Just like Cinderella, when the clock stuck 12, all the fairytale's gone...

I wondered how exactly did Cinderella felt. Would she wish she never meet the prince before so she would never long for him? Or would she resign to fate simply because of her social status? Or believe that she and her prince belonged to two different worlds and thus she did not deserve him?

To be or not to be.

Sometimes I wonder if my memories are crafted in a way to deceive me. I choose to believe what I want to believe. Pictures capture happy moments, sadness is only embedded deep in memory. Maybe that is why our memories are kept personal because they make us vulnerable. If two people were to experience the same event, will their memories telly?

I wonder, I wonder... You disappeared when the clock strike 12...

你会因为错过遗憾而伤心吗？还是为了不要知道事实伤心而抱着遗憾呢？

因为害怕我会选择不知道事实。只有这样我才能傻傻的想信我所要的。在自己的保护膜里，不让心受到任何的伤害。

曾听说过人会因保护自己而把最美丽的一面给大家看。脆弱的心灵是不会给他人看到的。只有在信任下才会把保护膜拿下。

你会为了我而把你的面具拿下吗？

Its getting too much. I seriously see no point in you still behaving this way, seriously... If you choose to believe it then so be it. Why is it that every time you do something wrong, we have to be the one to clear the mess? Why do you always have the ability to conveniently shift the guilt of it all to people around you? Why can't you just be a man and accept everything? Don't tell me you don't see it coming... Bragging and all is what you do best right? What about those promises you make? When you can't fulfill them, you go around hiding, then when you are cornered, you start to blame everyone and point fingers at everyone. Hello, please see that the root of it all is you, not anyone else. I'm sick and tired of seeing this situation all the time... Let go of the stupid pride and ego, and admit it all. 


For that I will respect you.


If you have no idea what I'm talking about, you are not the intended audience. 

Two parallel lines will never meet...

She and him are like two parallel lines, belonging to different worlds, never meant to be.

But somehow, their lines managed to intersect, converge by the hands of fate. His appearance causes her world to become topsy turvy. From upright detest at the beginning, his demeanor rubbed her off in the wrong way. He was loud, always in the spotlight, the one people always notices, while she fade into the background, the shadow in which he cast. But somehow...

She doesn't know why, he always seems to be around whenever she needed help. She starts to see beyond his loud facade lies a smaller him. A person with such insecurities has to protray a stronger front to hide his weaknesses. He shared with her some parts of him, she empathizes and finds him less irritating. Thankful for the help he renders, grateful he sees her and willing to be her friend. His little gestures and actions grow on her, and soon, she found herself caring for him subconsciously. What's behind that frown? Doesn't he seems more weary? What happened?

But as much as she wants to reach out to him, she knows she is but someone distant, never in his world, never to be the one to be beside him.

"Just knowing you care is good enough, and I will care from the sideline. Always there for you, even if you can't see me because you are surrounded by so many others, I will still be around you, always..."

Two parallel lines were never meant to be...

Someday,

when u look back,

you will find me,

standing there,

waiting for you...

Always been there,

not daring to move away.

Someday you will know...

Someday...(:

Year 1

A great year filled with unexpected twists, adventures, sweat, tears, new friendships, spastic moments, great memories and many more.

Staying in hall, meeting new people, forging close bonds, being in this close knitted community. As my term in hall comes to an end, I realized just how very attached I'm to this place, to the people and all. Taking everything off my push board, from photos to lovely postcards given to me and the Birthday Board by Draco, my room felt empty as I cleared everything out. The soul of the room, my humble abode was only made warm by the people around me. I will miss all this, there is no replay button, but at least I can take away with me the lovely memories.((: I will miss so many many people, esp Jingyi, Jessica, Zhilin, Seohying, Ziting and Aikkun.

Going to Econs, with only one friend at the beginning of the year. Our friendship grew closer, thanks Amelene for being such a dear.(: Meeting Rachel was one of the best gift I received. Its hard to meet someone who thinks alike, even harder to find such a selfless person, but I found her, Rachel. Thanks dearie, for being such an angel to me.(: Not to forget the other awesome people like Siewghim, Ruzi, KaiChi, Lilian, Shermain, Lydia and Samantha.

Thanks for putting up with my nonsense, blurness, spastic moments, childish antics and "accidents", people, you know who you are.
Friends are keepers, worth the effort to continue reaching out even after parting. To me, you guys are keepers, I call you my friend.

I want you to know that you are special to me. Don't doubt yourself, never, believe in your strengths and abilities. I hate to see you sad. (:

Its not something I can control. I held it back, for the longest time. Tried laughing it off, tried not thinking about it, but gave in.

After the phone call from home, really make me want to go back. Told Jie not to come, told her how screwed my paper was. I held it back, for I know if i burst then, she will fly down, and I didn't want her to see me in this state. Pride? Or me just want to prove I'm independent enough to handle.? Gave in after I heard the final click from the receiver... How the tears flowed... Even though I'm alone I still tried to muffle the sound of it by burying my head into my pillow. A million thoughts ran through my mind. Am I to go through this for the next few years? Why does doing your best not equate to being your best? Why do I always disappoint myself at critical times that matters? Why does preparation fail? Its not fair at all... Nothing is, and never will. After knowing this, I wiped those tears away. There is no time for moment of weakness, every moment counts, every effort counts, even if it doesn't seem to show, I'm sure one day it will. No time to give up, because no one will stop to show you sympathy. Everyone is moving  rushing forward, slowing down is bad enough, I can't afford to stop now.

Thanks Jingyi for accompanying me for dinner and walking with me to buy ice-cream. At least during those moments, my troubles melted away with the ice-cream...

I know I wrote that I won't be blogging anytime soon, but then I need to have an outlet to write, to have something else to do besides reading my beige textbook. Wanted to continue with Jap, but too saturated. Tried to listen to those nice anime sounds from the movie "Spirited away" to get me moving.

Woke up to nice surprises. A postcard from Seohying with encouragement and a sms from the lovely shroomy telling me not to worry. I am a born worrier. I guess that no matter how long time has past since the last failure, the past will still haunt the current me. All I ask for is a C for jap to get the S grade. Please grant me the wisdom to be able to do at least 70% of the paper?

