! hahaha, seriously need to talk to her! (:

Been having lesser n lesser sleep in hall, n pimples are all popping out! D: sobz. My eye got infected and my eyelid swell. Had to put this eye drop every hour and eye ointment every night. The eye oilment will make me a one eye monster because it will stick the upper and lower lids together! D: But now the swelling is down! yippee, doc said is its not, I may have to go for surgery! Luckily it went down! yippe~

My ankle's swelling went down too! Now can walk relatively faster! Healing well, though it still hurts once in a while, its much much better! Yippe~

On a random note, I been thinking of expanding the infatuation essay I wrote the other time, expanding it to complete the story because I left the ending hanging, but somehow, it feels like if I put an end to it, then.. its an ending! But love aint supposed to have an ending isnt it? hmmm..

Cant believe I tumble and fall in ntu again! I was on my way to study in the lounge with dear Jingyi and I fell down the stairs. Double sprained because i tried getting up after 1st sprain but tumble again. Was so helpless on the ground. Jingyi was by my side, thanks girl! Without you, I wont know what to do. Lydia was on 3rd floor and she shouted down thinking I was her roomie. I shouted back telling her I sprained my ankle, dear girl ran down to find me on the floor. Justin came out of his room-2nd floor after hearing commotion, holding an ankle guard. Next moment, weiren appeared! hahah. Lydia ran up to get my roomie. Ong junmin super stunned to see me on the floor. Fiaz appeared out of no where, got me a cool can of coke zero while he n lydia went round to find ice for me. Still on the ground, Justin "icing" my leg, while colouring my toe nails with highlighter! >.< Roomie called Mr Welfare- Say Chong who asked me to immobilise my leg by spraying salonpas. HAHA, then justin carried me up to my room- not after much protest. Weiren even suggested bridal carry style! OMG, of cos not! Wanted to pass Lydia my card while Justin was piggy-backing me, ended up struggling him, he took revenge by throwing me on the bed. Thanks arh.. Highly eventful night- one I will not forget for a long time.




Next day, ankle was superb pain. Took super long walk to school! Great Og mates kept sms-ing to check on my condition. (: At the end of the day, ankle CMI. Bruise was damn big and black. Jessica called Kc to drive me out of school to see doc since it was 6.00 by the time I ended lesson. Went to see a sinseh and busted $50.10! D: Sobs.. so much for an ankle. Sinseh commented how i fell, cos it was damn serious. Had like 3 huge bruises.. Told her I fell down the stairs and she looked stunned before pressing acupoints on my ankle asking pain anot. She seems to enjoy it. D:





Learnt my lesson in a painful and expensive way. Fred. Please watch where you are going. Seriously...

Late night tutorial chiong-ing for accounting. My head still swirling with liabilities, revenue, assets, etc.

Tried my hands on my rally.

1st attempt too short.

2nd attempt got disrupted by roomie.

D: tmr having door to door. Pooh bear shall be my buddy!(:

So many things going through my mind. "To be or not to be?" Im just very confused and lost in this world, this new world i'm thrown into. So foreign. Yet one thing is for sure, I will do my best to survive, to remain true to myself and not lost myself in this mess.

Press on Wini! Let your smile guide you through all difficulties!(:

Stop being so kind to me, Im afraid I will....

Sprained my ankle again! 1807, please dont scold me ok? I don't wish to sprain it too! I was just crossing the road and a lorry came charging towards me, I ran, and I sprained. -.-" Sounds so noob. But its not as bad as the one the one I gotten in JC and had to call JiaYi to come and rescue me at some ulu part of TJ. Had on bandages on Mon-Tues and gotten an ankle guard from Jonathan on Wednesday night! hahah. Felt so bad for manfaning so many people to find that ONE first aid kit box! >.< And thanks roomie for looking after your super clumsy roomie!

Must thank all those many many people who help to find tt first aid kit box, though I dont know who, but roomie said alot of people help to find, so I must thank all!(:

Must thank Yixia, the delphi senior who commented on my many many pokka liang teh and Jia En for coming to bandage my ankle on Mon and Tues night at such late hour! So sorry! MANY MANY THANKS!(: ps: though its abit ugly!:x haha, thanks lots! Greatly appreciated!

Must thank everyone for their concern about my health and my ankle! And the constant nagging for me to sleep early! haha.

Special thanks to JINGYI, ZHILIN and JESSICA for staying by my side and assisting me in all ways! Like helping me to carry my dinner, taking tt slow stroll for me!(: Love you Guys to the MAX!

AND of cos my roomie! You are superb BAGUS! Let me rest, wake me up to eat dinner(she even tabao for me), ran down to help me get bandage and panadol! Muaxh! You are the BEST!(: and taking that superb slow walk from north spine back to hall with me! LOVE YOU!(:

Amelene! For walking slowly to lectures with me and always telling me where to watch out, insisted we take the lift instead of climbing the stairs yeah! love u lots!

Im so blessed by the people around me! Being away from home, but having such great friends and seniors around! Though I missed my family lots! Mama kept calling to check on her sick baby! I'll take care of myself! Sick Pig will get well soon!(:

Have you ever live a life of disguise,
one filled with lies

Ever live a life behind a mask,
that you so wish to unmask

Just so you won't show your vulnerability
until you have shown your abilities?

Just had a sudden thought about this. I guess late nights have this effect on u. Gosh Wini, snap out of your daydreams and back to reality!

A highly eventful day today. Gosh, its over, and I chionging my economics homework now. Thank god I still recall my JC lectures. Thanks LILI FONG AND WONG YINGYING! They are the best econs lecturers! Its an impossible task to sleep during their lectures, especially the latter one! I miss their teachings. And of cos I MISS MS AILEEN WONG! The best econs tutor!

Woke up and decided to wash my laundry today! Haha. It was highly entertaining to text Amelene about the progress of my clothes in that machine! I told her I'm waiting for the "giant to vomit my clothes out" and i need to "check out the giant" and she was like " You want to check out a giant?!" ahhahaha. Met up with her after for HE103. No lecture notes, so we were acting very studious by copying what was shown, but we were doing that to stay awake! HAHA, we even wore specs to look more nerdy and mugger-ish!

Afternoon: Amelene lost her EZlink card! ARGH. She was so upset! Hope that it wasn't taken by some psychotic admirer! Poor girl! D: Went looking for her Ezlink card and forgo lunch date with Jessica, Zhilin and Jinyi. But they were so sweet la, gotten lunch for me! Hearts them!

After that went CCA fair with Jessica and Jingyi. Jessica left earlier for lecture so went to find some seats with Jingyi to chitchat before my tutorial starts.

