I gt into scip!! yeah!! went for the camp on saturday. Was so fun! my grp was called snoozeroo. Cheryl, steph and rebecca was our ic. we did many daring n embarrassing stuff together. but was really fun. we went to changi airport 2 shake hands with visitors. ask ppl to read the time off our watches. etc etc. was really fun! n at night, we had only 2 hours to plan a party for the snrs. it was kindof role play as the snrs take on certain characters n roles to test us. =) tiring but fun!! =) n my grp played the "truth or dare" game. we did "daring" stunts such as taping ppl's leg hair, taking ppl's phone n type in own phone number, touching sumone n sae u r hot.. etc.. =)

Aiyo.. my name very weird meh? FRED is NOT my sirname!! keep getting comments that my name is unique, etc.. n ppl tot i m not singaporean!! haha.. they tot i came 2 singapore to study..=/ ppl!! winifred is a real english name.. its not an accident or anithing. n i lyk my name becos its unique n i really grow 2 love it alot over the yrs! if u dun lyk it.. so be it.. its my name n its in my birth cert.. wad can u do bout it? nothing.. so if u dun lyk it.. jux keep it 2 urself ok.. cos i dun wan 2 hear ani negative things bout my name. my parents took the time and effort name mi n its my pride tt it is unique n i really lyk it. so plx dun b so mean n make fun of my name. its jux nt funny at all.

haix.. o lvl results gg 2 cum out real soon. really hope i gt gd results! *cross fingers. planning 2 run for sth in scip. so hope i gt it 2.. *cross fingers!! praying really hard for things 2 happen!! plz grant mi my wishes!!=)

Went for scip interview today. kindof nervous at 1st n the air-con was really cold. so i was like holding my hands together n trying to speak at the same time. kindof funny because i look like i m praying . haha. i did my interview wth 2 other girls. they are both foreigners but they are really nice. wonder if i gt selected, results will be out tml. n there will be a camp on sat. crossing my fingers! =)

there will be a handball competition tml!! hahah.. maybe playing for my cg, if not i will cheer them on.hope we win, den can gt the vouchers.. lolx. climbing is on tml too. wanna go n c too, but i dont think i have the time too. n i m supposed to b at debate at that time! so many things happening at the same time slot!! omg..

tests coming soon! its only 1st three mths! argh!! its nt even honeymoon at all.. its pre-hell orientation. ! hahah. but den, sadist u may sae, but i kindof enjoy myself, rushing around and doing things.but a lil tiring tho.

have to do both english fair skit n bio project. think there will be points award that will b taken into consideration as assignments and cls participation. better do a gd job! =) hope our skit will be a blast!

well.. gtg le.. its gg to b 10 soon. n i will be swimming tml in the morn at the swimming complex! hahah.. bye=)

My tears are mingled with the rain outside. Thats why u see none on my face...

It the third week inTJ! Hmm. Been adjusting and fitting in pretty well. I'm in cg 18/07. Nice people there. Going for CG outing tml! Lunch and movies, but too bad i can't join them for the movie, because i have to rush back for my scip interview. Hope I get through!=)
Went to CO orientation today. It seems pretty fun but I have no music background. Hm.. may consider bah. haha. if not i join climbing or debate lo.
been pretty hectic these days those. Lectures, tutorials, projects, blah blah blah.. feeling a little bit more tired than usual these days too. Hate it when i have to do everything while others just relax and do nth.=( but i cant jux sit around n wait for things to happen. i want to get over and done with it, i want to finish it, and do the best in everything i pursue or thrown into. if given a task, its either i do my best, put in all my effort, or don't even take it in the 1st place. thats just me, its not because i totally enjoy in doing things or anything, but i just want to finish as soon as possible, so i will have time to do other things. i just don't like to procastinate, wait til the last min. people who don't understand me will think that i m just acting hardworking, but its not. if i appear very enthusiatic about certain stuff, its not because i totally love it, i just want to raise the energy level up, so everyone can do their best, because people work best when their happy. hate to be misunderstood by people. if u don't know me, don't try to think you know me, because what u see is not what u get. you can try to guess who i m or wadeva, but i can bet you, u are no where close to who i really m.
i hide my emotions in front of others. i dont really lyk to be sad or angry infront of people, because i will tolerate n put up with people first. but please.. dont try to test my patience! theres a limit to one's patience too, including the most patient person on earth! though i mask my emotions through laughters, i m still a human, n i have feelings. i will feel angry when being used n sad when people dont understand me.
tired n sleepy already. =) going to slp so0n.. wish me luck 4 my interview!!