The stress is building, the pimples are bursting, very soon I will be whining. Damn it. Hate this. Quote from some NS personnel. Its time I wake up my idea and get those info into my head, worry is pointless and time wasting. Go Wini, you can do it! Karma, please don't come haunting me at this hour. Lady luck, please come and befriend me. Wisdom be blessed upon me, added with a sprinkle of Confidence, lessen the amount of Jittery, add a dash of Calmness, then allow me to Vomit all my answers onto the Sacred Exam Script.

Saw a quote from my fave chinese author, so decided to come and blog.

几米说: 当你喜欢我的时候，
我不喜欢你,当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你,
当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你,
是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,
我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,
错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过……
但是，请允许我说这样自私的话，
多年后，
你若未娶，
我还未嫁，
那，
我们能不能在一起？？

I am not emo-ing people! I just have more things on my mind and I needed to unload them.

The mind has a maximum capacity, and when you think too much, everything will start spilling out, and the memory you have maybe what is left behind, the little bits and pieces.

I got so many things on hand, I should concentrate now. Last post till 30 April... hopefully.

Should I or should I not?

Roomie told me to follow my heart, go with what it wants me to do, but the rational part of me is holding me back again.

You can have gazillion advice, but at the end of the day, the decision is still yours to make. No one control your life except yourself. The decision you make, the path you choose, you make the call, you call the shots. Fate plays a part in your life, so does opportunities. They are the Chance cards in life, appearing once, sometime twice, but never thrice. If you want to play nice, you may need to think twice. The 2nd chance so often said in life never really does occur. A regrettable mistake will well, remain regrettable. No one invented reversible time. As much as we want to return to the "good old days", time will tick faster by the minute, reminding you that time should not be wasted thinking of the impossible.

I've been lucky, given a 2nd chance. Should I take it? Or should I waste it once again. My heart is not telling me anything, it has lost its compass for my life.



Would you continue to wait for something that will lead to no where?

I woke up from a dream, a dream I don't wish to wake up from. As I try to piece back the imagery that kept me smiling like a fool even after I awoke, I found it slipping away fast. Its like trying to contain water in cupped hands, the more you want to contain it, the faster the water seems to slip away from your fingers. Then it struck me there and then. Perhaps we would all be happier if we just let things be. By being greedy, I found myself upset and frustrated. Why not just be contented with what I had at the moment?

So,
Just knowing you care is enough to keep me contented. I shan't be greedy. (:

Let me help you wipe those tears away.

You will pick yourself up from where you fall. Don't worry, I'm right behind you.

It doesn't matter how often you fall. What matters is that after each fall, you learn how to pick yourself up.

Misunderstanding

I want you to know that seeing is not believing

I want to clarify with you everything

I want to know how you feel about it.

I want to, I want to, I want to.

But I'm scared,

Afraid you won't give me the chance

Afraid to hear what I don't wish to hear

Afraid to wake up and realise everything was just a dream.

Tell me what to do. ):


Been hesitating to blog about my 20th birthday, its like me officially acknowledging the fact that I had just cross the 20th mark! Looking back 10 years ago, I was still this little school girl who tied two big pony tails to school. And now I am this yet to be woman in university, still finding my way to survive this asphalt jungle.

I had made official records of my birthday, in details in that scrapbook given to me by 1807. I didn't want to forget any part of it, every part is special to me...(: this birthday had been a magical one, why so, because to me, it made me realized how loved I'm to people around me. They accepted me for who I am (this siao gin na who never seems to tire and ever so childish) and took the effort to make my birthday a special affair. Receiving 6 cakes by 6 different groups of people wasn't what I expected, but each cake left a sweet memory for me to cherish.

To the innocent people who got sabo-ed on my birthday, my apologies and many thanks. For that, you guys made me when happy girl, because I had never laugh so hard for such a long time. To everyone who made an effort to celebrate with me, be it to attend the celebration, made time out to write a note, be there for me for dinner, movie, many thanks to all.

I realized that I didn't have all the photos with me, thus I will KIV them and do a photoblog the next time round.

You made it special... just with your presence.(:



Wanted to do some readings before Jap, but my mind is refusing to work. Hello Mr Brain, stop playing mind games with me. And I'm seriously sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. This illness is taking way too long to get well, and its really taking a toll on me. )): Bad week as usual. When will my days get any better?

E-mailed Ms Bloopy today. Hasn't heard from her for such a long time. Hope all's well over her side, you are miss dearly if you are reading this!(:

On a random note, Winnie-the-pooh gives the best hugs whenever you need a pick-me-up time. Thanks 1807 for sending that angel to keep me company in 2008. Since then, it had always been there for me. Its like I'm receiving those hugs from all of you guys. It brought my memory to a particular day in 2008 which I believe the worst day of that year, I cried my heart out, and you guys stood by me, trying all ways to bring that smile back on my face. I will never forget that, and all the hugs you guys gave me. Till now, I'm still counting my blessing for meeting you awesome people, without who, I would never made it past JC.

Now, its different, a totally new story, meeting new people. But at least I still have Pooh bear there for me. Seeing him its like seeing all of you. Roomie gave me another new Pooh bear to add to it, a smaller version one. But this Pooh is very different, it has patches and stitches, like a Pooh that went through a rough patch, but emerged much stronger. She doesn't know that the baby Pooh has been my source of motivation whenever she isn't around, like right now.

I feel that I'm Eeyore now, feeling all blue and gloomy, but I have the rest of my friends in the hundred acre wood there for me. Knowing that I am not alone is enough.

Gosh, its almost time for Japanese already. Vanilla Twilight

When I think of you, I don't feel so alone... if only you know.

I'm sorry. 


Stupid Wini

Is there such thing as a clever gene? If there is, obviously I'm lacking that.

