Was it so evident? Weiren said I looked depressed. Despite my many smiles and laughters, I guess my weariness is starting to show. Thanks for the ice cream cone! Yeah, it really did cheer me up, and that performance from your friend.! Highly entertaining, though he doesn't sing that well, he sure knows how to get the crowd going.

Projects after projects, I kind of wish that I had mid terms rather than all this project.




Dear Winifred Tan, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Other people find you very interesting
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : But you are really hiding your true self
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Your friends love you because you are a good listener
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You like serious
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Smart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Determined people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't judge a book by its cover
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship
The seriousness of your love:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are very serious about relationships
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : If you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will fall deeply
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Beautifully in love
Your views on education:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can
The right job for you:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You'll be set for life
How do you view success:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous
What are you most afraid of:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Independence is important to you

I'm stunned. Its perhaps the most accurate quiz I've done thus far...

Realization hit me hard on the face this week.

Quoted from Wanyin " Loving you was never difficult. Letting you go is..." At times, learning to let go of someone or something that you love is like cutting a certain part of your body. The pain and anguish are indescribable, thats why sometimes, you would rather cling on to that little shred of hope and stubbornly refused to let go, for fear of the torrents of emotional hurt you will receive once you let go. But hope is nothing but an endless pit of misery too isn't it? Wistful thinking will get you no where, your stubbornness will only prolong the pain. The heart can only take this amount of hurt. People say that only by going through misery and pain can you learn to be stronger, but to me, I guess its not because you become stronger, you just merely formed this layer of armor to protect yourself, or perhaps you become so numb by it all that it no longer hurts. Numbed by the things around you, forming the blase attitude, whereby whatever that happens no longer concern you anymore.

 Now that is scary...

Tired.

One bad news after another, how much more can I take it. Nothing can summarized my feelings better than the word disappointment.

At least yu ang's msn message cheer me up.
yu ang says:
*angel!!!!!
*hah
*crashing ntu tmr!!


Deep personal reflection has been the hall mark for you of late, Pisces.

Had a run at 3pm just now, almost got killed by the scorching sun. D: Should have ran at a later time. When I was running, many thoughts were running through my head. Had I been to busy with work to notice changes around me? My life has just sunk into this mindless hectic routine week after week. The people around me had been tolerant of my neglience, giving way to me when they sense my displeasure or weariness. But this is no way to go. I am so sorry for being such a bad daughther, sister,friend, roomie, co-worker lately. I get so caught up with work.

I am looking forward to a break, a disturbance to my routine.

Cut my hair last week, dyed it this week. My obessesion with my hair. Haha, gotten 2 dresses so far.. OMG Whats happening to me...? Hahaha. :x

Everything seems alil sweeter IF you

Don't demand so much of yourself.
Don't demand so much of others.
Ignore what you don't want to see.
Be deaf to things you dont wish to hear.
Love yourself for who you are.
Try to be the greater person you know you are.
Don't discount yourself.
Self-praise when you deserve it.

And most importantly, to smile and brighten up someone else's day.

Jingyi's 20th Birthday today! Celebrated at swensens with draco. Haha, was a great outing with a great turnout. Glad she loves the pressie we gotten for her.!((: wee~ Rilakkuma brown bear, which has a superbly cute sleeping bag.

Why does it affect me when I heard that you are going to meet someone else? I thought you dont matter to me, but I guess you do.

1st of school, adjusting back to school life. Gotten my most of my textbook, just shot of Hw111 workbook now. Have to buy from popular bookstore.

God has been helping me, sending angels in different forms to guide me and to encourage me.

After 2 straight days of breaking my blue hairbands, I thought it was a sign that bad things are coming my way. But wednesday was a turning point. 1stly no broken hairband, and had an awesome day-out with dear roomie. Days after were much better from wednesday on.!(:

Found my honeysuckle tea at last in NTU 7/11, and it was on offer, $1/bottle. Happy!((: It never fail to cheer me up, love love many many. Wanted to buy many bottles to stock up, but hasn't gotten the fridge yet, so I guess that will have to wait.(: At least now I know where to get that bottle of honeysuckle.

Looking forward to better days, a better sem. I will get through it. Yay. And thanks for making me smile.

A new planner for a new sem, a new year.

New promises made, which will be kept.

Had a "papa and daughter" day today! hahaha. Accompanied my dad to IRAS to settle some Gst disputes, then head down to a company near IRAS to collect some bad debts. It was damn funny when we were locating the company, couldn't find it, and we walked like one big round before finding that company! It was situated at such an ulu place! hahah.

Had lunch at Ajisen Ramen. Dad was very excited, and keep telling me about him wanting to try here but never do, because he didn't know how to order. Haha, so funny, so I order seafood ramen for him, n pork curry ramen for myself. Side dishes, white fish and fried tofu. He was so happy!

Then we head down to Dhoby Gaut to go to "the $2 place, everything $2, you know, that one.." hahah, Ya, we went there because of Diaso! But we only gotten one item there. Action City was having closing down sales, n Dad asked me to go and see. We went in there and saw a Tazmanian(looney tunes) keychain. haha. He is Dad's favourite cartoon character! hahah, I managed to persuade Dad to buy but he refused to hang on his bag! hahahah, damn funny, I kept laughing at Dad. We went carrefour to shop too. Dad was telling me all about history of beer. Then he looked at me and said "Papa bu zai bu neng he arh... Zai xue xiao bu neng he arh.."(dad not around cannot drink arh.. Cannot drink in school arh) He probably felt gulity for making me drink with him during dinner last night, n causing me to have a sleepless night. I think I'm so weird, have you ever heard someone suffering from insomnia cause of a few drinks?

Mama was worried that we went out so long, gave me 3 calls. Went home with dinner all ready! Yummy, one more week of homecooked food, before school starts.

Yesterday night had dinner with whole family at East Coast Park Long Beach. Fun time with family. Love them, thanks for being there and making me laugh and smile these few days.

Peace with my soul.

2009 was a year filled with drama and when I hit the lowest points of my life.

It is only when you had failures, can you taste the true sweetness of success. Things can only get better after you experience the worst.

Thanks for all the encouragement and support. In times of crisis, those messengers are like life buoys, keeping me afloat in troubled waters.