Went for 1st MB101 lesson. Everyone there are so hardcore! Gotten their textbooks and seems very very prepared! Sobs. But the people sitting at my table are very very nice! We formed a team together. :D I was the only freshie in that group! And having presentation next week on tutorial qns! Abit scary! I hope people dont bombard me with qns. I still so raw in this! D: After that went for team mates to photocopy pages from the textbook as we need the qns to prep for tutorial!(: Nice people!

Hungry piggie now, but still no reply from Jessica! >.< I think I shall just go n makan with zhilin! :x hahahaha

ROOMIE'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!(:
Having night picnic later! So exciting! Get to meet the 1807 girls again! (: Can't wait!

Staying in hall is fun. Plus NTU is such a huge plc that holds alot of mystery, a place I wanna go around to discover, to explore! (:

More hall life updates coming!

My 1st day of school in my hostel in hall 14. Feel so weird, because somehow I feel at ease here, and like I seems to know NTU pretty well too! ahhaha. :x

Add/Drop n planning for timetable is getting on my nerve! The number of vacancies just keep changing every min! I thought everyone adding at the same time? D: why why! D: sad sad

It was obvious that she was unhappy, but with what I'm not sure. I asked her what she going to do, since it looks like her future is uncertain. I recalled months ago of me asking her to work hard, but she dismissed my advice. And now fast forward a few months, shes regreting it. When results were out, she said she was unhappy with it, but given that she didnt really put in that much effort, I think there is nothing much we can do. She wasn't afraid of her own future at that time thinking she can definitely get into the school of her choice, while I caution her, and ask her to think of back up plans. Even now, when the situation looks bad, she is still unaffected.

At times, she seems to think its unfair and all. But who is to be blamed? At times she hinted that I'm so lucky, that I always seem to get what I want and stuff, but all these are only possible because of hard work. And personally attacks are simply childish. I tried to tolerate, to be sensitive, to help, but I'm tired. I really am, so from now on, I'm not going to care anymore.

Its your own choice. You chose your own path. No one is to be blamed.

I have stopped working already! And before I left the company, I went on a photo-taking spree! hahah, and as promised, I did not put up any unglam pics!:D
But the pics were so long over due! so sorry dearies!


The order of the pictures are from the last day, 2nd last day and 3rd last day. I'm too lazy to change them!:X


The lst picture is with my mentor Ms Hamidah! I was under her throughout my stay in office. I learnt alot from her and I got most of my workload from her too!:X

This picture has Cera, Miss Ratna (the one who offer me the job), Charmaine (Cera's sister) and Cheryl Han


My favourite song currently.

Plain White T's - 1,2,3,4
give me more lovin then I've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when I know i'm not.
make me feel good when I hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad, I'm so glad I found you.
I love bein around you.

you make it easy, as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only 1 thing 2 do three words fuor you.
I love you.(I love you)
theres only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what i'll do.
I love you.(I love you)

give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when I fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when I hurt so bad.
best that I've had.
I'm so glad that I found you.
I love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you.
I love you.(I love you) theres only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what i'll do.
I love you.
I love you(I love you) you make it easy, it's easy as 12,1234
theres only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you I love you (I love you)
theres only 1 way 2 say those 3 words thats wwhat I'll do I love you (I love you)
I love you I love you.
one two three four I love you. (I love you)I love you(I love you) Over...

Now I m confused. Which uni? NUS hasnt been very helpful in answering my qns, and they are not organising any open house or tea session!D: This whole uni thing is so confusing!D: BOO!

On the other hand. NTU had a tea session, and they had been pretty helpful and patient in answering my so many many qns. I think I'm a True Blue Singaporean, Kiasu, Kiasee. HELP!

Went out with dearest wanyin for X-men Origins: Wolverine! Woohoo, Huge Jackman looks incredibly hot in the movie!:D:D And the movie was great! Love it to bits. There was this superb inconsiderate guy who was sitting behind me. His phone rang during the movie and he refused to attend to it until i STARED at him. Good thing Ms loo was holding to the popcorns, because I think I will flung the popcorns into his face. He made me miss some parts of the movie! Urgh! Of course, after i glared at him, he immediately reached for his phone and ended the annoying ringing. And he left superb fast when the credits were rolling out. I sat throughout the credits and caught the last part of Hugh Jackman! :D:D Still looking so hot!Hahah.

Went online to check my acceptance and saw that NTU has responded to me. Disappointment. But now it makes it even clearer where i should go. I really must thank those who have been ever so patient to me, listening to me grumble, fret, etc, to mention some Ms Seow Jiayi whom I talk on Msn everyday bout UNI. ahahha. Cera and Cheryl whom I complained to everyday at work! Miss Loo Wanyin and Miss Ong Minyu-my besties in Secondary school! Hopefully we will all end up in the same fac in uni. :D Ms Lim Fengyi and Ong Junmin for all the smses. Ms Tricia Goh for the msn convo straight after my prev blogpost on Future was up. and many many many others. And of cos my supportive family! :D

I got my guidance and will be strong and press forward. Yeah!



I have been thinking about many many things these days, all linking to a single world- FUTURE. We have come to a stage in life whereby we must make a decision that will determine our career path and shape who we will be in the future. Yes, we have submitted our choices to the respective schools and are now waiting for their replies, and yet till this point, I still fear that the choices I make will be something I will regret.

At times, I wonder how can some people be so decisive and know exactly what they want in life.? Are people choosing the courses because they are passionate about it? Because they did well enough to get in the prestigious course? Or just apply them as back up in case they can't get their dream courses? In which I guess in some cases, and in this realistic world, many people are choosing jobs which are stable and pays well despite a recession. But how will they know they are making the right decision? What if it falls short of expectation?

I'm scared, really scared, please show me some guidance, tell me that everything will be alright. That I will be fine, that there is nothing to fear. Please...

Argh! the cdc website is so !!! I can even book my june lessons! :( Its so expensive each lesson. Slowly sucking away my pay. Bohoho!

Still stuck at the same company working, however now im less miserable because i made friends with the other temps! haha. Hello Cera! Hello Cheryl! Hello Ferlicia! But my senior left us! bohoho, she always try to protect me from *******! haha, so sweet right! But she left for a better place, wishing her all the best!

Had my 6th driving lesson, beginning to have just that little bit of confidence in me when i'm driving. But had a scare when i upped gear to 4th when it is supposed to be 2nd gear only! hahahha, but my instructor seems to have more confidence in me compared to the past few times, and I agree with him about me being rigid, because I'm so afraid, so I tend to be too safe and keep sticking to theory, but on the road, you have to play by ear and act accordingly to the road situation. Learnt alot for these few lessons. He even let me drive back to school (since we are out on the road as i had my pdl!)