been a week since i embark on my JC journey in temasek. it started with uncertainty n insecurities. perhaps its only me, but i just feel totally weird in a strange environment. its lyk the place i have been wanting 2 go n here i m now, in my dream jc..

orientation was pretty fun tho(og 6) orexus!. made many new frenz n the seniors r really very friendly n welcoming. but i jux feel lyk a close flower bud. unable to fully express itself n show its true self. i was mostly hiding my true self. i dunnoe y. perhaps 2 protect myself from external harm becos i m in a new environment? subconciously i jux keep reminding myself tt i have to behave.. not be silly me. its so weird 2 not act urself tho.

hmm. 2nd week was following a special timetable. no tutorials. only lectures and civics. i m in CG 18/07. same cls as jy,jm n lynn. yeAH! rejoice! ahhah. when i m with my frens. i feel totally comfortable n slowly, bit by bit, i open up my petals to reveal my vulnerable side 2 others. i tok 2 strangers, dare to voice opinions already. =) being more comfortable.

hmm. hope tt i stay in tj. i dun wan to go thru the same tedious process of hiding my true self. acting lyk an enclosed flower bud for fear of geting bruise from the new environment.

this post sounded so anticlimax! hahah.. so not lyk my usual style nor my personality. i think i mayb growing up le. i dun wan 2 be so naive animore. dun wan 2 b cheated or betray again jux becos i open my petals out 2 fast n exposed my vulnerable side 2 b hurt.

i shall be brave now n open them out slowly. =) plz give me the strength 2 do so . =)

i decided to write an entry on the new hangouts of teenagers! haha.. teens nowadays not only hang out at orchard road n bugis street but there are new places adding to the ranks.!The old hangouts include orchard cineleisure, heeren,fareast,bugis junction and bugis street.

the new hangouts
*scape theme park
this is not exactly a very new theme park. it is situated behind orchard cineleisure. its main attraction in the past is mainly skaters and bikers because there are ramps for them to show case their stuff. however,now, this park is also drawing a hugh crowd from different areas such as the rockers, gothic, hippie, trendy..this is due to the LIME flea market held there every fortnight. The flea market is now one of the "IN" and "happening" place to grab cheap and trendy items. There is a theme each week such as "room makeover" or "vintage". be sure to find cute and querky stuff.! =)

beaches!
this include east coast park, pasir ris beach, palawan beach in sentosa and many more! a Hit to those who love the sun, sand and sea. teens can be found bbqing, camping or even playing beach volleyball on the sandy beaches.! camping there and bbqing is much cheaper and much more fun than having a chalet(personal view). listening to the sea waves is a great way to destress too!

library.
shock to see that library make the rankx? well. libraries do have its advantages and the lure to attract teens. the air-conditioned libraries provide a get away frm the merciless sun.the comfy sofas are good to rest. teens can also study there in such a condusive place. comics and computers are also there and the greatest advantage is: you will nt fear of seeing ur parents when out wif ur frens! the shelf provide good hiding places to avoid ppl you do nt wan to meet.!cool huh?

vivo city
the lastest attraction!! the biggest shopping centre. many ppl are heading there to check out the shopping centre. a pity tho, there are far too many high end boutiques and too little teen shops. perhaps they shud alocate an area for teens hence retaining the teen crowd?

sentosa
its an island offshore! haha.. less chance of meeting ppl you wanna avoid. and the many attractions will ensure a day of fun fun fun! more over wif the beaches there(read above),it will definitely be a hit.