2010 will be a great year, for I will make it a great year. :D Smiley days, no more sadness, no more tears.

Too much greiving will screw up your body system.

Nosebleed, giddiness, nausea, disturb sleep.

As much as I want to say "hey its just that one subj that pull down everything, and u wont be seeing it anymore", as much as I want to stay optimistic, I can't.

IF I didnt put in so much effort for THAT subject, I won't be feeling so lousy.

IF the subj that cui-ed was THE one I thought it will be, I would just accept it.

BUT no, things just don't go the way you want it to be.

How am I going to pick myself up from this, when you know that being hardworking doesn't mean anything?

I think I'm scaring Papa n Mama, I think I look so ghostly this morning I woke up.

At least, I still have Jack to bring the smile back on my face. Thank God, I'm sure he is god send, my guardian angel. Bless him and hope he recover from his allergy soon, if not he will have to keep wearing the elizabeth collar and keep knocking into us. Not that I'm complaining, but the bruise on my leg is going to stay for a long time...


Vital Temps, Draco OG, Draco Girls and darling 1807. Still have many other photos to put up, more to come. :D I realised I have alot of camera shy friends. :x hahahaha. Take more pics in the coming year!((: Cheers!

Finally, I got back my lappy! woohoo. Had to keep calling and demand for my lappy, but am so glad its back in my arms!((:

Having an ear infection now. Haix, been causing headache, went to see a doctor, gotten painkillers, antibiotics and some ear drops. Hopefully it will go away...

So much things so write about.

Went with draco to marina barrage to fly kites. A great experience, with lotsa of kites, laughter, food and young children! Awesome company at a great place!((: Next we went Timbre @ the art house. Been wanting to go there for ages. Music was great, company was great and gossips aplenty! Haha, we had a few drinks plus some finger guessing game. The guys were a great bunch of people, making sure we made it home safe.

Had X'mas gift exchange with the 3 fantastic girls!((: Ben and Jerry experience was great with you guys!((: Sweet, lovely and totally warm! You made my X'mas extra wonderful this year.!

My trip to the doctor was great too. Haha, must be thinking I'm mad. Despite the pain, the smiles from the young kids and babies around me put that smile back on my face. Innocence painted all over their faces. I wonder how long it will last, before it is tainted by the evils of this cruel world.

I am still very touched by that little act of yours and that picture will remain one of my fave!((: ^^

Perceptions



When people starts to form perceptions and make groundless assumptions, it can be a very dangerous thing. If you managed to convince yourself that all these are "facts", you can end up forming the wrong impression of someone. At times, what you see, may not be what it is.

Had night cycling yesterday night. Such a great feeling having the wind against your face as you cycle in the cool night. I really like cycling in the park, there is the sea breeze, the sand and the stars above your head. (: Wonder when will be the next time... At that time when I was cycling, I had no stress or anything. I just let my mind wonder off, listening to the sounds around me and enjoying the scenary around me. Life can be so beautiful if you take your time to look around you and discover the wonders of it.

Forbidden love. There is no right or wrong.

Came across a blog talking about keeping things status quo, for fear that taking that extra step may ruin the
future progression of the friendship and topple the current harmonious balance. Its a thought that got me thinking, a subject that keeps bugging me.

To me, taking the extra step only meant knowing the person better. When one start to clam up and feel awkward infront of the one they like, they will never be able to know the other party well. Likewise, you being awkward will only make the other party feel uncomfortable too, thus ruining any possible progression, moreover IF you were to drop the bomb at this time with the "I like you", its bound to fail! The person will be stunned beyond words and maybe scared away by the sudden revelation of your part, because all along, there isn't any signs at all.

Take things slowly. Get to know the person 1st. If there is mutual attraction, things will happen. You need not to take the extra step, the only thing you have to do is stay confident, stay true to yourself. Being yourself and exluding that confidence is a very attractive trait that people tend to overlook. This is because when people are infront of their crush, they tend to be very conscious of theirselves, not themselves anymore. Throw any baggage away. Let the person see you for being just YOU, and like the You they see.

But more importantly, before anyone can love you, you must first learn to love yourself. I am not saying being obsessed with yourself,but accept who you are and love the way you are. No one is without a flaw, and you are perfect because of your imperfections, you just need the right person to appreciate and like you for who you are and accept all your flaws.

Everyone deserved to be loved and everyone has the right to love. You just have to find the RIGHT ONE to love and be loved. Love can't be rushed, its a natural process. I'm sure in this world, there is a half for everyone, we just have to keep looking... Don't despair, he/she may just be right at that corner!(:

Went to opposite TJ today to have the prawn noodles! Still as great as ever! Yummy, and had the dou hua shui. Nostalgia feeling, used to eat there practically everyday with 1807 people. It always such a challenge to find seats for everyone, but it sure beats eating in our canteen. Prawn noodles, fishball noodles, yong tau foo, char kuey tiao, chicken cutlet fried rice, scary cai fan, and many more delicious food! D: missing the days in TJ.

9,10,11,12,14,15,18,21,24,25,26. No this aint numbers I intend to buy for Toto, haha. These are the days whereby I'll be going out or in hall. When I gave these dates to Wanyin, her 1st reaction was "oei!!" haha, hasnt meet this girl for ages, "why block out so many dates for a fren!" was her next reply. So sorry girl! >.< they are all one step faster than you, and I have commitments. Promise to meet up some day alright?

Yesterday had some problems with my nds files. And my internet explorer was giving me problems! D: But thanks to Justin, the tech geek, who managed to solve my problem! hahah, thanks for sending me winRAR and even scanning it for virus before sending. And now i got new games to play on my NDS lite~ My best travelling companion.

Me: " Ma, why u wearing this shirt? I just wash not long ago leh..."

Sister stared at me, while mum trying to find words to reply. Just then it hit me, those were the words mum used to tell me. No wonder my sis looked so stunned. Oh no, Im becoming a housewife! :x





Pain. My wisdom tooth is causing so much pain! D: Ouch.