And hurray, those irritating massage parlors near my house are all gone! So obvious that there were some vice activities going on, like hello, do masseurs hang this inner garment outside their shops for all to see? Wear such skimpy clothes and only stop men for services? And what rubbish traditional chinese massage? The only thing I can see is China massage extra service. Plus those horrible man that patronize this shops, they can't keep their eyes to themselves! ):

I got stalked by this big burly guy one afternoon on my way to buy bread! Oh my, damn scary, but I stared at me for the longest time ever with the fiercest face I can muster, before walking away in super fast speed.  I so cui also want to look, eyes got stamp arh? *shivers* Whatever happen to the nice and safe environment I used to live in? And my neighbours are supposedly hounded by loan sharks too. ):

Had there been a time where by you stared so hard at a contact, composing in your mind what to say, and when you are ready, its too late?

At times I wonder if the memory that exist in my mind, does it telly with yours?

Giddy, sneezing too often in a day coupled with cough, plus too much info overload from trying to study and squeeze info into the already tired brain. ):

Rah, I want to roar out loud but now I can only managed a soft croak.): When Kevin called just now regarding the magazine sponsorship, I was struggling to speak or at least croak a little to let him know I'm still at the other end of the line. Had to resort to pressing some random spot on my neck to force out some sound, that sounds like "OK".

So much for wanting to pre-empt it I guess. Sore throat to coughing, feeling giddy now..)): Horrible horrible.

Sent out e-mail to change Men's Health to Torque, some car magazine, hopefully we can get that. Can't imagine the guys reading Her World! Hahaha :x

A sense of relief recess week is here.

It seems like my body knows when to crash. I know I had been pushing it way too hard for the last couple of weeks. The many bottles of honeysuckle and packs of lozenges ain't going to get my sore throat away now, and I'm developing cough, all this symptoms seems way too familiar, especially since I'm having headache as well. Alright, might as well, a full blast attack of bacteria and virus and then a strong recovery before the school starts, then my turn to slaughter the dreadful papers and assignments coming my way.

I shall not bow to fate, I hold the key to my future... If you don't believe, then off you go. I don't need you to be the wet blanket...

I wish the term to end, but on the other hand, I hope it doesn't.

As much as I said that it doesn't concern me. As much as I said thats all the better. As much as I want to avoid the whole issue, its still glaring in my face. Somehow, whenever I think I had let go of it, that little string still attached to me will tug at me ever so gently to make me turn back and see that I don't want to.

Getting myself busy with all the projects, meetings, assignments and all. My own brand of remedy to get everything off my mind. Somehow, I will end up so exhausted and tired at the end of the day and feeling all lousy, thinking that I've accomplished nothing.

It had been a bad week, especially without roomie around for 2 nights. The nights get longer as loneliness set in. Its been an equally bad week for her too. Hopefully we can survive together, if not hug each other and cry. Jiayou roomie if you are reading this. Don't bother yourself with people not worth bothering.

Remember that no matter what, we can sing our blues away like the "emo-ed" night on Thursday. No problem is ever to big for us, we had climbed mountains before, lets scale up to the clouds and reach for the limitless sky.

Was it so evident? Weiren said I looked depressed. Despite my many smiles and laughters, I guess my weariness is starting to show. Thanks for the ice cream cone! Yeah, it really did cheer me up, and that performance from your friend.! Highly entertaining, though he doesn't sing that well, he sure knows how to get the crowd going.

Projects after projects, I kind of wish that I had mid terms rather than all this project.




Dear Winifred Tan, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Other people find you very interesting
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : But you are really hiding your true self
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Your friends love you because you are a good listener
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You like serious
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Smart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Determined people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't judge a book by its cover
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship
The seriousness of your love:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are very serious about relationships
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : If you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will fall deeply
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Beautifully in love
Your views on education:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can
The right job for you:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You'll be set for life
How do you view success:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous
What are you most afraid of:  
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Independence is important to you

I'm stunned. Its perhaps the most accurate quiz I've done thus far...

Realization hit me hard on the face this week.

Quoted from Wanyin " Loving you was never difficult. Letting you go is..." At times, learning to let go of someone or something that you love is like cutting a certain part of your body. The pain and anguish are indescribable, thats why sometimes, you would rather cling on to that little shred of hope and stubbornly refused to let go, for fear of the torrents of emotional hurt you will receive once you let go. But hope is nothing but an endless pit of misery too isn't it? Wistful thinking will get you no where, your stubbornness will only prolong the pain. The heart can only take this amount of hurt. People say that only by going through misery and pain can you learn to be stronger, but to me, I guess its not because you become stronger, you just merely formed this layer of armor to protect yourself, or perhaps you become so numb by it all that it no longer hurts. Numbed by the things around you, forming the blase attitude, whereby whatever that happens no longer concern you anymore.

 Now that is scary...

Tired.

One bad news after another, how much more can I take it. Nothing can summarized my feelings better than the word disappointment.

At least yu ang's msn message cheer me up.
yu ang says:
*angel!!!!!
*hah
*crashing ntu tmr!!


Deep personal reflection has been the hall mark for you of late, Pisces.

Had a run at 3pm just now, almost got killed by the scorching sun. D: Should have ran at a later time. When I was running, many thoughts were running through my head. Had I been to busy with work to notice changes around me? My life has just sunk into this mindless hectic routine week after week. The people around me had been tolerant of my neglience, giving way to me when they sense my displeasure or weariness. But this is no way to go. I am so sorry for being such a bad daughther, sister,friend, roomie, co-worker lately. I get so caught up with work.

I am looking forward to a break, a disturbance to my routine.

Cut my hair last week, dyed it this week. My obessesion with my hair. Haha, gotten 2 dresses so far.. OMG Whats happening to me...? Hahaha. :x

Everything seems alil sweeter IF you

Don't demand so much of yourself.
Don't demand so much of others.
Ignore what you don't want to see.
Be deaf to things you dont wish to hear.
Love yourself for who you are.
Try to be the greater person you know you are.
Don't discount yourself.
Self-praise when you deserve it.

And most importantly, to smile and brighten up someone else's day.

Jingyi's 20th Birthday today! Celebrated at swensens with draco. Haha, was a great outing with a great turnout. Glad she loves the pressie we gotten for her.!((: wee~ Rilakkuma brown bear, which has a superbly cute sleeping bag.

Why does it affect me when I heard that you are going to meet someone else? I thought you dont matter to me, but I guess you do.

1st of school, adjusting back to school life. Gotten my most of my textbook, just shot of Hw111 workbook now. Have to buy from popular bookstore.