Toa Payoh HDBhub
the hub is a mini shoping centre. there are many small carts which sells cheap clothings and accessories! the heartland stores outside also offer cheap and trendy clothings, bags and shoes.!

hmm.. theres still others. blog more nxt time.. tata!

been a long while since i last post anythong here. been really busy with my preparation for my "o" lvls, night study, extra lesson, extra practical, peer tutuoring, etc etc,, jc open hse n poly open hse. now its finally over.. "o" lvls over n i spent the past few days slacking, gg overseas, using com, toking 2 frens, gg out, doing things i lyk n even manage 2 read a couple of gd novels.=)
i gt 12 points for my prelims but thankx 2 my hmt, afta bonus, i have 8 points i manage 2 "squeeze" into temasek jc science stream 4 first 3 mths!! haha =) so happie! i m over the moon.but so sad.. nt all my frens made it. lets hope we can all enter tj afta our o lvl results r out but i m really nervous about my o lvl results tho.
my friends had gotten their "N"lvl results. gd job guys! all promoted 2 sec5s! =)
hmm.. at the end of nov i went to this tp rawks event in temasek poly. its really fun actually n almost sway me towards having my nxt stage of education there. but i doubt i can b suited 2 poly life. i m so odd ball.. hahah ..=) n i m superb blur n accident prone. how 2 survive there? blur ppl lyk me will only lost my way 2 lecture, crash wrong tutorials, mess up my time table, etcetc.. hahah..=P
x'mas is coming!!yeah! one of my favourite holiday! so i wish all of u a merry merry x'mas. afta x'mas it will b new yr.. lets dump all our unhappiness in 2006 n start 07 wif new prospectives n new outlook in life! 4gt all the heartbreaks, bad results or wadeva n start of a brand new yr wif a smile! this way life will be much sweeter n u will feel much happie! so long! n make new yr resolution.
my x'mas wish:
1. gt excellent o lvl results
2.everyones wish to come true
3. Santa 2 visit me
4. family to be safe n well
5. u?hahahah=X

today ment PA for campcraft com.. so early wake up.. den frnt gate locked!! argh.. bus late?den we almost late 4 com.. BUT heng...hahah.. manage 2 reg. in time..=)
competition was nt so intense lar.. jux tt were much faster den usual?haha.. =)gadget was fab.. shelter was v.gd.. so think gt chance? i hope so.. *cross fingers..
yesterday nite student. i was lyk coughing lyk siao.. haix.. den charmaine n mi keep luffing ova everything.. was so fun.. n funny.. haha.. so i was lyk luff cough luff... haha.. den on my way home i sprain my ankle..!! so pain lor.. i was lyk... unable 2 walk.. so limp home..all my phone's fault.. ring at the wrong time.. =(
been pretty busy this days.. den down with cough.. feel so tired lor... haix..

i getting tired le.. oso dunnoe wad 2 write.. think this blog is rotting.. haha.. =P

hmm.. been a long time since i last visted here.. haha.. been kindof enjoying my holidays.. cant sae fantastic, cant sae sian.. a balance bah.. hahah.. n i gt a job! haha.. not exactly lar.. jux peer tutoring my neighbour.. =)

yesterday when orchard.. hmm.. tot will start 2 haf the christmas festive feeling le.. but disappointment!! 1. TAKA christams sale not ready yet! ARGH! 2. no irritating x'mas song!! i kindof start 2 miss them..=P 3. the lightings r not tt fabulous compared 2 past years..(shake head) 4. shopping centres no longer take the "nicest decorated shopping centre" competition seriously.. sad.. cos gt no santa figurine.. nor reindeer..5. no X'mas sale aniwhere!! make mi cum home empty handed!! =(

hmm.. went to cineleisure yest. went to this buffet.. v nice.. haha.. gt steam boat, terriyaki.. n best of all i gt to fry ice cream!! its this cool cold plate.. den pour the flavour of ice cream u lyk(in liq form) then it harden n u enjoy!! we ate lyk 10 diff flavour.. haha.. gt vip treatment seh.. i wan the salmon sushi, they go make 1 plate specially 4 mi,, no xtra charge.. the ice-cream waffle sent to us without us needing to take ourselves,, haha..