The cdc website is still having probs! =.=" Please work! I need to book the lessons!!!:( It like so horrible the web and the students there are uber kaisu, the other time i miss the start date to book for the next 1.5 mths lessons, I have to wait for half a mth later to have my next lesson!:( so sad! sobs... Hope they work on the system,because I think its kindof screwed up. Gogo1 my patience are waning. Boo.

I keep visiting the mail box for the letter, why!! Why is it not here yet!! Sobx. Please come quickly! I waiting for you...!

Been through an emotion rollercoaster ride this week. :( Had the first taste of what the real world is. My supervisor counselled me on it, but still I'm still have the guilt within me. And I'm really so not used to going to work/lunch/knock off ALONE.

Getting praises should give you satisfaction isnt it? But somehow, they just make me feel worst. Just want to bury myself in my work work work.

Nose is acting up again. Itchy, nosebleed, white discharge, etc etc. Why do I have such a sensitive nose plus such thin membrane? :(

Been a lousy week. Hope the coming week will be much better.

My life become more routine-like ever since I started working as a temp. My job is kindof repetitive, which leaves me no challenges to tackle. To some, it the best kind of job, its so no brainer, and so easy to earn money, plus the pay is pretty decent. But to me, its not. I can't find pleasure in the work, making going to work a chore. Not only that, working make me realized how sheltered I had been. Never had i had so many scoldings, etc in a day. And I meet all sorts of people, the type of people you hope you never meet, seriously. I can't believe people can be that selfish, all they are thinking of is how to do things to benefit oneself, or to put their rivals in the bad light! >.<

And another thing I can't stand is that after working for more than a month, those people who I've been working closely with do not know how to pronouce my name, or worst still do not even know my name! I think knowing the names of the people you work with is basic courtesy! Its plain rude to keep calling the temps collectively like "the temp girls". I do not think temp should be subjected to such behaviour. Moreover, if you can't pronounce my name, you can just call me Wini. I said that many times, n yet I have people miss pronouncing my fullname but still insist on using my fullname. Grr.

Ok, enough of ranting. I will be outta there as soon as I can. I can't stand it anymore!

Caught madagascar2, city of ember, bolt and twilight to satisfy my craving for movies after a movie drought for a few months? =D And from my choice of movie, I realized they are either cartoon (childish) or fantasty (unrealistic). But one thing for sure, I learnt alot from the two fantasy movies.

In both City of ember and Twilight, the guys are always the one who care alot about the girl's safety(plus point).However, they tend to neglect their family members. Its like they are totally obessed with the girl, very protective whatsoever about them, that they tend to forget their family members, and the family members are there to help the guy to protect the girl, etc.. Hmm.. Does these scenes truly protray the attitude of guys towards relationship and family?
On the other hand, the girls are the one who are constantly watching out for their family. Even if they themselves are in danger, they would risk everything to save their own family members, a point which the guys don't get it in the movie. The guys would reply "we'll get them later, lets get out of here first." Selfish? or just over protective of the girls? You decide.

Another issue that is puzzling me is the fact that people can pay to watch Twilight again and again. Hmm.. Yeah, i agree that it is quite a nice movie, with a cute teen couple and an interesting plot, but is it really worth to catch it so many time?In my opinion, no matter how great a movie is, I will just catch it once, because by watching it all over again, there will be no anticipation and excitment you felt the first time you watched it. You know what is going to happen, when the cute guy is coming out, and stuff like this. It will take away the joy of watching a movie. Maybe the obsession of these teenage girls with the Edward cullen is something i will never understand. Yes, he is quite cute with those intense eyes, but.. I just don't get it. Somebody please enlighten me.

As I was packing up my table yesterday, I stumbled upon my many many lovely diaries which contained my memories. When I was reading through the entries, I realized that in my 2 years in Jc, perhaps it is due to the stress, the lack of time management or maybe even commitment, my 2 years in Jc were never properly recorded down. It just seems like a lost chapter from my diary. It was recorded every now and then, but never in full, just bits and pieces.

However, I realized that it is also within these 2 years that i managed to write out decent poems. My exploration with poetry started when I realized that I need an outlet to express my thoughts and feelings. Mere writings and narration were not enough for me. However, now is still not the time no share yet, no, for I'm still not ready to share. Call me selfish, but the poems depicts my innermost thoughts and feelings, which I'm not willing to share..yet. So when the time comes, perhaps just perhaps, you may get a glimpse of my works.

My two years in JC concluded last night with a glamorous prom at Marina Mandarin. In my opinion, the prom was kind of draggy, the food not very pleasant But at least the photo-taking and people watching made the event much more worth it. And of course, the company i'm with! =D The makeup was kindof horrible because my eye makeup keep smudging. When im back home, after washing off the loads of powder/makeup off my face, I saw red spots-another allergy=(

it had been so long since i written a decent post! haha. Been pretty busy with A levels and after A levels activities. Having not blog for so long, i find it kindof hard to start writing again. Theres so many things to write about, but somehow, i find it difficult to put to words my feelings and thoughts.

i think until i consolidate my feelings and thoughts, will i be blogging again.

Hot tears
heart ache
its over
i'm dead

the above just summerized my feelings for prelims. Yes, i did alot of stupid things, especially for chem and the most heartache thing is when i realize my gazillion mistakes n was about to change just ONE OF THEM, time's up. argh, my brain frozed in the hall, n i always take so long to recover! blah! but its over, next week is D-Day.

Enough of all that, its my fault, i wasnt well prepared. =(

OH, my family has new additions in the family. No its not a baby, its ALOT of babies! hamsters i mean. My sister brought home her hamsters from her office. And the couple had 6 babies! they looked like gummy bears. But sadly, one didn't survive past the 2nd day. So left 5 more babies.The day after the death of the 6th, we checked the cage very often to make sure the rest were doing fine. We were very shocked to see the mum disposed off a weak baby who was still breathing in the toilet(small green container!) The mum didnt like that baby.=( We rescued the baby and placed it back in the litter. Afterwhich that baby grew to be the smallest of the lot. I observed the little fellow's progress everyday, its growing up fine, but its only half the size of it's FAT BROTHERS who ALWAYS bully little fellow! hmpf! and the mum is biased, always refused to nurse it. It pains me, so i gave them extra food, hoping little fellow will eat more(since they are starting to eat solid food) Hope little fellow will grow up to be fatter and stronger and not be pushed around., JIAYOU! another baby hammie was very cute too, always whining, and another always sticking with the father!
So, now my house has 2 doggies, 2 guinea pigs, a family of 7 hamsters, 3 terrapins and many many fishes! hahaha. So, its like a mini pet shop. =X hohoho, they brought so much joy to the family! =D
And during the study break, i caught the movie Wall.E. It is a really really nice movie.I love Wall.E eyes and Wall.E is really sweet and lovable! =D Wall.E is not shy to express his love to Eve, and it always there for her. In the movie, it really reflect the greed and laziness of people and amplified Wall.E innocence and sincerity in making friends. It also sent out a messenge about the need to conserve earth. A great movie for the whole family. I love the part whereby the two robots were still on earth, Wall.E attempts to woo Eve, and staying by her side all the time. AWW, so sweet! =D i don't mind watching it again. But for peoplewho love action pack or thriller movie, i think this movie isnt for you. You will end up like one of those people snoozing in the corner.
Then, there was mooncake festival! We had SO MUCH mooncakes to eat, there are still some left. We had icecream mooncakes from swensen's, goodwood park uberdelicious snowskin assorted mooncakes(there was any after we bought at the outlet! hahaha), teochew traditional yam mooncake, small snowskin durian mooncakes from 717 (given) and 4egg traditional baked mooncakes (given). So i was like a glutton during this period, cannot waste mah. hahahah! =X i still wanted green tea mooncake but... i definitely can't finish. so oh well.. next year!=D