Been thinking if I have any intelligence, I guess this is a sign for me that I really do have wisdom! hahaha. Self denial again. I think exams make people think and act weirdly, seriously. I think I'm not myself too. My many years in school since the age 4 and taking exams since age 7 have not taught me anything about studying. Whatever happen to the days whereby studying is the key to snugging that A. Now, even if I do finish studying my course syllabus, I may end up not knowing how to do my paper in the exam hall. And the reason is not because I blank out, but the qns seem so foreign, not like anything I have done before. The worst thing? After the exams you can hear some people exclaiming "What an easy paper! woohoo.." while you are still sulking, not knowing how will you fare! D: My papers had long ended, and yet they are still haunting me...

Been trying to play hard, so as not to think about the papers.! Caught 3 movies and a trip to the beach.

I had never study so hard in my life before. I know some people will wanna kill me, but I didn't study that hard for both my O/A levels. Hence, shouldn't I be happy at least I acheive something? No matter what grade I get, I should be happy right?

You have that special ability to make me smile all the time.

You can't make me stay angry with you for more than 1 min.

You irritate me, but when you ain't, I will start missing it.

I love the way you crinkle your nose when you sleep.

I love the way you nudges me, asking for attention.

I love you Jack, thanks for being by my side on this sad and gloomy day!:D

ps: Jack is my family dog.

When a simple hi evolve to a short convo.

When a short convo evolve into a longer convo.

When the convo begin to be peppered with constant banter, jokes and even serious topics.

When one start to show concern

When you feel comfortable talking to that person

Is this the start of a beautiful friendship? Or is this just my own wistful thinking.?

Ended, I fought my last battle... The war left me tattered and torn- emotionally.

Heart felt numbed.
Got the feeling of no feeling.
Weird isnt it?
Ain't i supposed to be glad its all over?
I know I did my best, wouldn't/can't have done anything better.

Leave it till 30dec to decide my fate.

Woke up and felt so unwell this morning. Now still feeling abit disorientated.

All these all seems so surreal, my heart been pounding so hard for the past hour. No idea why, and I can't seems to concentrate. A sign of the impending doom that is making me feeling like this now?

Somehow I lost my fighting spirit. I resign to fate, to be slaughtered. I mean the more I think about it, the harder it is to want to score for the rest of my modules. Marketing is such a mind boggling subject, though I enjoy learning it- really and applying it, but there is always a big fat question mark looming in the horizon, you will never know if what you wrote is what they want, the analysis you give is going to give you that A or that B. As for math for economist, I'm so sad that I can't conveniently skip steps using G.C. D: Because my tutor has no idea what a G.C. is. D: Just have to rely on the traditional method and pray hard I got my concepts right. The past year qns are all so tough! Haix. As for accounting, I'm trying my best not to have an anxiety attack. My most feared subject thus far. I'm praying hard that I got my foundation nailed and that they will give method marks,etc. There is consultation today actually, but I'm not going, because I don't want to give myself more pressure and stress. Whatever will be will be, just hope that my brain do not give up on me. And most importantly, I don't give up on myself.

Just 3 more days to freedom. Gloomy days will soon be over, say hello to better sleep, better skin, happier me.

Woah, had a bill shock from starhub yesterday night- $90.99! Woah, never had I cross the $90 dollar mark before. Called them up and demanded to know why I am charged for the F.O.C data - msn and fb in particular. Operator was BAGUS! haha, waived everything for me, check out what went wrong, etc. :D Thanks Desmond from billing. Fengyi told me had to scold them, etc then can waive off, I was preparing to scold, sound fierce etc, but I guess my normal voice (which sound like Im crying) was enough. HAHA :x

Travelled back to ntu today. Wanted to come back earlier, but mama wanted to htht with me, so i sat there listening to her rant about the household, etc. Wont be going back this weekend. Kindof sad, but I know that right now I need to get the rest nailed. My seemingly lack of intelligence forced me to work extra hard to make the grade. To stay afloat rather, since the A seems so elusive now. So near yet so far, just when you thought it is within your grasp, poof, its gone. It just slipped off your fingertips like this... But nonetheless, I will still try to chase and grab it back. Hopefully.

Just a few more days, and I will be back in my lovely mouse nest at home... Had the best sleep in ages last night. Though mama still said I looked to be in a bad shape. Chicken essence here I come.

Oh my, I so wanna kick myself for forgetting that simple eqn and how to do it. I'm sure everyone knows how to do it except for me. Grrrr. Okok, nt going to let it affect me, but.. Grrr. Hating myself. Kick myself in the face.

" Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ' maybe we should be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."
-Neil Gaiman

I'm in such a state of confusion that it scares me.

Woke up earlier today to have jogging session with Jingyi. Wasn't a very long jog, just a short one around the hall area. Had a long chat with her after that during cool down session.

Looking forward to some things this weekend
1. Some REAL sleep and rest.
2. Complete assignment 3 and get some people who do not understand econs to proof-read. :D
3. Watch Taohua xiamei.
4. Try linking marketing concepts together.
5. Read notes.
6. Grow more crops for country story! WAHAHAHAH, according to ongjunmin, she letting me play the country story music in room is the ultimate roomie love act already! HAHA. Plus my constant "Should I get a duck or chicken?" :x
7. Sort out my thoughts, n throw out those stupid thoughts.
8. Forgive and forget
9.Read Newspaper
10. Catch up with family.

I really shouldn't be blogging.
Having a test coming up in less than 12 hours worth 10%.
Having a presentation in less than 14 hours worth 15%, which the last I check, still have many lose ends to tie up, plus my presentation timing is 3.30mins! well off the timing and has yet to do conclusion. I need to cut it, seriously...D:
Finished my tutorial for HE101, doing paper for MB103 now. So many things to do.
Still wanna revise for the test in less than 12 hours. D:

Too lil time, too many things.
But why do I still have so many other things on my mind! D:

我真的真的不愿意就这样陷入爱的陷阱

left out on Nov 3 1.16am

Time passes fast when you are having fun, but time passes even faster when you are studying.

Taking a break now to blog alil. Brain abit dead, but at least I'm studying interesting chapts. :D way to go, staying optimistic as usual.

Looking forward to next tues. Shroomy's visit to Hall 14. :D

Arh, I'm still undecided, S/u or not. D:

I am trying to finish my tutorial on time.
I am trying to understand my concepts better.
I am trying to forget all things and concentrate on whats important.
But I find myself lost.
What is important?

Sometimes, doing your best just isn't good enough.

It gets so tiring that whatever you do ain't appreciated, your inputs got taken away and your efforts go to waste.