supposed to go K-ge de.. but i gt flu.. how to? so sad leh.. met a lot of dmn ppl at orchard oso.. wanting, karen and a bunch of dmn guys i dunnoe de.. probably sec4 this yr bah.. haha.. hmm x'mas cuming le.. gg 2 haf headache of wad 2 buy 4 ppl le.. haha.. =)

So long.. happy advance christams day!!=)

so happy!!

my heart pound so fast..
my face turn frm beige 2 red apple!!
argh!!!=)

yeah!! going holiday liao..! so far nv kena any remedial.. hope not! haha.. yeah!! nv fail any subject 4 end of yr.. even manage 2 scrap 2 As.. hahah.. quite unexpected.. the funniest was tt me..being one of the lousiest in chinese..actually top my hmt cls 4 the paper.. i was lyk so stun when she tell mi.. hehehe..
another good news!! i m known 4 toking alot..esp crap.. but hu will expect this crappy n oni tok nonsense gal 2 win best speaker in debate? hahaha.. was so shock 2 haf won.. cos i tot i mess it up..=P my team oso won GOLD!!hahha.. happie!
hmm.. 31st of october cuming liao le..!! '0' lvl chinese exam.. realli nervous..n scared.. been staying bac everyday 4 chinese xtra lesson... STRESS!!!
2molo last day of school liao le.. gg 2take back report book.. i veri scared leh..haix.. n so sad.. sum of my clsmate ask 2 drop 2 sub science.. Sad..hope they can dont drop n con't lor.. cos its lyk we haf been doing pure 4 one yr.. den all of a sudden drop 2 sub.. lyk weird weird leh..
holidae haf to be back 2 sch 4 xtra lessons..prepare 4 sec4 next yr.. 2nd n 3rd week of holiday. heard its oni the languages...so may not be so stressful lor..
we had post exam activities 2day 4 sec3!mi n wy suppose 2 do duty 4 boggle wif nadiah n cass.. in the end we took part cos our cls no representatives.. haha.. n we won 2nd!!not too bad rite? even learn a few new words lor..=P

PRAY HARD 4 my report book results!!! hafing report book phobia liao.. haha..

signing off.. ice


is he gay?haha

yeah!! no more exams!!well.. at least not for the next 2 weeks!!haha.. exam free!! end of yr exam ended last fri n mon will be marking day!!=P gg out 2 sstudy 4 "0" lvl chinese 2molo..c i so guai!! hehehe
so relieve tt yr end exam ova le.. those r all KILLER PAPERS!!! who set those papers??!! haha.. nevertheless.. i tthink the setter mux b preparing us 4 "0"s nxt yr.. sooo u shall b pardon..hope i pass my examx wif
Flying COLOURS!!
haha.. pray hard!!=P

hmm.. though exams r ova.. i haf other worries.. =( CCA start oready!! fri gonna haf a preparation 4 promo training... promo cuming so0n.. but kindof sad.. cos this yr no suspense for us.. we all noe the date.. last time owaes is surprise spring promo.. so its more fun.. haha.. ppl all scared scared de.. den mux c normal training gt pay attention anort.. those were the days..

haha.. i receive an award but my gender was a male!! hahah.. was really funny n paiseh at tt time.. my name realli veri masculine meh? hahah.. hope not.. =P

2day is so cold.. rain the whole day.. will be great 2 sleep.. haha.. oh!!4gt to share a gd news n bad news.. my guinea pig gaf birth oready!! garlic gaf birth to 2 babies!! haha.. one pure white..not an albino as its eyes r black.. not red.. one is white wif a patch on the eye.. haha.. both r veri cute.. at first i tot y r there tissue paper in the cage..upon a closer look.. i saw the 2 babies.. i named them sugar(pure white) n spice ( one eye patch)..hehe..garlic is a realli protective mum..now she dun allow u 2 carry her..cos she dun wanna b seperated frm her babies..yup.. motherly love!! so touching.. hahah.. now i gt 6 guinea pigs!! tts alot.. Dale(the father of 4), Garlic(mother of 2), salt& pepper(sons of ginger who pass away..='( ...) and sugar&spice..