Hm. For now, i want to just take a short break to re-charged. Of cause, next week will be a very tiring week, because i will be bawling outloud. Tissue paper anyone?

i am so not going to study out ever again!

I went back to schfor GP consultation with Mr Tan. He told us to meet him at 7.25 but a last min meeting pushed everything to 8.20. We got there late, at 8.30 though. After that, nolinkFish n Junmin asked me to join them to study at Marine Parade library. Everyone knows i DONT study outside school, BUT i decided to give it a try today, because, 1. they say its very condusive there and 2. i want a change of environment. And it turned out to be a bad decision.! =(

IT was SO noisy there, so not condusive! There was this group of guys that keep talking and talking n talking! so distracting, and there are quite a few inconsiderate people who didnt switch their phones on silent mode. ohwell, this isnt the worst. When it was 12.30, Junmin, nolinkFish and Dong was hungry(Randy was hungry onlyafter he switched to one of his 7 stomachs! hahah) so we decided to go and eat. It was pouring, what luck. Then i recalled vaguely that last year, during a pw meeting, it was raining too, but my grp managed to get to MP library without getting wet from PP, so i told them need not bring umbrella, cos it is sheltered all the way. A decision i soon to regret. It ended with 5 people drenched from head to toe at the nearest coffee shop. Then when we were having our lunch, we got harassed by an aunty(shan't elaborate). Before leaving, she even asked me(why me??) over and con't her lecture. I guess my face was the least pissed and most peaceful. Then it was a peaceful day after, except for more disturbing, not considerate people at the library who choose to play catching, date, etc in the library....

Argh! i think all these simply tells me not to go out and study anymore! hahah. So sorry nolinkFish, junmin,dong and randy for getting you guys drenched, wet and cold. =( i was wet and cold too and i took off my shoes in the public library!(the librarian didnt say anything)ahhahah.=D oh well, hibernate at home and study till next thurs for my next consultation in school at 7.15AM!

Last friday i went to watch the Dark Knight with my sis at cathy cineleisure at 11.20pm? hahah. It was really nice and i really like Christian Bale the actor who was acting Bruce Wayne(batman). All along, i thought Batman was like really noob, only have strenght and not much power, but know i know why he is a superhero.=D go watch if u haven't! Before the movie, me and sis went to this shop with the UFO catcher machines to try our luck there. It was really exciting, we almost got the eeyore, but alas, luck wasnt really on our side. =( but overall, had a great day. Reached home at 3 am and got scolded by Jack(the old but adorable jack russell!!!)

Olympics is really exciting! Ever since it started, i got kindof "addicted" to it and must have a daily dosage! but this week is quite horrible, so i didnt really have the luxury to watch, but just catch the daily highlights or snippets. Had a bio re on tues, another bio re on weds and today a horrible econs test on role of government. IT WAS WORTH 25 marks. =( boo, didnt know if i wrote the right things down, doesnt seems to be too confident, i was just rushing rushing, without much thinking. BLAH! this is bad, real bad, n prelims are like.. oh so CLOSE!

Somedays the weather is fine with fluffy cottony clouds , somedays the weather isnt fine, dark clouds loom around, but remember, within the clouds there will always be a silver lining, so dont despair and JIAYOU! smiles everyone! =D

Somedays, i just want to hibernate in my warm blanket, sleep all my worries away and never ever look back at the past...

Have you ever met one person that can make you smile from within?

The rain was so huge just down. Washalf drenched but its ok. My handy waterproof windbreaker was there to save the day! haha. Lent Wangboon my umbrella since I won't need it for the rest of my journey home. Rainy days make people sad, make people reflect, but a certain someone can brighten up the gloom rain brings with it. =)

I wonder...

ok, i hadn't been updating much because i isolated myself frm the com for the longest time ever. hahha, n my inbox burst! with 1000++ mails unread. hohoh..

The feeling is really weird not going to SC room in the morning anymore. Especial on monday mornings. I no longer read the morning annoucement and end off with my "thankew" that my 1807 always imitate or get to wish ppl good luck for exams like what i did last yr for the J2s(n my stupid snr said he thought was a bimbo!) OR to use the PA system and people "complaining" i was too loud and high pitched( as compared to the USUAL speaker on the PA system who err speak much softer?) AND to stand beside zhiyuan every monday because she is the flag bearer and us talking discreetly infront of the whole school! haha. Or the wednesday morning me and siewyuen will fight to not be the last one in the line (esp when Esti was not around) and to see JiaYi not knowing where the container classroom is after our wed's morning assembly! =(( And the Fly tt was always around during wednesday morning assembly. Oh. It all over, our term had ended. The tears we shared, the memories we hads and the friendship that we forged. all this and more. All the late nights that we had and Jason who always suggested going to the "hippest" to eat and tt spastic Ryan with all his crap!! Oh and Swee Liang with his Sweeliang time and for being such a great Discomm i/c and the orhorh tao Kangyu, piaoliangbbaobao Valerian AND Aishah-the energy bunny! there is YanTing who is always in the same comm as ME and the superb creative Beatrice, Shawn and Ivan who created all the wonderful wonderful posters and banner, etc for the council. And having work with all the PC! Mingjin, Cadence and Ziko! all with different styles but all so nice to work with. And Evelyn who is so cute, esp the day after Mardi Gras, the 2 of us was practically complaining everything esp after our "hungover" frm the day before!! haha. And Huimin my mama, Lorraine my behind the scenes "girlfriend"!! and Joshua who i got to know much better after EiE and who went with me to Minitoons to buy Grp5 gift and looking totally out of place with all the girls staring!hahhahaha=X And Karina, Jessica, JinZhi, Ajit,Jimmy, Bala, Trinity, Bryan, Ren Hao, Shiyun, Amira, Chester, Jonathan, Warda, Ming, ZhengLu, Alex, YingChao, Kenneth andMarc! THANKYOU SO MUCH FOR THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES! U MAKE ME PROUD TO BE A 31st! =DD i will miss all the moments with u guys!