God has been helping me, sending angels in different forms to guide me and to encourage me.

After 2 straight days of breaking my blue hairbands, I thought it was a sign that bad things are coming my way. But wednesday was a turning point. 1stly no broken hairband, and had an awesome day-out with dear roomie. Days after were much better from wednesday on.!(:

Found my honeysuckle tea at last in NTU 7/11, and it was on offer, $1/bottle. Happy!((: It never fail to cheer me up, love love many many. Wanted to buy many bottles to stock up, but hasn't gotten the fridge yet, so I guess that will have to wait.(: At least now I know where to get that bottle of honeysuckle.

Looking forward to better days, a better sem. I will get through it. Yay. And thanks for making me smile.

A new planner for a new sem, a new year.

New promises made, which will be kept.

Had a "papa and daughter" day today! hahaha. Accompanied my dad to IRAS to settle some Gst disputes, then head down to a company near IRAS to collect some bad debts. It was damn funny when we were locating the company, couldn't find it, and we walked like one big round before finding that company! It was situated at such an ulu place! hahah.

Had lunch at Ajisen Ramen. Dad was very excited, and keep telling me about him wanting to try here but never do, because he didn't know how to order. Haha, so funny, so I order seafood ramen for him, n pork curry ramen for myself. Side dishes, white fish and fried tofu. He was so happy!

Then we head down to Dhoby Gaut to go to "the $2 place, everything $2, you know, that one.." hahah, Ya, we went there because of Diaso! But we only gotten one item there. Action City was having closing down sales, n Dad asked me to go and see. We went in there and saw a Tazmanian(looney tunes) keychain. haha. He is Dad's favourite cartoon character! hahah, I managed to persuade Dad to buy but he refused to hang on his bag! hahahah, damn funny, I kept laughing at Dad. We went carrefour to shop too. Dad was telling me all about history of beer. Then he looked at me and said "Papa bu zai bu neng he arh... Zai xue xiao bu neng he arh.."(dad not around cannot drink arh.. Cannot drink in school arh) He probably felt gulity for making me drink with him during dinner last night, n causing me to have a sleepless night. I think I'm so weird, have you ever heard someone suffering from insomnia cause of a few drinks?

Mama was worried that we went out so long, gave me 3 calls. Went home with dinner all ready! Yummy, one more week of homecooked food, before school starts.

Yesterday night had dinner with whole family at East Coast Park Long Beach. Fun time with family. Love them, thanks for being there and making me laugh and smile these few days.

Peace with my soul.

2009 was a year filled with drama and when I hit the lowest points of my life.

It is only when you had failures, can you taste the true sweetness of success. Things can only get better after you experience the worst.

Thanks for all the encouragement and support. In times of crisis, those messengers are like life buoys, keeping me afloat in troubled waters.

2010 will be a great year, for I will make it a great year. :D Smiley days, no more sadness, no more tears.

Too much greiving will screw up your body system.

Nosebleed, giddiness, nausea, disturb sleep.

As much as I want to say "hey its just that one subj that pull down everything, and u wont be seeing it anymore", as much as I want to stay optimistic, I can't.

IF I didnt put in so much effort for THAT subject, I won't be feeling so lousy.

IF the subj that cui-ed was THE one I thought it will be, I would just accept it.

BUT no, things just don't go the way you want it to be.

How am I going to pick myself up from this, when you know that being hardworking doesn't mean anything?

I think I'm scaring Papa n Mama, I think I look so ghostly this morning I woke up.

At least, I still have Jack to bring the smile back on my face. Thank God, I'm sure he is god send, my guardian angel. Bless him and hope he recover from his allergy soon, if not he will have to keep wearing the elizabeth collar and keep knocking into us. Not that I'm complaining, but the bruise on my leg is going to stay for a long time...


Vital Temps, Draco OG, Draco Girls and darling 1807. Still have many other photos to put up, more to come. :D I realised I have alot of camera shy friends. :x hahahaha. Take more pics in the coming year!((: Cheers!

Finally, I got back my lappy! woohoo. Had to keep calling and demand for my lappy, but am so glad its back in my arms!((:

Having an ear infection now. Haix, been causing headache, went to see a doctor, gotten painkillers, antibiotics and some ear drops. Hopefully it will go away...

So much things so write about.

Went with draco to marina barrage to fly kites. A great experience, with lotsa of kites, laughter, food and young children! Awesome company at a great place!((: Next we went Timbre @ the art house. Been wanting to go there for ages. Music was great, company was great and gossips aplenty! Haha, we had a few drinks plus some finger guessing game. The guys were a great bunch of people, making sure we made it home safe.

Had X'mas gift exchange with the 3 fantastic girls!((: Ben and Jerry experience was great with you guys!((: Sweet, lovely and totally warm! You made my X'mas extra wonderful this year.!

My trip to the doctor was great too. Haha, must be thinking I'm mad. Despite the pain, the smiles from the young kids and babies around me put that smile back on my face. Innocence painted all over their faces. I wonder how long it will last, before it is tainted by the evils of this cruel world.

I am still very touched by that little act of yours and that picture will remain one of my fave!((: ^^

Perceptions



When people starts to form perceptions and make groundless assumptions, it can be a very dangerous thing. If you managed to convince yourself that all these are "facts", you can end up forming the wrong impression of someone. At times, what you see, may not be what it is.

Had night cycling yesterday night. Such a great feeling having the wind against your face as you cycle in the cool night. I really like cycling in the park, there is the sea breeze, the sand and the stars above your head. (: Wonder when will be the next time... At that time when I was cycling, I had no stress or anything. I just let my mind wonder off, listening to the sounds around me and enjoying the scenary around me. Life can be so beautiful if you take your time to look around you and discover the wonders of it.

Forbidden love. There is no right or wrong.

Came across a blog talking about keeping things status quo, for fear that taking that extra step may ruin the
future progression of the friendship and topple the current harmonious balance. Its a thought that got me thinking, a subject that keeps bugging me.

To me, taking the extra step only meant knowing the person better. When one start to clam up and feel awkward infront of the one they like, they will never be able to know the other party well. Likewise, you being awkward will only make the other party feel uncomfortable too, thus ruining any possible progression, moreover IF you were to drop the bomb at this time with the "I like you", its bound to fail! The person will be stunned beyond words and maybe scared away by the sudden revelation of your part, because all along, there isn't any signs at all.