Why no matter how much you try, some people can just take your work and rip it apart, leaving you in bits n pieces, and walk away...

Words can be so hurting. Intentionally or not.

Words ain't supposed to hurt, they are meant to say "I Love You".

I may laugh it off, give you a smile, but deep down I'm hurting. I'm sorry, I did my best, and if it ain't good enough, go ahead and rip it apart. Because by then, I'll be numbed from the pain.

The cruelty of life, the harshness of it all. Perhaps its time I realise I no longer live in a sugar coated world.

Met up with Min Yu and Anna today at white sands to celebrate Min Yu's bday! :D Wanyin unable to make it, poor girl, she fell ill, wonder is it due to the mounting pressure from the impending As. Jiayou Girl!(:

We ate at Manhattan Fish Market!(: Shared the seafood platter for 2 and ordered the new drink mango popping. The drink tastes like a certain kind of sweet. From Min Yu's happening life, to Anna's Uni life, the convo just kept going. It had been so long since we 3 meet up together! And the feeling is still that great!(:

Gave Min Yu the pressie that Roomie and I picked for her. Was so glad she likes it, the excitement all over her face when she saw it, it was classic! Haha, am so happy that I gave her a surprise!(since she hinted she wanted a surprise on fb! ahhaha) :D

So, happy birthday girl! Enjoy and day and may you grow prettier and prettier as the day passes, but please stop growing taller, if not your short friend her will have neck sore the next time she want to chitchat with you face to face!(: Love you always my beloved partner in cls- ONG MIN YU! Muaxh!

You wouldn't know but that little gesture you did had melted the little heart of mine.

Falling for you- Colbie Caillat

I don't know, but I think I may be fallin' for you, dropping so quickly.
Maybe I should keep this to myself, wait until I know you better.
I am trying not to tell you, but I want to.
I'm scared of what you'll say, so I'm hiding what I'm feelin', but I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.

As I'm standing here and you hold my hand, pull me towards you, and we start to dance.
All around us, I see nobody.
Hearin' silence, it's just you and me.
I'm trying not to tell you, but I want to.
I'm scared of what you'll say, so I'm hiding what I'm feelin', but I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.

Oh, I just can't take it.
My heart is racin'.
Your motions keep spinnin' out.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I can't stop thinkin' bout it, I want you all around me, and now I just can't hide it.
I can't stop thinkin' bout it, I want you all around me, and now I just can't hide it.
I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin' for you.
Oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh, I'm fallin' for yah.

Feeling like a zombie today, sleep late and set my alarm wrongly this morning! D: I set as PM! LOLz, lucky the typing sound from my roomie woke me up, if not I sure late for class alrdy! hahaha.

So many things, so little time, was so happy today, cos I ate Mr Bean's soya icecream! -Life Simple Pleasure! :D
SoyaBean is love! :D I wanna be Mrs Bean then I can have lots of Mr Bean products! HAHA. :D I sound so crazily in love with it! :D But I really like all their products!

"Msn" convo during marketing, complete with "whoever is added to the convo" and "nudges" LOLZ.

Feeling much better today, well, have to keep looking forward, stop looking back, because life is too short for regrets, let the past remain in the past, let what is going to happen in the future remain a mystery, just seize today because its a present! :D Alright!

GOGO WINI!:D

You will never know I'm here
Standing right beside you.
Hoping that you will turn around,
to see me smiling because of you.
All this you will never know,
because to you, I'm just another girl.
Another friend you can talk to, laugh with
But you never know that here I am,
standing there,
looking over at you,
wishing you good,
and not wanting anything,
but to just see your smile.
:D BUT TO YOU- IM JUST A STALE CURRY PUFF! SOBZ. hahahahahhahaha

Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb

Had my 2 quizzes today, and it confirmed that IM DUMB. Seriously, after spending so much time on accounting and maths, Im still so lost on the subject. I spent my whole recess week with them, spent my breaks with them, spent most of my waking hour with them for the past 2weeks or so, and yet.. D:

I'm feeling so lousy. Yes, academic grades are very very important to me. I don't care if I will be a stale curry puff or not, what I care most is my grades! Because they are the ones who will lead me to a successful career start or not. D: This is so frustrating. Their refusal to befriend me is driving me nuts.! D: HMPF, I need a night walk. Gosh..

Dear roomie just left hall for home. Going to be alone tonight. Gu jun zhuo zan.

I know im supposed to be reading tt HUGE accounting textbook, because my lecture notes teaches nothing at all. D: But I just wanna take that teeny weeny break. D: Its such a sad thought that not everyone are having pop quizzes after recess week. At least they can have some real break and not bust their whole recess week spending quality time with those huge textbooks.

Plus, I'm having my 2 quizzes on the same day, and for my final exams, the two subjects are held on the same day too. Congrats to me, seriously, didn't know that the 2 of them will be that tough. Grr..

Having Darts training on Mon, but Im not going. Going to con't studying for the quizzes on Tues.

I will be so happy once they are over- at least for awhile.

Because, by then I will have to return back to my cycle of mugging, final exams are looming. Oh gosh. Whoever said JC 'A' Levels was the toughest times? I can tell you stop living in self denial, seriously.

Alright, back to books.

I wanna be a chao mugger.

I begin to wonder...

Life,
is'nt it too short for sorrow?
isn't it more worthwhile to live the way you want it?
isn't it better for the world if we stop fighting, for everything?

Dreams
Why dream when you know you can't reach?
Why let it affect you so much that you can't move forward?

Love
is'nt it supposed to be sugary sweet?
then why are people around me agonising over it?
crying over it?
a mental need for affection and belonging?
what good does it do if it ain't reciprocated?
wouldn't you fall into an endless pit of sorrow?

I longed for a miracle in this gloomy day, let me see there is still beauty and hope in this world we live in. Bless those people who are struggling against nature- natural disasters. Bless those innocent children, before their minds get polluted in this dangerous world.

Bless me to remain sane.

A fleeting moment, a moment of instantenous connection, but poof, its gone, gone with the wind and never back...

I know not what I want.
I just follow what you want.
All this time.
When you are gone,
who is to fill this void you leave behind?
I wonder.