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Hahah TRIEE! i m blogging again! =)))) n for joshua i m going to answer ur tag questionaire!

Interview with myself
This is interesting and embarrassing..wahaha..enjoy=)
Instructions: Replace one question from below and replace it with your own.

1. What's your favourite food?
hmm this is tough.. JAP food.=DD
2. What is the one thing you would change if you had a chance to go back into the past?
Well i guess to save my friend's father's life.
3. What's going to happen tomorrow?
Out K-ing and pizza lunch with council buddies! =D
4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
Hate is too strong a word. If u are very close to your friends, u will tend to expect more right?=X
5. When do you wish to die?
When my time is up, i will go.
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Of course!
7. What impossible things you would wish to do?
- To have the ability to heal people's heart.
8. Do you believe in eternal love?-
Yes, n dont say i m gullible!>.<
9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
- not that i know of.
10. Where is your favourite holiday destination?
- Paris n Germany
11. Describe your other half?
half, what other half. ;)
12. What feelings do you hate most?
Betrayal
13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- Yes.They are important to me
14. What are you looking forward to in the upcoming weeks?-
Getting some rest n baking more cookies!
15. The most important thing in your life?-
My family and jack
16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?-
People who carefor me n whom i care
17. Do you find life meaningless?-
no, there are so many things out there for u to explore n discover.
18. Have you ever loved someone?-
maybe the right one has not appear yet
19. List one thing that you are scared of.-
losing someone close
20. What's your greatest wish?-
for the safety of my loved ones
21. What if one of your loves betray you?-
Question myself why.

the end, i shant tag 7 ppl! ahha

our journey together is ending...

Had invest rehearsal today, which clashes with the 3rd-4th placing match for bball, so needless to say, i was in school rehearsing and "dancing to the moonlight". n we lost, to vj! =( sad plx.

After that went out with yuen to bugis to get her billabong bag!! was really a nice bagpack which is black base with red flowers and white words. Not too plain nor loud! =D n look nice when she carries! had dinner after and we gossip gossip gossip! hahaa. N if u r seeing this ms yuen! i m so glad someone understand how i feel about tt "tigger!" ahhahah=XXX

On a random note: i dreamt of this totally random guy frm bball for 2 consecutive days! n the 2nd day, he gave me a bouquet of flowers! super random!=D

I had so many tings to want to blog moments ago, but now, i didn't know what to blog. It seems that the days are getting shorter, flittering past too quickly. Before i can stop to look back, i will be push back to reality to catch up with what life throws at me. However, im not complaining, because i know after this term ended, i will be missing all this. It will be over.

1st off. Lv yuan is over! Its was a blast, but im sure i will be missing the rehearsal nights whereby dear julie was my singing partner, whereby i had to act as a jian nu ren/getai singer/ irritating n superb teh gf. yes. And the many many role-playing sessions the rest of the cast had at backstage, con't our own version of the story! hahah. Such fun. No more "Bu yao lian!", "Yan wo shui", "AIAI", etc etc. All these moments however will be in capture in my memory always. Thanks to everyone who made this such a success. 18/07-for the flower! Xiumin(twin)-for the flower! Siting- for the chocs! My mama-for supporting me! My makeup artistes- JiaYi! ZhiYuan! Julie! and Yulan! My darling director- Xiangrui AIREN! and everyone in the cast Char Siew Bao! n of cos not to forget my Xiao jing gua- PickYee! =DD Angel(xiufeng jie lent me her stocking!) Woonhwee!! (jessica n karina for coming despite not knowing chinese!! muaxh muaxh~!)

2nd. missed Choir concert on Friday, didnt have that much $$ to go both band and choir, so had to make a choice. Heard that choir performance was great! Great job to fish, twin and kingkong.! Baked a cookie that night for mum, since she wasnt home. Almost gave the game away when she suddenly returned home early when the cookie was still baking!!! had to resort to asking my dasao to distract my mum away from the kitchen. Burnt my hand in the haste to remove the cookie and clear my the mess. =P but was all worth it. Got scolded for not sleeping early, Oh well, SHE will know the reason on Sunday!

3rd.. Went for Band concert at VCH with seow and sweebee! hoho. Almost lost our way, but made it there on time! =DD Meet dong, ziko and renhao there too. Went in and sat near the front with them. Zik was munching on his old chung kee! tsk tsk. Dong playing his psp.! But i must say the concert was a blast, enjoyed the show vvv much, and it was my 1st band concert! =DDD After the show, the guys went for a drink(so lousy in trying to hide the fact from me n jy!=P) and me n jy had our own drink at starbucks!!! hohoho. Crap all the way back home. smuggled a bouquet of flowers home for mum because i know she will still be up waiting for me and didnt want her to see the flowers. lucky my bag was huge enough. Phew.

4thly! Mother's Day. Mum was pleasantly surprised with the cookie and the flowers!hahaha. She kept boasting to Dad about us making the effort to bake a cookie and bought her flowers. tsk tsk. Had dinner at east coast! great day.!=DD

now preparing for college day this friday. sad, probably my last deployment project. Found Ratchaphorn and Joel's old doc on their college day in hard copy. working hard on it! =D

WOW. imagine having only 3 hours plus combined sleep for 2 days and having dinner (cup noodle) at midnight on the 1st night and a sandwich for 2nd night, freezing in sleep for the 1st night, etc etc and still loving the experience because i m doing all this with my beloved 31st! yup.
on the 2nd night, siewyuen n me emo-ed abit on the track thinking how our council term is going to end soon, its so scary. the thought of having to leave council and the darling 31st.
n i officially "died" after the camp, didnt go to sch today. haix. lots to catch up! =(

I felt just like the wombat at the top of my blog, and i still am feeling that way. i mean none of us would have wanted such an ending to it, and yes i made a fool of myself too by bawling out loud in the middle of the hall. Felt really sorry to my team though they keep reassuring me that its not my fault, but yeah, its just the way i feel.
Felt bad not going for council stayover. Didnt bother to explain, but josh knew why. Didnt go for the rehearsals for xr play either. Im so sorry, but i think my emotions will just screw up really badly today.
Read the newspaper article about PW grades as well, and brought back a tsuinami of emotions. But what else can i do to change? nothing i guess or perhaps appealing? Which i guess will just be chunk aside or thrown into the dustbin as paperballs.
I made a promise, to only be sad for the max of 2 days. n i will keep to it. Yup, dont worry guys, i will be back on my feet again. No use being like this forever!! its over and nothing can be done, energy should be better channelled to other more useful things! =D smile!

the mushroom even got blusher!! =DD plus a love note too!!