Take things slowly. Get to know the person 1st. If there is mutual attraction, things will happen. You need not to take the extra step, the only thing you have to do is stay confident, stay true to yourself. Being yourself and exluding that confidence is a very attractive trait that people tend to overlook. This is because when people are infront of their crush, they tend to be very conscious of theirselves, not themselves anymore. Throw any baggage away. Let the person see you for being just YOU, and like the You they see.

But more importantly, before anyone can love you, you must first learn to love yourself. I am not saying being obsessed with yourself,but accept who you are and love the way you are. No one is without a flaw, and you are perfect because of your imperfections, you just need the right person to appreciate and like you for who you are and accept all your flaws.

Everyone deserved to be loved and everyone has the right to love. You just have to find the RIGHT ONE to love and be loved. Love can't be rushed, its a natural process. I'm sure in this world, there is a half for everyone, we just have to keep looking... Don't despair, he/she may just be right at that corner!(:

Went to opposite TJ today to have the prawn noodles! Still as great as ever! Yummy, and had the dou hua shui. Nostalgia feeling, used to eat there practically everyday with 1807 people. It always such a challenge to find seats for everyone, but it sure beats eating in our canteen. Prawn noodles, fishball noodles, yong tau foo, char kuey tiao, chicken cutlet fried rice, scary cai fan, and many more delicious food! D: missing the days in TJ.

9,10,11,12,14,15,18,21,24,25,26. No this aint numbers I intend to buy for Toto, haha. These are the days whereby I'll be going out or in hall. When I gave these dates to Wanyin, her 1st reaction was "oei!!" haha, hasnt meet this girl for ages, "why block out so many dates for a fren!" was her next reply. So sorry girl! >.< they are all one step faster than you, and I have commitments. Promise to meet up some day alright?

Yesterday had some problems with my nds files. And my internet explorer was giving me problems! D: But thanks to Justin, the tech geek, who managed to solve my problem! hahah, thanks for sending me winRAR and even scanning it for virus before sending. And now i got new games to play on my NDS lite~ My best travelling companion.

Me: " Ma, why u wearing this shirt? I just wash not long ago leh..."

Sister stared at me, while mum trying to find words to reply. Just then it hit me, those were the words mum used to tell me. No wonder my sis looked so stunned. Oh no, Im becoming a housewife! :x





Pain. My wisdom tooth is causing so much pain! D: Ouch.

Been thinking if I have any intelligence, I guess this is a sign for me that I really do have wisdom! hahaha. Self denial again. I think exams make people think and act weirdly, seriously. I think I'm not myself too. My many years in school since the age 4 and taking exams since age 7 have not taught me anything about studying. Whatever happen to the days whereby studying is the key to snugging that A. Now, even if I do finish studying my course syllabus, I may end up not knowing how to do my paper in the exam hall. And the reason is not because I blank out, but the qns seem so foreign, not like anything I have done before. The worst thing? After the exams you can hear some people exclaiming "What an easy paper! woohoo.." while you are still sulking, not knowing how will you fare! D: My papers had long ended, and yet they are still haunting me...

Been trying to play hard, so as not to think about the papers.! Caught 3 movies and a trip to the beach.

I had never study so hard in my life before. I know some people will wanna kill me, but I didn't study that hard for both my O/A levels. Hence, shouldn't I be happy at least I acheive something? No matter what grade I get, I should be happy right?

You have that special ability to make me smile all the time.

You can't make me stay angry with you for more than 1 min.

You irritate me, but when you ain't, I will start missing it.

I love the way you crinkle your nose when you sleep.

I love the way you nudges me, asking for attention.

I love you Jack, thanks for being by my side on this sad and gloomy day!:D

ps: Jack is my family dog.

When a simple hi evolve to a short convo.

When a short convo evolve into a longer convo.

When the convo begin to be peppered with constant banter, jokes and even serious topics.

When one start to show concern

When you feel comfortable talking to that person

Is this the start of a beautiful friendship? Or is this just my own wistful thinking.?

Ended, I fought my last battle... The war left me tattered and torn- emotionally.

Heart felt numbed.
Got the feeling of no feeling.
Weird isnt it?
Ain't i supposed to be glad its all over?
I know I did my best, wouldn't/can't have done anything better.

Leave it till 30dec to decide my fate.

Woke up and felt so unwell this morning. Now still feeling abit disorientated.

All these all seems so surreal, my heart been pounding so hard for the past hour. No idea why, and I can't seems to concentrate. A sign of the impending doom that is making me feeling like this now?

Somehow I lost my fighting spirit. I resign to fate, to be slaughtered. I mean the more I think about it, the harder it is to want to score for the rest of my modules. Marketing is such a mind boggling subject, though I enjoy learning it- really and applying it, but there is always a big fat question mark looming in the horizon, you will never know if what you wrote is what they want, the analysis you give is going to give you that A or that B. As for math for economist, I'm so sad that I can't conveniently skip steps using G.C. D: Because my tutor has no idea what a G.C. is. D: Just have to rely on the traditional method and pray hard I got my concepts right. The past year qns are all so tough! Haix. As for accounting, I'm trying my best not to have an anxiety attack. My most feared subject thus far. I'm praying hard that I got my foundation nailed and that they will give method marks,etc. There is consultation today actually, but I'm not going, because I don't want to give myself more pressure and stress. Whatever will be will be, just hope that my brain do not give up on me. And most importantly, I don't give up on myself.

Just 3 more days to freedom. Gloomy days will soon be over, say hello to better sleep, better skin, happier me.