Going to celebrate Ms LIMFENGYI DATOU MUOGU HELMET.......BIRTHDAY later! hahaha. I miss that siao girl many many!!! Even though we met on sunday during Qianying's send off, but I still miss that girl! hahaha, seriously need to talk to her! (:

Been having lesser n lesser sleep in hall, n pimples are all popping out! D: sobz. My eye got infected and my eyelid swell. Had to put this eye drop every hour and eye ointment every night. The eye oilment will make me a one eye monster because it will stick the upper and lower lids together! D: But now the swelling is down! yippee, doc said is its not, I may have to go for surgery! Luckily it went down! yippe~

My ankle's swelling went down too! Now can walk relatively faster! Healing well, though it still hurts once in a while, its much much better! Yippe~

On a random note, I been thinking of expanding the infatuation essay I wrote the other time, expanding it to complete the story because I left the ending hanging, but somehow, it feels like if I put an end to it, then.. its an ending! But love aint supposed to have an ending isnt it? hmmm..

Cant believe I tumble and fall in ntu again! I was on my way to study in the lounge with dear Jingyi and I fell down the stairs. Double sprained because i tried getting up after 1st sprain but tumble again. Was so helpless on the ground. Jingyi was by my side, thanks girl! Without you, I wont know what to do. Lydia was on 3rd floor and she shouted down thinking I was her roomie. I shouted back telling her I sprained my ankle, dear girl ran down to find me on the floor. Justin came out of his room-2nd floor after hearing commotion, holding an ankle guard. Next moment, weiren appeared! hahah. Lydia ran up to get my roomie. Ong junmin super stunned to see me on the floor. Fiaz appeared out of no where, got me a cool can of coke zero while he n lydia went round to find ice for me. Still on the ground, Justin "icing" my leg, while colouring my toe nails with highlighter! >.< Roomie called Mr Welfare- Say Chong who asked me to immobilise my leg by spraying salonpas. HAHA, then justin carried me up to my room- not after much protest. Weiren even suggested bridal carry style! OMG, of cos not! Wanted to pass Lydia my card while Justin was piggy-backing me, ended up struggling him, he took revenge by throwing me on the bed. Thanks arh.. Highly eventful night- one I will not forget for a long time.




Next day, ankle was superb pain. Took super long walk to school! Great Og mates kept sms-ing to check on my condition. (: At the end of the day, ankle CMI. Bruise was damn big and black. Jessica called Kc to drive me out of school to see doc since it was 6.00 by the time I ended lesson. Went to see a sinseh and busted $50.10! D: Sobs.. so much for an ankle. Sinseh commented how i fell, cos it was damn serious. Had like 3 huge bruises.. Told her I fell down the stairs and she looked stunned before pressing acupoints on my ankle asking pain anot. She seems to enjoy it. D:





Learnt my lesson in a painful and expensive way. Fred. Please watch where you are going. Seriously...

Late night tutorial chiong-ing for accounting. My head still swirling with liabilities, revenue, assets, etc.

Tried my hands on my rally.

1st attempt too short.

2nd attempt got disrupted by roomie.

D: tmr having door to door. Pooh bear shall be my buddy!(:

So many things going through my mind. "To be or not to be?" Im just very confused and lost in this world, this new world i'm thrown into. So foreign. Yet one thing is for sure, I will do my best to survive, to remain true to myself and not lost myself in this mess.

Press on Wini! Let your smile guide you through all difficulties!(:

Stop being so kind to me, Im afraid I will....

Sprained my ankle again! 1807, please dont scold me ok? I don't wish to sprain it too! I was just crossing the road and a lorry came charging towards me, I ran, and I sprained. -.-" Sounds so noob. But its not as bad as the one the one I gotten in JC and had to call JiaYi to come and rescue me at some ulu part of TJ. Had on bandages on Mon-Tues and gotten an ankle guard from Jonathan on Wednesday night! hahah. Felt so bad for manfaning so many people to find that ONE first aid kit box! >.< And thanks roomie for looking after your super clumsy roomie!

Must thank all those many many people who help to find tt first aid kit box, though I dont know who, but roomie said alot of people help to find, so I must thank all!(:

Must thank Yixia, the delphi senior who commented on my many many pokka liang teh and Jia En for coming to bandage my ankle on Mon and Tues night at such late hour! So sorry! MANY MANY THANKS!(: ps: though its abit ugly!:x haha, thanks lots! Greatly appreciated!

Must thank everyone for their concern about my health and my ankle! And the constant nagging for me to sleep early! haha.

Special thanks to JINGYI, ZHILIN and JESSICA for staying by my side and assisting me in all ways! Like helping me to carry my dinner, taking tt slow stroll for me!(: Love you Guys to the MAX!

AND of cos my roomie! You are superb BAGUS! Let me rest, wake me up to eat dinner(she even tabao for me), ran down to help me get bandage and panadol! Muaxh! You are the BEST!(: and taking that superb slow walk from north spine back to hall with me! LOVE YOU!(:

Amelene! For walking slowly to lectures with me and always telling me where to watch out, insisted we take the lift instead of climbing the stairs yeah! love u lots!

Im so blessed by the people around me! Being away from home, but having such great friends and seniors around! Though I missed my family lots! Mama kept calling to check on her sick baby! I'll take care of myself! Sick Pig will get well soon!(:

Have you ever live a life of disguise,
one filled with lies

Ever live a life behind a mask,
that you so wish to unmask

Just so you won't show your vulnerability
until you have shown your abilities?

Just had a sudden thought about this. I guess late nights have this effect on u. Gosh Wini, snap out of your daydreams and back to reality!

A highly eventful day today. Gosh, its over, and I chionging my economics homework now. Thank god I still recall my JC lectures. Thanks LILI FONG AND WONG YINGYING! They are the best econs lecturers! Its an impossible task to sleep during their lectures, especially the latter one! I miss their teachings. And of cos I MISS MS AILEEN WONG! The best econs tutor!

Woke up and decided to wash my laundry today! Haha. It was highly entertaining to text Amelene about the progress of my clothes in that machine! I told her I'm waiting for the "giant to vomit my clothes out" and i need to "check out the giant" and she was like " You want to check out a giant?!" ahhahaha. Met up with her after for HE103. No lecture notes, so we were acting very studious by copying what was shown, but we were doing that to stay awake! HAHA, we even wore specs to look more nerdy and mugger-ish!