I have the well wishes from thw whole cg 18/07! and when i laid out all the items of the day, it was like i m having a store at a flea market!.

by the time i lunged all this home, i got stares from so many people. I think they thought i was lunging bombs or something. and my dad was superb amused with all my presents!! lolx.

And today i got a belated bday gift from chiahow. its a Bear from built a bear workshop called Wini. hahaha. =DD

yeah yeah!! so happy. all the love love presents!! =DDD i shall blog about my family presents and dinner the next time!! too tired!! =DD cya!

march holidays came and is going soon, and my holidays are spent at home studying. oh well, at least its the most productive holiday, though i think my results for MCT will be a sad case.

went nus open house. must really thank nolinkfishy qianying for going with me to nus earlier to listen to the law talk. yes yes! and we even got lost in the early parts of the day when we were finding our way to the venue as we took the wrong shuttle bus! =XX hahah. the bukit timah campus is sososososososososo PRETTY... Awww.. so now i should work my ass to really really do well. Read the saturday news that NOW, it is going to be so TOUGH to get in uni, let alone those super super hot faculty. =( sobx. Need leadership, initiate an activity, sports and internship to boost SP too. i only got about 2 of the above, and there are so many others who have all 4 above plus straight As.=(

feeling damn moody these days. no idea why, just feel really really weird. AND i m really feeling quite disgusted over something. =((

I FELL SICK DURING THE HOLIDAYS!! how nice.. Lost my voice, trying to make weird noise with what little "voice" i had left and all i got is weird pronunciations.=X oh bother.

Went NTU economics talk on Saturday. It was lectures after lectures for the whole day.! i didnt even know what hell i had signed up for. And i fell asleep for one of the lectures! ok, i m really guilty, because i don't fall asleep for lect, even if i m really tired. and according to Jiayi, me sleeping is like a phenomenal and she will probably win 4D, yeah, thanks. Remember to share half the winnings with me=XX

We went to the NTU open house as well. Lunge back information sheets on the courses available and stuff like that. Was kindof interested in a few courses, at least now i m not as confused of what i want for my future. Kor also talked to me that night about Uni courses, it was kindof funny, because he was Damn serious when he was talking to me, and i m so not used to it! haha. but thanks Bro!

Bohohoh. Cg going swensens today to spend the voucher we gotten from Dodgeball and i will be stuck at home with a horrible inflammed throat. =( sobx.!! i bet its that Laksa yong tofu i ate on Friday plus a whole week of screaming at the top of my lungs. =(

as days past, it became clearer and clearer what i want, but its just so hard to talk to anyone about it.

woosh~ at last, the week had ended. Such a tiring, mentally and physically exhausting week. Waking up so early and sleeping so late each day. And having to PUT UP with so many UNFAIRNESS in a week. BOO. i am really mad/pissed/sad/etc.

I think i need to find an avenue to let out all my pent-up frustration.! Really, if not i may just go berserk. I think maybe i shall channel all my energies to Studying and be a MUGGER. Anyway,the sports people in our school had this really nice sports shirt with their pdp name over it. Then Mr tan said i should have one too, with the word MUGGER. Thanks arh mr tan.. =(( Even though i really like the shirt, i will not wear it if mine is written MUGGER. hoho. i think i PREFER TIMETABLE CLUB!! hahahah=XX

feeling really really exhausted and yet relief the weekends are coming. Going to NTU tmr for the econs lecture there with lameface Jiayi and my mortal yuang. Hope its fun. =)) and Tmr is NTU open house, so maybe i will be super motivated to study after going there! hahah=XX

A week past since the start of SC nominations, i shan't comment more, but i just want to say, the whole thing is sucking both my energies and time, returning home late and feeling lousy over it. but i hope that all this will pay off!! =)) must remain optimistic, even though there maybe disappointment now, i really really hope our efforts pay off.

Dodgeball- both a disaster and blessing. Disaster because history repeat itself, the frisbee accident last year replayed itself. well, i believe in sports and everything, integrity is the most important. And deep down in our hearts, we all know who are the true winners, though we had gotten 4th, i believe the event had also brought our cg closer( blessing!!) especially when we cheered togther and got pissed together too! Hm.. i didnt get to play though. =(( but its ok, im not a good player either. =)) played V-ball after that, got laugh at because i look very funny when i chased the ball around, and i shot the ball past the tennis court fence. =DD hahaha. And Xiangrui, dont think i don't know you say i look like "Ah Meng" ok?

a while ago, when i was listening to the radio, i heard this phrase which set me thinking very deeply. "i like you not because of who you are, but who i am when i am with u" You like a person because you feel comfortable talking to that person, not afraid to show yourself, your true self and thats why you feel the attraction to be with that someone. maybe its true, i dont know. How bout you?

and i keep thinking, who makes me feel this way.? =DD

MY PHONE CRASH THIS MORNING AFTER I WAS READING THROUGH THE MSGS! SOBX. and i lost so many many contacts...=(( have to use my back up phone for now. sad way to begin a new week.

yesterday was our 1st GM with the nominees. well, i shant comment much, but if feel kindof sad. Nominations shouldn't be like tt.. no. Disappointed. I dont want the 31st to be affected by the new nominees. we can overcome this together. We had been through so much. Jiayou 31st. Jiayou all committees. And jiayou to my dear disc. comm and co-i/c sweeliang! =))

Still aching from standing so long yesterday. went to suntec after that for the career fair. Was a real disappointment. oh well, i hope the NUS open house would be much much better! =))

i m still in a lousy mood because of my phone..=(( RAH!

i m so pissed with the sch ad***!! so last minute, treat us with some repect! we serve the school, but not some last min maid/servant?

Came back home late today doing some mtp duty, which is quite redundant because the parents know where to go and we had so few people doing it. Then stayed back a little later helping the Sc nom Admin comm-eve,ryan,jinzhi and jiayi(lameface!) hoho. Had fun together joking, fooling around and just gossiping about everything! hoho =XX

OK!i m like so dead tired and tmr is going to be one long long day! going to schoo in the morn at 7.40! n i cant believe i m still blogging.. haha. then going with my darling 18/07 to suntec for the career fair! yippe~ =)) though i think i may just ZZZzz on my way there and back.. too tired to talk or anything.

i m in a super sleepy mode while writing this blog. Yup. my eye bags are getting more n more visible. a cause for rejoice?