Woah, had a bill shock from starhub yesterday night- $90.99! Woah, never had I cross the $90 dollar mark before. Called them up and demanded to know why I am charged for the F.O.C data - msn and fb in particular. Operator was BAGUS! haha, waived everything for me, check out what went wrong, etc. :D Thanks Desmond from billing. Fengyi told me had to scold them, etc then can waive off, I was preparing to scold, sound fierce etc, but I guess my normal voice (which sound like Im crying) was enough. HAHA :x

Travelled back to ntu today. Wanted to come back earlier, but mama wanted to htht with me, so i sat there listening to her rant about the household, etc. Wont be going back this weekend. Kindof sad, but I know that right now I need to get the rest nailed. My seemingly lack of intelligence forced me to work extra hard to make the grade. To stay afloat rather, since the A seems so elusive now. So near yet so far, just when you thought it is within your grasp, poof, its gone. It just slipped off your fingertips like this... But nonetheless, I will still try to chase and grab it back. Hopefully.

Just a few more days, and I will be back in my lovely mouse nest at home... Had the best sleep in ages last night. Though mama still said I looked to be in a bad shape. Chicken essence here I come.

Oh my, I so wanna kick myself for forgetting that simple eqn and how to do it. I'm sure everyone knows how to do it except for me. Grrrr. Okok, nt going to let it affect me, but.. Grrr. Hating myself. Kick myself in the face.

" Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ' maybe we should be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."
-Neil Gaiman

I'm in such a state of confusion that it scares me.

Woke up earlier today to have jogging session with Jingyi. Wasn't a very long jog, just a short one around the hall area. Had a long chat with her after that during cool down session.

Looking forward to some things this weekend
1. Some REAL sleep and rest.
2. Complete assignment 3 and get some people who do not understand econs to proof-read. :D
3. Watch Taohua xiamei.
4. Try linking marketing concepts together.
5. Read notes.
6. Grow more crops for country story! WAHAHAHAH, according to ongjunmin, she letting me play the country story music in room is the ultimate roomie love act already! HAHA. Plus my constant "Should I get a duck or chicken?" :x
7. Sort out my thoughts, n throw out those stupid thoughts.
8. Forgive and forget
9.Read Newspaper
10. Catch up with family.

I really shouldn't be blogging.
Having a test coming up in less than 12 hours worth 10%.
Having a presentation in less than 14 hours worth 15%, which the last I check, still have many lose ends to tie up, plus my presentation timing is 3.30mins! well off the timing and has yet to do conclusion. I need to cut it, seriously...D:
Finished my tutorial for HE101, doing paper for MB103 now. So many things to do.
Still wanna revise for the test in less than 12 hours. D:

Too lil time, too many things.
But why do I still have so many other things on my mind! D:

我真的真的不愿意就这样陷入爱的陷阱

left out on Nov 3 1.16am

Time passes fast when you are having fun, but time passes even faster when you are studying.

Taking a break now to blog alil. Brain abit dead, but at least I'm studying interesting chapts. :D way to go, staying optimistic as usual.

Looking forward to next tues. Shroomy's visit to Hall 14. :D

Arh, I'm still undecided, S/u or not. D:

I am trying to finish my tutorial on time.
I am trying to understand my concepts better.
I am trying to forget all things and concentrate on whats important.
But I find myself lost.
What is important?

Sometimes, doing your best just isn't good enough.

It gets so tiring that whatever you do ain't appreciated, your inputs got taken away and your efforts go to waste.

Why no matter how much you try, some people can just take your work and rip it apart, leaving you in bits n pieces, and walk away...

Words can be so hurting. Intentionally or not.

Words ain't supposed to hurt, they are meant to say "I Love You".

I may laugh it off, give you a smile, but deep down I'm hurting. I'm sorry, I did my best, and if it ain't good enough, go ahead and rip it apart. Because by then, I'll be numbed from the pain.

The cruelty of life, the harshness of it all. Perhaps its time I realise I no longer live in a sugar coated world.

Met up with Min Yu and Anna today at white sands to celebrate Min Yu's bday! :D Wanyin unable to make it, poor girl, she fell ill, wonder is it due to the mounting pressure from the impending As. Jiayou Girl!(:

We ate at Manhattan Fish Market!(: Shared the seafood platter for 2 and ordered the new drink mango popping. The drink tastes like a certain kind of sweet. From Min Yu's happening life, to Anna's Uni life, the convo just kept going. It had been so long since we 3 meet up together! And the feeling is still that great!(:

Gave Min Yu the pressie that Roomie and I picked for her. Was so glad she likes it, the excitement all over her face when she saw it, it was classic! Haha, am so happy that I gave her a surprise!(since she hinted she wanted a surprise on fb! ahhaha) :D

So, happy birthday girl! Enjoy and day and may you grow prettier and prettier as the day passes, but please stop growing taller, if not your short friend her will have neck sore the next time she want to chitchat with you face to face!(: Love you always my beloved partner in cls- ONG MIN YU! Muaxh!

You wouldn't know but that little gesture you did had melted the little heart of mine.

Falling for you- Colbie Caillat

I don't know, but I think I may be fallin' for you, dropping so quickly.
Maybe I should keep this to myself, wait until I know you better.
I am trying not to tell you, but I want to.
I'm scared of what you'll say, so I'm hiding what I'm feelin', but I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.

As I'm standing here and you hold my hand, pull me towards you, and we start to dance.
All around us, I see nobody.
Hearin' silence, it's just you and me.
I'm trying not to tell you, but I want to.
I'm scared of what you'll say, so I'm hiding what I'm feelin', but I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.

Oh, I just can't take it.
My heart is racin'.
Your motions keep spinnin' out.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I can't stop thinkin' bout it, I want you all around me, and now I just can't hide it.
I can't stop thinkin' bout it, I want you all around me, and now I just can't hide it.
I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin' for you.
Oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh, I'm fallin' for yah.

Feeling like a zombie today, sleep late and set my alarm wrongly this morning! D: I set as PM! LOLz, lucky the typing sound from my roomie woke me up, if not I sure late for class alrdy! hahaha.

So many things, so little time, was so happy today, cos I ate Mr Bean's soya icecream! -Life Simple Pleasure! :D
SoyaBean is love! :D I wanna be Mrs Bean then I can have lots of Mr Bean products! HAHA. :D I sound so crazily in love with it! :D But I really like all their products!

"Msn" convo during marketing, complete with "whoever is added to the convo" and "nudges" LOLZ.

Feeling much better today, well, have to keep looking forward, stop looking back, because life is too short for regrets, let the past remain in the past, let what is going to happen in the future remain a mystery, just seize today because its a present! :D Alright!