now the bad news.. the hamster scratchy died today.. its really sad.. its the cutest hamster i hve eva seen.. so active.. will ask 4 fd..but it pass away 2dae.. ='(

hmm.. shall blog more next time

sMiLeZ..

living in the world of my own

"i could hear nth but the soft thumping of my heart and my breathe.. was it all real? izzit the end? i dun noe i do not wanna noe.. plz dun tell mi.. plz keep all this 2 ur self... i may not be able to take it........"

y r u stopping us frm acheiving wad we wan? y cant u jux listen to us? y do u oni listen to others n not us? dont u trust us? if not .. y gif us such high post? aint u contridicting urself... i m veri tired.. veri tired of it.. u nv listen to us.. do we still wanna work under u?

this days i m feling very bump out.. 1st exams r drawing near.. its lyk 2 weeks later i will be taking my yr end exams.. 2nd..CCA.. training.. promo.. 3rd... my own prob wif sch work.. cant seems to grasp it.. i can do in cls.. in cls test but when cum to exam..

hmm.. did chemistry pract today!! was kindof fun.. 1st time i actually did the pract all by myself.. my lab partner doing his own... cos gt 2 experiment.. each of us do one.. yup.. 1st time i did without help lor.. n can even write out the equations.. hahaha... =) now i sch using coms... hehehe.. thursday is english oral.. taken by HOD miss yew.. i kindof glad she to0k us cos she is a realli nice cher but u noe.. HOD.. she definitely haf high hopes on us.. esp my class ppl.. so.. i beta take gd care of my voice.. dun wanna croak in front of her.. hahaha

wau.. nadiah sitting opp mi now.. she lo0k so sian den face her com.. mux be thinking of whoever frm "C" school.. !!! hahah.. opps.. sorry nadiah.... hmm wondering how is wanyin doing wif her oral now.. she gt it 1st as her register is b4 ours.. haha.. hope she do well..!

tty day on sat there was this recycling dae in my school.. we broke a guiness world of record for the longest chain of plastic bottles!! haha.. gt my effort.. i bring bottles.. drill holes..etc etc.. so ppl.. mux recycle arh... dun anihow throw away.. now my sch still selling ice cream n malt candy.. tt taariq dun wanna gif mi the malt candy!! wan mi buy.. dots... frens oso mux buy... in the end i nv buy.. buy frm pasar malam.. cheaper n bigger.. hahaha..

hm.. sell write more next time! byebye

yup.. i noe i haf not blog 4 such a long time le.. yup.. sorry.. but been pretty bz.. wif competition.. examx.. life science.. cca.. all cramp..its pretty amazing i still can blog.. hahah..=P
yeah!! national day.. happie 40th birthday to my darling nation-Singapore!!yup.. its pretty young 4 a country rite? hahah.. 2day celebration quite lame.. veri short.. den mi n a few frens went2watch movie.. hahah.. charlie n the choc factory @ princess.. wau.. c00l men the show.. the oompa loompas r actualli oni one man.. n the factory look so co0l.. make mi wanna eat choc oso.. haha.. was realli nice.. so go watch kx?..
hmm.. many things happen lar this says.. haha.. dun wanna sae.. =X ahaha
let u all go guess..
hahah
..
byebye...

can help grinnin!!

hmm.. today 1st day of sch.. i woke up early.. get ready early.. jux lyk ani other schooling days.. BUT CAN U BELIEVE THIS? i was LATE!!! laTE!! n its becos of tt stupid bus!! cum sooo late.. the bus stop was lyk sooo packed liao lor.. haix.. but heng heng.. councillors nv gif detention today.. hahah.. wanyin was lyk so superb shock to c mi at the front gate lor.. hahah.. her eyes soo big.. when i was at the side gate.. the aunty lock the gate infrnt of mi lor..kao.. cant wait meh.. still gt 1 min leh.. aunty.. i gt watch oso lor... dun bluff mi lor.. make mi walk such a big round..
ITS oni 1ST day of sch.. n my day is lyk so rotten.. n a hectic week ahead... haix.!