18/07 going to enter the class mtv contest thing.! yeah. im sure xinjun did his best in singing! so many retakes because all of us will burst out laughing before before he finished because the lyrics are really funny.
the lyrics (the order maybe wrong) sang to the tune " on the ___ day of christmas my true love gave to me..."

On the 25th day in TJ, my college gave to me
25, 18 rocking
24, calvin niaoing
23, philine feeling
22, zhihui kc
21, randy's cherie
20, professor meijing
19,cheryl poking
18, orh lang jiamin (burst out laughing here all the time, sorry jiamin! =))
17, laoda yiying
16, louis burping
15, jolyn dancing
14, xiumin sao-ing
13, yulan shaking
12, donglin sleeping
11, randy eating
10, winifred
9, mushroom fengyi
8, Kingkong roaring
7, Tujin studying
6, Chia how singing
5... Tan Qian Ying (BOOM)
4. tricia
3, yu ang
2 ong junmin
and a xiang rui with a jiayi.

Had much fun taking the pictures for the mtv too. I had to pose with a hot pink umbrella. I look so comical!>.< was so paiseh when i was taking the picture.! The rest of the pics were equally hilarious! hope we win again this time.! the YOG picture win was totally random, but we still won! yeah.

CT was looking really down during our GP lesson, wonder what is wrong with him today. hope everything is fine, it feels really weird for us to console him, and yet we really would like too. hope he get back his groofy smile and happy enthusiatic him tmr! =DD jiayou!!

i feeling very very na men since tues and even more on weds. I really dont know why m i feeling like tt. Maybe its true, ignorance is bliss, then perhaps, i wouldn't be feeling like this now.=((

i had one great weekend! hohoho. brought my parents to see the terminal 3. haha. acted like some mountain tortoise, but who cares? lolx. then we went metro expo sale!! i saw a dress and bought it because it is really lovely. OK.. it is UNUSUAL for a manly,bimbotic and motherly wini to buy a dress, but yea i bought a dress. ahahah.=XX
After that we had dinner at the Macau express cafe! u guys should go and have a try. My 3rd trip there and each time i wnet, it is NEVER a disappointment! hohoh. love the food there. Had a fun time with my parents and glad to find them still pretty loving after so many year. hohoho. i was like the big lightbulb whose job is to carry the purchases but i m not complaining. it is just great to be with them! though, it feels weird without my sister with me. usually its me and her, mum and dad. today is like mum and dad, and me. well.. its ok! i have to get use it!

yeahness. heard a superb superb good news!! cant wait for friday to come! its going to be a blast!! i miss u loads!!!=)))

my friday didnt turn out sad and miserable though despite the fact i cant go Jurong Island. haha. Had a meeting with the D. comm members. yup. We covered quite alot in that one hour. yeah yeah!!=)) way to go guys! Then after meeting, it was off to Tampines to watch Jumper with "wo ai de ren" aka Ms png zhi yuan! haha. When we were living school, met kangyu who acted angry with me for going on "date" with zhiyuan. Was very funny, because after he said that, i just laugh then said she chose me, then zhiyuan grab my arm and we left. hoho. Sorry dude. =XX

Jumper was a great movie. It was a thriller and quite action-packed. It was also quite romantic in a way, if you watched it already, you will know what i m talking about. If not, catch it yourself, no spoilers here!=X hoho. After the movie, it was about 6. And i had another movie, p.s. i love you to watch with my darling 18/07 ppl at 7. hahah. 2 movies in a day! spoilt myself to the max! haha. zhiyuan left after sending me to lameface,tri,meepok,style,mushroom,jinjin,dong,oilspill,laogao&airen. Then off "wo ai de ren" to find "ta ai de ren". lolx. i know sounds very confusing but it has links to the 1st para! =X P.S. i love you was pretty ok, except that at some parts, it gets a little too draggy.perhaps i m not the romantic kindof person, though i think i may like someone like Gerry to be my husband! lolx. However, compared to Jumper, i think Jumper is more worth the money. For both movies, my spoilt nose decided to block the 2 nostrils so i had to gulp for air through my mouth. =( Had a super late dinner after that which is a piece of carrot cake. didnt want to eat much, having pt the next morning.

Today went back to school for GM! 8.30, but it started near to 9. Was PT first thing in the morn. We went to lucky heights the reverse way. Thought was quite a good idea. Though the upslope was steeper, i thought that it kindof feel shorter. hoho. my ankle almost gave way up there, but thanks to ziko who kept giving me encouragement and constantly asked if i was ok. hoho. In the end, i made it back to TJ in one piece, no accident! haha. for a person who is superb accident prone, it was an achievement, however it didnt last long, when i went to the toilet after that, i got hit on the head by the door. -.-" After PT, we had GM in Seminar room 111. It was super cold inside and my nose "froze". I cant breathe and had to use my mouth again. it was a relief to be out the room. Hoho. Mrs loke gave us haobao made of felt. Feels nice. Inside the Haobao though its 2 gold coin chocolates. after returning to SC room, found out junmin(meepok) attempted to call me. She wanted to come back school to collect our GP package because Mr cal tan need it on mon. So i went to tell the auntie to wait for her. lolx, i kindof spoiled the uncle's plan to leave early because he looked evidently sadder after his wife agreed to wait. SORRY! Then i missed meepok when she came. I was vibration proof so didn't realize she called me. she had to carry everything home. Felt so bad, because she could have left it in my locker! =( sorry meepok for being so vibration proof. Then after the mass dance, went with some of the 31st to the "hippest" aka KFC to have our lunch. there goes all our effort in PT.

Mum went m'sia today, so i had the house to myself the whole day. Felt so pig, slept like one when i reached home.My dog did exactly the same too. found him sleeping beside me when i woke up on the sofa in the living room. haha. was kindof cute, he imitating what i am doing! hoho. Mum just came back no long ago! she bought me a super cute hp pouch, a ducky head one! hoho. She noticed my hp pouch is giving way, so, yeah! now i have a new hp pouch! hoho.=DD all smiles.