Afternoon: Amelene lost her EZlink card! ARGH. She was so upset! Hope that it wasn't taken by some psychotic admirer! Poor girl! D: Went looking for her Ezlink card and forgo lunch date with Jessica, Zhilin and Jinyi. But they were so sweet la, gotten lunch for me! Hearts them!

After that went CCA fair with Jessica and Jingyi. Jessica left earlier for lecture so went to find some seats with Jingyi to chitchat before my tutorial starts.

Went for 1st MB101 lesson. Everyone there are so hardcore! Gotten their textbooks and seems very very prepared! Sobs. But the people sitting at my table are very very nice! We formed a team together. :D I was the only freshie in that group! And having presentation next week on tutorial qns! Abit scary! I hope people dont bombard me with qns. I still so raw in this! D: After that went for team mates to photocopy pages from the textbook as we need the qns to prep for tutorial!(: Nice people!

Hungry piggie now, but still no reply from Jessica! >.< I think I shall just go n makan with zhilin! :x hahahaha

ROOMIE'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!(:
Having night picnic later! So exciting! Get to meet the 1807 girls again! (: Can't wait!

Staying in hall is fun. Plus NTU is such a huge plc that holds alot of mystery, a place I wanna go around to discover, to explore! (:

More hall life updates coming!

My 1st day of school in my hostel in hall 14. Feel so weird, because somehow I feel at ease here, and like I seems to know NTU pretty well too! ahhaha. :x

Add/Drop n planning for timetable is getting on my nerve! The number of vacancies just keep changing every min! I thought everyone adding at the same time? D: why why! D: sad sad

It was obvious that she was unhappy, but with what I'm not sure. I asked her what she going to do, since it looks like her future is uncertain. I recalled months ago of me asking her to work hard, but she dismissed my advice. And now fast forward a few months, shes regreting it. When results were out, she said she was unhappy with it, but given that she didnt really put in that much effort, I think there is nothing much we can do. She wasn't afraid of her own future at that time thinking she can definitely get into the school of her choice, while I caution her, and ask her to think of back up plans. Even now, when the situation looks bad, she is still unaffected.

At times, she seems to think its unfair and all. But who is to be blamed? At times she hinted that I'm so lucky, that I always seem to get what I want and stuff, but all these are only possible because of hard work. And personally attacks are simply childish. I tried to tolerate, to be sensitive, to help, but I'm tired. I really am, so from now on, I'm not going to care anymore.

Its your own choice. You chose your own path. No one is to be blamed.

I have stopped working already! And before I left the company, I went on a photo-taking spree! hahah, and as promised, I did not put up any unglam pics!:D
But the pics were so long over due! so sorry dearies!


The order of the pictures are from the last day, 2nd last day and 3rd last day. I'm too lazy to change them!:X


The lst picture is with my mentor Ms Hamidah! I was under her throughout my stay in office. I learnt alot from her and I got most of my workload from her too!:X

This picture has Cera, Miss Ratna (the one who offer me the job), Charmaine (Cera's sister) and Cheryl Han


My favourite song currently.

Plain White T's - 1,2,3,4
give me more lovin then I've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when I know i'm not.
make me feel good when I hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad, I'm so glad I found you.
I love bein around you.

you make it easy, as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only 1 thing 2 do three words fuor you.
I love you.(I love you)
theres only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what i'll do.
I love you.(I love you)

give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when I fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when I hurt so bad.
best that I've had.
I'm so glad that I found you.
I love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you.
I love you.(I love you) theres only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what i'll do.
I love you.
I love you(I love you) you make it easy, it's easy as 12,1234
theres only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you I love you (I love you)
theres only 1 way 2 say those 3 words thats wwhat I'll do I love you (I love you)
I love you I love you.
one two three four I love you. (I love you)I love you(I love you) Over...

Now I m confused. Which uni? NUS hasnt been very helpful in answering my qns, and they are not organising any open house or tea session!D: This whole uni thing is so confusing!D: BOO!

On the other hand. NTU had a tea session, and they had been pretty helpful and patient in answering my so many many qns. I think I'm a True Blue Singaporean, Kiasu, Kiasee. HELP!

Went out with dearest wanyin for X-men Origins: Wolverine! Woohoo, Huge Jackman looks incredibly hot in the movie!:D:D And the movie was great! Love it to bits. There was this superb inconsiderate guy who was sitting behind me. His phone rang during the movie and he refused to attend to it until i STARED at him. Good thing Ms loo was holding to the popcorns, because I think I will flung the popcorns into his face. He made me miss some parts of the movie! Urgh! Of course, after i glared at him, he immediately reached for his phone and ended the annoying ringing. And he left superb fast when the credits were rolling out. I sat throughout the credits and caught the last part of Hugh Jackman! :D:D Still looking so hot!Hahah.

Went online to check my acceptance and saw that NTU has responded to me. Disappointment. But now it makes it even clearer where i should go. I really must thank those who have been ever so patient to me, listening to me grumble, fret, etc, to mention some Ms Seow Jiayi whom I talk on Msn everyday bout UNI. ahahha. Cera and Cheryl whom I complained to everyday at work! Miss Loo Wanyin and Miss Ong Minyu-my besties in Secondary school! Hopefully we will all end up in the same fac in uni. :D Ms Lim Fengyi and Ong Junmin for all the smses. Ms Tricia Goh for the msn convo straight after my prev blogpost on Future was up. and many many many others. And of cos my supportive family! :D

I got my guidance and will be strong and press forward. Yeah!



I have been thinking about many many things these days, all linking to a single world- FUTURE. We have come to a stage in life whereby we must make a decision that will determine our career path and shape who we will be in the future. Yes, we have submitted our choices to the respective schools and are now waiting for their replies, and yet till this point, I still fear that the choices I make will be something I will regret.

At times, I wonder how can some people be so decisive and know exactly what they want in life.? Are people choosing the courses because they are passionate about it? Because they did well enough to get in the prestigious course? Or just apply them as back up in case they can't get their dream courses? In which I guess in some cases, and in this realistic world, many people are choosing jobs which are stable and pays well despite a recession. But how will they know they are making the right decision? What if it falls short of expectation?