tues: do physic webquest
weds: NE tour ( wonder go where.. hahhaha.. long time nv go excursion le.. pri sch so mani.. go zoo.. bird park.. museum... shud be sum historical place or wadeva lar.. hahah but nvm.. shud b quite fun lor =) ) *mus rmb sign consent form
thurs: NPCC training 4 the competition on fri + refresher course 4 life sc.. prepare 4 sat
fri: NPCC fancy drill competition.. (gd luck ppl!)
Sat: excelfest at suntec.. ( go there do duty 4 life science lor =) 11am to 8pm!!!)

haix.. 1st week oni leh.. packed till full lor.. oni sunday free. most prob will be doin hw bah.. haix..sian lor.. y sec3 so hectic.. den today selection 4 inter class debate.. 4 mani speaker.. one reserve.. gt eugene.. eirene..andre.. kesavan..n mi lor.. ahhah.. dunnoe hu reserve.. i think is mi lor.. =P den eugene veri funny.. ask mi " cant dun write my name?" den i reply.. " even mi haf to write my own name down.. so u say leh?" hahah den he jux luff..
Time table change liao le.. yar lor.. sian.. mux rmb new one liao le.. hmm.. beta take 28 tomolo? hahaha.. c 1st lar..

*was it him tt i saw?* *SmileZ*

*still living in self denial?*

*cant help grinning*

hmm.. long time nv blog rite.. well got news.. i m out of the fancy drill team.. surprise?? hahha.. nvm.. its ok.. i miss 2 trainingd.. n gt a serious talk over it..haha.. nvm lar..
oh yeah.. wad happen to mi over these days.. hmm.. i met a guy on the bus.. he look so familiar.. i m sure i c him b4.. maybe in sch.. hahahha... he look kindof cute actually.. ahhahaha =P happie!
haha.. can u believe this? jon actualli gt into dragon boat(cca) in poly!!! co0l rite? hahahah.. mux be attracting alot of gals now wor.. hahahahha.. *dian xiao mei mei..*zap zap*
hahha.. hmm.. not much this days lor..
gt pk(police knowledge) course in hq.. hahha.. wif other areas.. howeva.. i think my area is the most united de.. haha.. maybe becos of lmsc? our area is lyk closer.. n we help each other more lor.. lyk we will remind each other if we c a mistake so we will not kena.. n etc.. yup.. hmm.. learn a couple things.. so ppl.. dun bully mi arh.. cos i noe the law!! hahahaha.. can sue u.. ahahha.. jkjk..
den got this silly game.. hold ur breathe thing.. den mux sae "arh...." area 8 lyk not competing 4 longest breathe.. but 4 shortest.. ahhhahah.. den tt stupid weida.. how dare u step on my boots!! no wonder u haf such a short breathe!! ahahhahah.. =P cant beat mi...
hmm..not much le lar.. sch reopening soon.... blog nxt time..