Everything seems great so far, hope it stays this way!=DD

just when i want to blog, my stupid internet connection is lost, so currently i m just typing while my connection is trying to re-connect itself.

for civics yesterday, all the J2 classes are supposed to report to either LT1 or LT2 for a sexuality talk, on the difference between men and women and so on and so forth, and we aint supposed to blog anything about it. But i guess, i cant possibilty blog anything about it, because practically throughout the whole talkshow thing, me and yuang was talking. Well, its not ouyr fault that we opted to chat instead of listening. Because, judging by the faces of those who are listening, they are either 1.sleeping 2. looking bored 3.staring in space. so well.. i rather spent my time more "wisely". hoho. But it was fun talking to Lao Gao. yea, we were having our own debate about Guys and Girls and what we look for in our future partners. haha. at least he understands what type of guys i like because he watched "xian jian qi xia zuan" also! hohoho

After Civics, the few of us namely, jiayi, tri, nolink, mushroomfengyi, tujin and me went to LT2 for the talk about overseas universities. Well.. in the end, didnt manage to hear anything either, due to bad geographical location(back of LT) and was chatting with mushroomfengyi. Then i realised Tujin and Fengyi like to "hug" themselves or cross their arms, so i told them this is negative body language, then the next moment, they spread their arms around and look so -.-". I didnt know who to respond... hohohoh.

Had chem spa today at 5.15 pm, such weird timing, but the majority of the cls decided to just study/slack/sing/etc in our GP(last period) classroom till 5.15pm. Seriously, 18/07 nice class to have fun, but not the most condusive ppl!! hahaha.=X and i heard weird noises too! hohoh..

Now i m trying to do the econs proj, but my mind in a swirl, no idea why, feel abit floaty too. And my stupid nose, one nostril stuck, the othe itchy! arh! irritating.>.<

Tmr going to be one sad sad day. Majority of cls gg jurong island while some miserable souls like me will be stuck in school. =(( namely, triee, xr, laogao, dong, jiayi and me. RAH! it isnt fun at all not going. BOHOHO. i want to go! sobZ='(

i shall get back to work, and stop slacking and slothing. woosh~

i m so so so so super clumsy. Actually, i was kindof feeling quite happy to run today because we are running outside school instead of track, and today's weather is really scorching so we are kindof in the shade if we run the Gate-Gate route. So i was happy running at my own pace for the 1st round and ALAS! i fell down at the bend and sprain my ankle. Oh gosh, but i continue to run hoping the pain would fade away, it just got worse, and i manage to scrap a pass in the end, with the help of a Delta girl who ran the last leg with me, hope to see her again to say a BIG thankyou!=))

Dropping my maths to H1 isnt such a bad thing after all. At least, i feel that now i have a wee bit more confident in dealing maths sum. Yup, though i m still really unfamiliar with the workings of my H1 class, i think they are pretty nice people who are very outspoken, so each lesson is quite engaging and fun. I really hope i can arrange a time with the tutor to clarify about STATs, cause currently, i m just trying to learn myself, which apparently, i think i made lots of assumption and aint sure if it is right anot. =((

With more events coming up like SC norm, SC camp and Mardi Gras, i really hope i utilize all the spare time i have now, then to pile up and fret at the last min. hoho.

And i just saw the timeline for SC norm, their voting date starts on my birthday, wich means i cant go to celebrate my bday. OHno...=( sobx. nevermind then.

A day spent with 18/07 is a happy day! hahah..=)) automatically brightens up my day.

Recieved a damn random msg today in school. feeling na men over it. isnt it obvious i dont want to reply? i know i m being bad, but i just can't force myself to.

Just hope to be happy everyday! ooh.. so HIM today after PE! ahaha.. ok, i m huachi-ing, u can ignore! X)

had the sudden urge to blog, but my mind is blank.

Been pondering and thinking pretty deeply these days.


I reckon that my lousy mood these days are caused by what i see and feel, and yet i find it hard to tell somebody else, because no one can feel exactly what I m feeling. They probably brush off what i want to say, and embark on their own stories. I dont blame them, i mean, my problems or thoughts probably isnt worth that much thought or effort in listening.

i yearn to watch the sunrise at a beautiful beach, to see the beginning of something lovely, the start of a miracle, and to have someone by the side who will understand and see the beauty nature creates. the miracle created everyday, that everyone is rushing off too fast too observed.

Somehow I don't where to start my blog.

I realized my life has became so structured. My life is being surrounded by ONLY these few things, and yet I can't even seems to get anything right. It feels horrible. Time isnt on my side. It feels as if I had lost a good friend, like Time had forsaken me, leaving me struggling to complete my work as Time run faster and faster from me.

I no longer feel like myself anymore. Like im enclosed in this exterior shell that is shielding me from the external harm that may come my way, and yet the internal shelf screams to be let out. Im confused, unsure what lies ahead of me, if I m able to deal with it, and yet i know i still have to face it, whatever it is. I fear the unknown, and yet the unknown excites me. I m such a contradictory person.

iknowthatthisfeelingsucksbutihopethatfromnowonthisisthslasttimeimfeelingthiswayeverythingshouldworkoutfine

I was once intrigued by the beauty of a butterfly, something so small yet so graceful. And the multicoloured wings. To me, they were one of the best art nature had ever done.


i'm beginning to realize i dont even know myself.

I had just survived my 2nd week in school, OR should i re-phrase, its my 1st week in school (involved in REAL school work) because the 1st week, i was running about school busy with orientation. WEE~ Zenith 08 rocks! Though i MUST STRESS i will NEVER EVER WISH to cut ANY GARBAGE BLINDFOLDS again! They can drive me freaking crazy! Worst then those Grad nite slips of paper i cut during the Nov holiday. I guess only Zhiyuan and Amira can understand what i m taking about.!

My 1st week (orientation week)
Starting from Weds, i got superb lack of sleep, so i was like "high-ing" a moment, sleepy the next moment. But i guess the orientation was a BLAST! Esp the Suntec Mass Dance, the 31st simply went crazy, we ran around the fountain for countless time, cheering all the cheers and simply just being crazy. haha. We were having so much fun, for a moment, the thought of completing holiday homework just flown out of my mind. But the serious lack of sleep certainly took a toll on me and i made up by waking super late on Sunday.=X

2nd week
Argh. Was a really scary week and i can't believe i m already "chiong-ing" homework to way past mid night already, and they are TUTORIALs, not some forgotten/lost in the pile holiday homework. Gah. And stupid me, went to do maths assignment 1 & 2 and stupidly think that the tutor will go through slowly, only to realize that what we really NEED to hand in is assignment 4! Horrors, but thank god, we need not and in that soon, if not, i m DEAD meat.
Had 2 tests in the 2nd week already, namely the horrifying chem and maths test. *praying that i pass them*
I felt the pace was too fast, all the tutors were stressing that year 2 will be really hectic, and i can feel it already. I was too slack in my yr1. =((
I must have more confidence, better time management and jiayou this year! woot. i must HUAT this year! =)))) lolx

*ps: i heard this on the radio "if you really like someone, then do things that the person will like or like doing. It got me thinking. When one is in love, one will tend to do things that will please the others. Just by looking at the other's smile is enough. Love is silly* lalalala.

Stop saying I m a hsifratS, because i m not. I m myself! ahaha=X
new past