GOGO WINI!:D

You will never know I'm here
Standing right beside you.
Hoping that you will turn around,
to see me smiling because of you.
All this you will never know,
because to you, I'm just another girl.
Another friend you can talk to, laugh with
But you never know that here I am,
standing there,
looking over at you,
wishing you good,
and not wanting anything,
but to just see your smile.
:D BUT TO YOU- IM JUST A STALE CURRY PUFF! SOBZ. hahahahahhahaha

Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb

Had my 2 quizzes today, and it confirmed that IM DUMB. Seriously, after spending so much time on accounting and maths, Im still so lost on the subject. I spent my whole recess week with them, spent my breaks with them, spent most of my waking hour with them for the past 2weeks or so, and yet.. D:

I'm feeling so lousy. Yes, academic grades are very very important to me. I don't care if I will be a stale curry puff or not, what I care most is my grades! Because they are the ones who will lead me to a successful career start or not. D: This is so frustrating. Their refusal to befriend me is driving me nuts.! D: HMPF, I need a night walk. Gosh..

Dear roomie just left hall for home. Going to be alone tonight. Gu jun zhuo zan.

I know im supposed to be reading tt HUGE accounting textbook, because my lecture notes teaches nothing at all. D: But I just wanna take that teeny weeny break. D: Its such a sad thought that not everyone are having pop quizzes after recess week. At least they can have some real break and not bust their whole recess week spending quality time with those huge textbooks.

Plus, I'm having my 2 quizzes on the same day, and for my final exams, the two subjects are held on the same day too. Congrats to me, seriously, didn't know that the 2 of them will be that tough. Grr..

Having Darts training on Mon, but Im not going. Going to con't studying for the quizzes on Tues.

I will be so happy once they are over- at least for awhile.

Because, by then I will have to return back to my cycle of mugging, final exams are looming. Oh gosh. Whoever said JC 'A' Levels was the toughest times? I can tell you stop living in self denial, seriously.

Alright, back to books.

I wanna be a chao mugger.

I begin to wonder...

Life,
is'nt it too short for sorrow?
isn't it more worthwhile to live the way you want it?
isn't it better for the world if we stop fighting, for everything?

Dreams
Why dream when you know you can't reach?
Why let it affect you so much that you can't move forward?

Love
is'nt it supposed to be sugary sweet?
then why are people around me agonising over it?
crying over it?
a mental need for affection and belonging?
what good does it do if it ain't reciprocated?
wouldn't you fall into an endless pit of sorrow?

I longed for a miracle in this gloomy day, let me see there is still beauty and hope in this world we live in. Bless those people who are struggling against nature- natural disasters. Bless those innocent children, before their minds get polluted in this dangerous world.

Bless me to remain sane.

A fleeting moment, a moment of instantenous connection, but poof, its gone, gone with the wind and never back...

I know not what I want.
I just follow what you want.
All this time.
When you are gone,
who is to fill this void you leave behind?
I wonder.

Going to celebrate Ms LIMFENGYI DATOU MUOGU HELMET.......BIRTHDAY later! hahaha. I miss that siao girl many many!!! Even though we met on sunday during Qianying's send off, but I still miss that girl! hahaha, seriously need to talk to her! (:

Been having lesser n lesser sleep in hall, n pimples are all popping out! D: sobz. My eye got infected and my eyelid swell. Had to put this eye drop every hour and eye ointment every night. The eye oilment will make me a one eye monster because it will stick the upper and lower lids together! D: But now the swelling is down! yippee, doc said is its not, I may have to go for surgery! Luckily it went down! yippe~

My ankle's swelling went down too! Now can walk relatively faster! Healing well, though it still hurts once in a while, its much much better! Yippe~

On a random note, I been thinking of expanding the infatuation essay I wrote the other time, expanding it to complete the story because I left the ending hanging, but somehow, it feels like if I put an end to it, then.. its an ending! But love aint supposed to have an ending isnt it? hmmm..

Cant believe I tumble and fall in ntu again! I was on my way to study in the lounge with dear Jingyi and I fell down the stairs. Double sprained because i tried getting up after 1st sprain but tumble again. Was so helpless on the ground. Jingyi was by my side, thanks girl! Without you, I wont know what to do. Lydia was on 3rd floor and she shouted down thinking I was her roomie. I shouted back telling her I sprained my ankle, dear girl ran down to find me on the floor. Justin came out of his room-2nd floor after hearing commotion, holding an ankle guard. Next moment, weiren appeared! hahah. Lydia ran up to get my roomie. Ong junmin super stunned to see me on the floor. Fiaz appeared out of no where, got me a cool can of coke zero while he n lydia went round to find ice for me. Still on the ground, Justin "icing" my leg, while colouring my toe nails with highlighter! >.< Roomie called Mr Welfare- Say Chong who asked me to immobilise my leg by spraying salonpas. HAHA, then justin carried me up to my room- not after much protest. Weiren even suggested bridal carry style! OMG, of cos not! Wanted to pass Lydia my card while Justin was piggy-backing me, ended up struggling him, he took revenge by throwing me on the bed. Thanks arh.. Highly eventful night- one I will not forget for a long time.




Next day, ankle was superb pain. Took super long walk to school! Great Og mates kept sms-ing to check on my condition. (: At the end of the day, ankle CMI. Bruise was damn big and black. Jessica called Kc to drive me out of school to see doc since it was 6.00 by the time I ended lesson. Went to see a sinseh and busted $50.10! D: Sobs.. so much for an ankle. Sinseh commented how i fell, cos it was damn serious. Had like 3 huge bruises.. Told her I fell down the stairs and she looked stunned before pressing acupoints on my ankle asking pain anot. She seems to enjoy it. D:





Learnt my lesson in a painful and expensive way. Fred. Please watch where you are going. Seriously...

Late night tutorial chiong-ing for accounting. My head still swirling with liabilities, revenue, assets, etc.

Tried my hands on my rally.

1st attempt too short.

2nd attempt got disrupted by roomie.

D: tmr having door to door. Pooh bear shall be my buddy!(:

So many things going through my mind. "To be or not to be?" Im just very confused and lost in this world, this new world i'm thrown into. So foreign. Yet one thing is for sure, I will do my best to survive, to remain true to myself and not lost myself in this mess.