*living in self denial?*

*cant help smiling!*

hmm.. actually arm pain.. so dun wanna cum n write de.. but so mani days nv update.. feeling weird.. so here i m.. hmm.. mux be wondering wad i m up to this few days arh? hahah.. i went 4 LMSC( leadership n mentoring skills couse) with area 8.. it in in dunman.. was quite a nice course.. we did MOI.. we played games.. teambuilding n learn things lor.. den i lyk one phrase a lot " to lead is not to hit others on their head, tts assault not leadership!" =) nice rite? so ppl.. dun hit my head oready ok? i stupid enuff oso.. hahha =)
my grp is grp one.. wif cass n izzat.. haha.. we kindof stick by each other.. cos is lyk we noe each other beta mah.. hahha =) den the first dae was veri funny.. cos no other sch noe wad is discernment..den i gt a mnm cos i noe wad it meant.. of cos i noe lar.. dunmanite leh.. hahahha =P den ppl tot dmn ppl english so powerful.. hahahha.. *fakos*
hmm.. today woke up early early 4 spds.. actualli dun wanna go de.. cos i gt runny nose n cough.. but bcos i oready promise nadiah 2 go.. i pull myself to go lor.. den we did sum pt in the morn.. i wasnt tt enthu.. partially becos nose was blocked.. n worst..when i run.. it blocked.. how to breathe? i used mouth.. i cough.. how? in the end.. i end up gasping more 4 air lor.. hahaha.. den we did normal training.. wasnt kindof glad.. cos nadiah n wy went 2 teach cheers.. n i m stuck in the garden mastering my full jumbo.. learning ground toss.. n doing combi jumbo.. haix.. den formation n stuff.. think i suck.. i think i m lyk the worst in the team lor.. make mistake queen.. or BLUR queen... haix.. sorry guys.. i shudden even be in the main team.. in the end.. i hurt my hand.. gt a big bruise between my thumb n index finger..haix.. so pain..
den aftanoon gt drill com.. was kindof slack in my drills.. cos i oready veri tired liao.. but so long nv drill.. i feeling more of happie bah? hahah.. sweat it out! hahha.. there was selection.. i was selected!!haha.. wif the otehr sec3s.. was happie n was feeling great.. perhaps this year meant more to us(sec3s) cos is our last yr to take part in this le.. n will be held in our rival sch (hai sing).. aim is to win dem! hahahah.. hope so.. its their home ground.. so mux drill harder... together everyone acheive more.. riteX? =)
well hand really veri pain liao.. cant even use my thumb to type.. haix.. mux take care of my hand.. " cos it is my most impt thing now.." " cannot gt sick"(though i gt sick oready liao) "cant gt in the rain"(this was the excuse the sec2s gave mi so i will shelter dem to the mini mart... evil...)

living in self-denial

Haf i lost my smile?