I'm scared, really scared, please show me some guidance, tell me that everything will be alright. That I will be fine, that there is nothing to fear. Please...

Argh! the cdc website is so !!! I can even book my june lessons! :( Its so expensive each lesson. Slowly sucking away my pay. Bohoho!

Still stuck at the same company working, however now im less miserable because i made friends with the other temps! haha. Hello Cera! Hello Cheryl! Hello Ferlicia! But my senior left us! bohoho, she always try to protect me from *******! haha, so sweet right! But she left for a better place, wishing her all the best!

Had my 6th driving lesson, beginning to have just that little bit of confidence in me when i'm driving. But had a scare when i upped gear to 4th when it is supposed to be 2nd gear only! hahahha, but my instructor seems to have more confidence in me compared to the past few times, and I agree with him about me being rigid, because I'm so afraid, so I tend to be too safe and keep sticking to theory, but on the road, you have to play by ear and act accordingly to the road situation. Learnt alot for these few lessons. He even let me drive back to school (since we are out on the road as i had my pdl!)

The cdc website is still having probs! =.=" Please work! I need to book the lessons!!!:( It like so horrible the web and the students there are uber kaisu, the other time i miss the start date to book for the next 1.5 mths lessons, I have to wait for half a mth later to have my next lesson!:( so sad! sobs... Hope they work on the system,because I think its kindof screwed up. Gogo1 my patience are waning. Boo.

I keep visiting the mail box for the letter, why!! Why is it not here yet!! Sobx. Please come quickly! I waiting for you...!

Been through an emotion rollercoaster ride this week. :( Had the first taste of what the real world is. My supervisor counselled me on it, but still I'm still have the guilt within me. And I'm really so not used to going to work/lunch/knock off ALONE.

Getting praises should give you satisfaction isnt it? But somehow, they just make me feel worst. Just want to bury myself in my work work work.

Nose is acting up again. Itchy, nosebleed, white discharge, etc etc. Why do I have such a sensitive nose plus such thin membrane? :(

Been a lousy week. Hope the coming week will be much better.

My life become more routine-like ever since I started working as a temp. My job is kindof repetitive, which leaves me no challenges to tackle. To some, it the best kind of job, its so no brainer, and so easy to earn money, plus the pay is pretty decent. But to me, its not. I can't find pleasure in the work, making going to work a chore. Not only that, working make me realized how sheltered I had been. Never had i had so many scoldings, etc in a day. And I meet all sorts of people, the type of people you hope you never meet, seriously. I can't believe people can be that selfish, all they are thinking of is how to do things to benefit oneself, or to put their rivals in the bad light! >.<

And another thing I can't stand is that after working for more than a month, those people who I've been working closely with do not know how to pronouce my name, or worst still do not even know my name! I think knowing the names of the people you work with is basic courtesy! Its plain rude to keep calling the temps collectively like "the temp girls". I do not think temp should be subjected to such behaviour. Moreover, if you can't pronounce my name, you can just call me Wini. I said that many times, n yet I have people miss pronouncing my fullname but still insist on using my fullname. Grr.

Ok, enough of ranting. I will be outta there as soon as I can. I can't stand it anymore!

Caught madagascar2, city of ember, bolt and twilight to satisfy my craving for movies after a movie drought for a few months? =D And from my choice of movie, I realized they are either cartoon (childish) or fantasty (unrealistic). But one thing for sure, I learnt alot from the two fantasy movies.

In both City of ember and Twilight, the guys are always the one who care alot about the girl's safety(plus point).However, they tend to neglect their family members. Its like they are totally obessed with the girl, very protective whatsoever about them, that they tend to forget their family members, and the family members are there to help the guy to protect the girl, etc.. Hmm.. Does these scenes truly protray the attitude of guys towards relationship and family?
On the other hand, the girls are the one who are constantly watching out for their family. Even if they themselves are in danger, they would risk everything to save their own family members, a point which the guys don't get it in the movie. The guys would reply "we'll get them later, lets get out of here first." Selfish? or just over protective of the girls? You decide.

Another issue that is puzzling me is the fact that people can pay to watch Twilight again and again. Hmm.. Yeah, i agree that it is quite a nice movie, with a cute teen couple and an interesting plot, but is it really worth to catch it so many time?In my opinion, no matter how great a movie is, I will just catch it once, because by watching it all over again, there will be no anticipation and excitment you felt the first time you watched it. You know what is going to happen, when the cute guy is coming out, and stuff like this. It will take away the joy of watching a movie. Maybe the obsession of these teenage girls with the Edward cullen is something i will never understand. Yes, he is quite cute with those intense eyes, but.. I just don't get it. Somebody please enlighten me.

As I was packing up my table yesterday, I stumbled upon my many many lovely diaries which contained my memories. When I was reading through the entries, I realized that in my 2 years in Jc, perhaps it is due to the stress, the lack of time management or maybe even commitment, my 2 years in Jc were never properly recorded down. It just seems like a lost chapter from my diary. It was recorded every now and then, but never in full, just bits and pieces.

However, I realized that it is also within these 2 years that i managed to write out decent poems. My exploration with poetry started when I realized that I need an outlet to express my thoughts and feelings. Mere writings and narration were not enough for me. However, now is still not the time no share yet, no, for I'm still not ready to share. Call me selfish, but the poems depicts my innermost thoughts and feelings, which I'm not willing to share..yet. So when the time comes, perhaps just perhaps, you may get a glimpse of my works.

My two years in JC concluded last night with a glamorous prom at Marina Mandarin. In my opinion, the prom was kind of draggy, the food not very pleasant But at least the photo-taking and people watching made the event much more worth it. And of course, the company i'm with! =D The makeup was kindof horrible because my eye makeup keep smudging. When im back home, after washing off the loads of powder/makeup off my face, I saw red spots-another allergy=(

it had been so long since i written a decent post! haha. Been pretty busy with A levels and after A levels activities. Having not blog for so long, i find it kindof hard to start writing again. Theres so many things to write about, but somehow, i find it difficult to put to words my feelings and thoughts.

i think until i consolidate my feelings and thoughts, will i be blogging again.

Hot tears
heart ache
its over
i'm dead

the above just summerized my feelings for prelims. Yes, i did alot of stupid things, especially for chem and the most heartache thing is when i realize my gazillion mistakes n was about to change just ONE OF THEM, time's up. argh, my brain frozed in the hall, n i always take so long to recover! blah! but its over, next week is D-Day.