Press on Wini! Let your smile guide you through all difficulties!(:

Stop being so kind to me, Im afraid I will....

Sprained my ankle again! 1807, please dont scold me ok? I don't wish to sprain it too! I was just crossing the road and a lorry came charging towards me, I ran, and I sprained. -.-" Sounds so noob. But its not as bad as the one the one I gotten in JC and had to call JiaYi to come and rescue me at some ulu part of TJ. Had on bandages on Mon-Tues and gotten an ankle guard from Jonathan on Wednesday night! hahah. Felt so bad for manfaning so many people to find that ONE first aid kit box! >.< And thanks roomie for looking after your super clumsy roomie!

Must thank all those many many people who help to find tt first aid kit box, though I dont know who, but roomie said alot of people help to find, so I must thank all!(:

Must thank Yixia, the delphi senior who commented on my many many pokka liang teh and Jia En for coming to bandage my ankle on Mon and Tues night at such late hour! So sorry! MANY MANY THANKS!(: ps: though its abit ugly!:x haha, thanks lots! Greatly appreciated!

Must thank everyone for their concern about my health and my ankle! And the constant nagging for me to sleep early! haha.

Special thanks to JINGYI, ZHILIN and JESSICA for staying by my side and assisting me in all ways! Like helping me to carry my dinner, taking tt slow stroll for me!(: Love you Guys to the MAX!

AND of cos my roomie! You are superb BAGUS! Let me rest, wake me up to eat dinner(she even tabao for me), ran down to help me get bandage and panadol! Muaxh! You are the BEST!(: and taking that superb slow walk from north spine back to hall with me! LOVE YOU!(:

Amelene! For walking slowly to lectures with me and always telling me where to watch out, insisted we take the lift instead of climbing the stairs yeah! love u lots!

Im so blessed by the people around me! Being away from home, but having such great friends and seniors around! Though I missed my family lots! Mama kept calling to check on her sick baby! I'll take care of myself! Sick Pig will get well soon!(:

Have you ever live a life of disguise,
one filled with lies

Ever live a life behind a mask,
that you so wish to unmask

Just so you won't show your vulnerability
until you have shown your abilities?

Just had a sudden thought about this. I guess late nights have this effect on u. Gosh Wini, snap out of your daydreams and back to reality!

A highly eventful day today. Gosh, its over, and I chionging my economics homework now. Thank god I still recall my JC lectures. Thanks LILI FONG AND WONG YINGYING! They are the best econs lecturers! Its an impossible task to sleep during their lectures, especially the latter one! I miss their teachings. And of cos I MISS MS AILEEN WONG! The best econs tutor!

Woke up and decided to wash my laundry today! Haha. It was highly entertaining to text Amelene about the progress of my clothes in that machine! I told her I'm waiting for the "giant to vomit my clothes out" and i need to "check out the giant" and she was like " You want to check out a giant?!" ahhahaha. Met up with her after for HE103. No lecture notes, so we were acting very studious by copying what was shown, but we were doing that to stay awake! HAHA, we even wore specs to look more nerdy and mugger-ish!

Afternoon: Amelene lost her EZlink card! ARGH. She was so upset! Hope that it wasn't taken by some psychotic admirer! Poor girl! D: Went looking for her Ezlink card and forgo lunch date with Jessica, Zhilin and Jinyi. But they were so sweet la, gotten lunch for me! Hearts them!

After that went CCA fair with Jessica and Jingyi. Jessica left earlier for lecture so went to find some seats with Jingyi to chitchat before my tutorial starts.

Went for 1st MB101 lesson. Everyone there are so hardcore! Gotten their textbooks and seems very very prepared! Sobs. But the people sitting at my table are very very nice! We formed a team together. :D I was the only freshie in that group! And having presentation next week on tutorial qns! Abit scary! I hope people dont bombard me with qns. I still so raw in this! D: After that went for team mates to photocopy pages from the textbook as we need the qns to prep for tutorial!(: Nice people!

Hungry piggie now, but still no reply from Jessica! >.< I think I shall just go n makan with zhilin! :x hahahaha

ROOMIE'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!(:
Having night picnic later! So exciting! Get to meet the 1807 girls again! (: Can't wait!

Staying in hall is fun. Plus NTU is such a huge plc that holds alot of mystery, a place I wanna go around to discover, to explore! (:

More hall life updates coming!

My 1st day of school in my hostel in hall 14. Feel so weird, because somehow I feel at ease here, and like I seems to know NTU pretty well too! ahhaha. :x

Add/Drop n planning for timetable is getting on my nerve! The number of vacancies just keep changing every min! I thought everyone adding at the same time? D: why why! D: sad sad

It was obvious that she was unhappy, but with what I'm not sure. I asked her what she going to do, since it looks like her future is uncertain. I recalled months ago of me asking her to work hard, but she dismissed my advice. And now fast forward a few months, shes regreting it. When results were out, she said she was unhappy with it, but given that she didnt really put in that much effort, I think there is nothing much we can do. She wasn't afraid of her own future at that time thinking she can definitely get into the school of her choice, while I caution her, and ask her to think of back up plans. Even now, when the situation looks bad, she is still unaffected.

At times, she seems to think its unfair and all. But who is to be blamed? At times she hinted that I'm so lucky, that I always seem to get what I want and stuff, but all these are only possible because of hard work. And personally attacks are simply childish. I tried to tolerate, to be sensitive, to help, but I'm tired. I really am, so from now on, I'm not going to care anymore.

Its your own choice. You chose your own path. No one is to be blamed.

I have stopped working already! And before I left the company, I went on a photo-taking spree! hahah, and as promised, I did not put up any unglam pics!:D
But the pics were so long over due! so sorry dearies!


The order of the pictures are from the last day, 2nd last day and 3rd last day. I'm too lazy to change them!:X


The lst picture is with my mentor Ms Hamidah! I was under her throughout my stay in office. I learnt alot from her and I got most of my workload from her too!:X

This picture has Cera, Miss Ratna (the one who offer me the job), Charmaine (Cera's sister) and Cheryl Han

new past