Enough of all that, its my fault, i wasnt well prepared. =(

OH, my family has new additions in the family. No its not a baby, its ALOT of babies! hamsters i mean. My sister brought home her hamsters from her office. And the couple had 6 babies! they looked like gummy bears. But sadly, one didn't survive past the 2nd day. So left 5 more babies.The day after the death of the 6th, we checked the cage very often to make sure the rest were doing fine. We were very shocked to see the mum disposed off a weak baby who was still breathing in the toilet(small green container!) The mum didnt like that baby.=( We rescued the baby and placed it back in the litter. Afterwhich that baby grew to be the smallest of the lot. I observed the little fellow's progress everyday, its growing up fine, but its only half the size of it's FAT BROTHERS who ALWAYS bully little fellow! hmpf! and the mum is biased, always refused to nurse it. It pains me, so i gave them extra food, hoping little fellow will eat more(since they are starting to eat solid food) Hope little fellow will grow up to be fatter and stronger and not be pushed around., JIAYOU! another baby hammie was very cute too, always whining, and another always sticking with the father!
So, now my house has 2 doggies, 2 guinea pigs, a family of 7 hamsters, 3 terrapins and many many fishes! hahaha. So, its like a mini pet shop. =X hohoho, they brought so much joy to the family! =D
And during the study break, i caught the movie Wall.E. It is a really really nice movie.I love Wall.E eyes and Wall.E is really sweet and lovable! =D Wall.E is not shy to express his love to Eve, and it always there for her. In the movie, it really reflect the greed and laziness of people and amplified Wall.E innocence and sincerity in making friends. It also sent out a messenge about the need to conserve earth. A great movie for the whole family. I love the part whereby the two robots were still on earth, Wall.E attempts to woo Eve, and staying by her side all the time. AWW, so sweet! =D i don't mind watching it again. But for peoplewho love action pack or thriller movie, i think this movie isnt for you. You will end up like one of those people snoozing in the corner.
Then, there was mooncake festival! We had SO MUCH mooncakes to eat, there are still some left. We had icecream mooncakes from swensen's, goodwood park uberdelicious snowskin assorted mooncakes(there was any after we bought at the outlet! hahaha), teochew traditional yam mooncake, small snowskin durian mooncakes from 717 (given) and 4egg traditional baked mooncakes (given). So i was like a glutton during this period, cannot waste mah. hahahah! =X i still wanted green tea mooncake but... i definitely can't finish. so oh well.. next year!=D

Hm. For now, i want to just take a short break to re-charged. Of cause, next week will be a very tiring week, because i will be bawling outloud. Tissue paper anyone?

i am so not going to study out ever again!

I went back to schfor GP consultation with Mr Tan. He told us to meet him at 7.25 but a last min meeting pushed everything to 8.20. We got there late, at 8.30 though. After that, nolinkFish n Junmin asked me to join them to study at Marine Parade library. Everyone knows i DONT study outside school, BUT i decided to give it a try today, because, 1. they say its very condusive there and 2. i want a change of environment. And it turned out to be a bad decision.! =(

IT was SO noisy there, so not condusive! There was this group of guys that keep talking and talking n talking! so distracting, and there are quite a few inconsiderate people who didnt switch their phones on silent mode. ohwell, this isnt the worst. When it was 12.30, Junmin, nolinkFish and Dong was hungry(Randy was hungry onlyafter he switched to one of his 7 stomachs! hahah) so we decided to go and eat. It was pouring, what luck. Then i recalled vaguely that last year, during a pw meeting, it was raining too, but my grp managed to get to MP library without getting wet from PP, so i told them need not bring umbrella, cos it is sheltered all the way. A decision i soon to regret. It ended with 5 people drenched from head to toe at the nearest coffee shop. Then when we were having our lunch, we got harassed by an aunty(shan't elaborate). Before leaving, she even asked me(why me??) over and con't her lecture. I guess my face was the least pissed and most peaceful. Then it was a peaceful day after, except for more disturbing, not considerate people at the library who choose to play catching, date, etc in the library....

Argh! i think all these simply tells me not to go out and study anymore! hahah. So sorry nolinkFish, junmin,dong and randy for getting you guys drenched, wet and cold. =( i was wet and cold too and i took off my shoes in the public library!(the librarian didnt say anything)ahhahah.=D oh well, hibernate at home and study till next thurs for my next consultation in school at 7.15AM!

Last friday i went to watch the Dark Knight with my sis at cathy cineleisure at 11.20pm? hahah. It was really nice and i really like Christian Bale the actor who was acting Bruce Wayne(batman). All along, i thought Batman was like really noob, only have strenght and not much power, but know i know why he is a superhero.=D go watch if u haven't! Before the movie, me and sis went to this shop with the UFO catcher machines to try our luck there. It was really exciting, we almost got the eeyore, but alas, luck wasnt really on our side. =( but overall, had a great day. Reached home at 3 am and got scolded by Jack(the old but adorable jack russell!!!)

Olympics is really exciting! Ever since it started, i got kindof "addicted" to it and must have a daily dosage! but this week is quite horrible, so i didnt really have the luxury to watch, but just catch the daily highlights or snippets. Had a bio re on tues, another bio re on weds and today a horrible econs test on role of government. IT WAS WORTH 25 marks. =( boo, didnt know if i wrote the right things down, doesnt seems to be too confident, i was just rushing rushing, without much thinking. BLAH! this is bad, real bad, n prelims are like.. oh so CLOSE!

Somedays the weather is fine with fluffy cottony clouds , somedays the weather isnt fine, dark clouds loom around, but remember, within the clouds there will always be a silver lining, so dont despair and JIAYOU! smiles everyone! =D

Somedays, i just want to hibernate in my warm blanket, sleep all my worries away and never ever look back at the past...

Have you ever met one person that can make you smile from within?

The rain was so huge just down. Washalf drenched but its ok. My handy waterproof windbreaker was there to save the day! haha. Lent Wangboon my umbrella since I won't need it for the rest of my journey home. Rainy days make people sad, make people reflect, but a certain someone can brighten up the gloom rain brings with it. =)

I wonder...
new past