hmm.. jux back from spds training.. u mux be realizing i m missing for days rite? well.. i went ubin on mon-weds for atc(adventure training camp).. it wasnt tt thrilling afta all. veri sian n slack actually.. this yr gt bvss join area 8.. hm.. nt tt i m not anti-social or wad.. but i m not exactly happie tt they join us.. they r not lyk our area.. we r more conservative? more well-behave? ah lians kindof exist there.. n they even bully us!!! cut our queue during bath time.. its lyk sooo... argh!!! u haf to queue rite? imagine u r dirty n u r so close to bathing in the nice cool water den sumone jux cut in ur line n rush in.. wth? =(
on sunday,, i was kindof busy preparing 4 the camp.. its lyk oni 2 day rest b4 another camp.. wasnt feeling veri hype.. haha.. den watch water boys.. nice show.. the guy was cute.. hahah.. opps!
on mon,, 1st day of atc.. we arrive at changi jetty. hmm.. been one yr since i been there.. last time was last yr atc.. so diff now.. gt departure n arrival hall.. haha.. den dunman gt on the boat early.. den we took a van to the campsite( kampong bahru) instead of hiking lyk the rest of the other schs.. haha.. yeah! so we kindof rest superb early.. haha.. den we play games.. telephone line.. bili blanja and chop chilli chop... haha.. was so fun.. den other schs arrive... mux stop.. cos one sch gt casualty den mux be silent.. shhhh...haha.. coral was in charge of logistic while hai sing was the hosting sch..1st day as usual.. grouping.. counting.. pitching tents.. mock campfire.. etc etc.. day pass without much event.. i was same group as nadiah.. my group gt 5 hai sing gals leh! n oni 2 dunman.. so little..
on tues... hmm.. started the day with pt.. i stupidly volunteer myself b4 realizing it was 2 be pti.. haha.. wanyin oso kena.. so we both took them 4 warming up n cooling down.. during jogging.. we were the back sweepers..together with namirah.. haha.. was veri veri slack.. den we had breakfast..the guys was late 4 breakfast.. so in the end.. the gals have to take spurs(long ones) from the sec2 campsite for pioneering.. i stupidly volunteer again as i dunnoe wad we gonna do... haha.. in the end.. kao.. was so diff.. we have a trolley.. we have to go thru up slope n down slope.. so was kindof lyk a roller-coaster ride 4 us.. n the rest of the campers r actualli slacking at the campsite! =( shudden haf volunteer.. den we did pioneering and topograhy.. we have to build a structure to hold sumone.. so we kindof build it simple by using oni square lash n round lash to support.. den realize y so mani sch lyk nv teach these 2 lashings.. turn out mi n nadiah haf to teach along the way.. haha.. was kindof fun..=) den came topo.. haha.. heng i nv let dmn down.. i remember bearings... back bearings.. setting maps.. etc.. den came the last challenge.. was kindof tough.. had to cross a obstructure.. den i suggest we use man to man bearing.. to my horror.. my team mates dun even noe what i was tokin about! were they dreaming last yr during sec2 atc when we were taught.. so i kindof becum i tcher again.. sian.. dun think they understand wad i saying.. luckily nadiah oso rmb.. so we taught them 2gther.. HO zong yi sae our grp did the right thing.. the HOs n CIs oso did man to man bearing.. our angle was oso rite.. haha.. yeah!! =) afta lunch we did ATF!! yeah! it was high elements.. was so scary.. so high.. den tt wei da frm haising dun wanna give the rescue ladder 4 dmn gals.. u r lucky we aint doing the rescue ladder when u r trying or we will oso not give u arh.. hahaha =P.. at nite we have campfire.. it was kindof sian.. cos ppl not hyper.. so not fun wan.. my grp haising ppl nt reali tt hyper.. but when in their sch they veri hyper.. soo.. contridicting? tt nite.. we slp in the assemble hall instead of tent.. was much beta.. lesser mosquitoes.. i kena so many bites on 1st dae.. izzit i 2 sweet? hahah =)
3rd day.. basically is area cleaning.. we clean the tents.. guys..u all beta do more household chores! the tents u all clean r still so dirty.. the gals haf to help clean 4 u all.. haha.. was kindof looking forward to home.. best camper was given to siglap(boys) n bvss(gals).. the guy i have nth to sae.. he was go0d.. but the gal.. wel.. she was ok.. she was gd at times.. but she keep giving excuse of not learning topo cause she in norm stream.. tts not even a valid reason 4 not learning.. i was kindof hoping zubaidah win.. she was realli gd.. n keep gting her grp to hype up.. nvm. in my heart i noe is zubaidah can liao..
yesterdae n today.. went 4 spds training.. took the "express" way.. so lyk fastforward to learn stuff.. muscles aching as jux bac frm atc.. learn rotation, half n full jumbo.. now learning ground toss.. kao.. dey all sae i auntie.. i ask qnn oni.. sae i auntie.. i scare rifle hit mi sae i kia see.. so bad.. i dun think i can realli do full jumbo well but sir sae can.. kao.. dun bluff mi lor.. =( mux jia you wor.. so lousy in it.. now arm veri pain.. haix.. mux let it relax..cant over strain.. mux realli try harder 4 full jumbo.. cos if i feel i cant do it well.. i dun think i can do well for ground toss.. i dare not grab it when i toss the rifle in the air.. mux be braver..
wau.. my longest post eva? hahaha.. still gt much thigns 2 sae.. well.. leave to nxt time..

living in self denial

Yox! jux back frm annual camp.. yesterdae went out 2 eat at nydc so nv blog.. sorry.. haha =)
Well.. wad can i sae bout the annual camp neh? i can sae.. the sec2 r veri enthu! yeah.. haha.. yup... oh.. we learnt roller-blading lar.. i oreay noe liao.. so go there 4 fun lyk tt.. try n help my fren lor.. c they keep falling.. aiyoyo.. sad leh.. i at 1st not "zhai"(stable) den slowly gt back my old form.. haha =) its been so long since i gt on skates.. nv haf to wear the gears b4 de.. den go camp mux wear.. sian.. so hot sumore.. den sec1s n 2s keep luffing at those hu keep falling.. so bad arh..
den campfire.. well.. was fun i can sae.. haha.. cadets lyk billy blanja ALOT!! all so happie n enthu when doing tt.. haha.. =) happie.. i one of those hu taught them.. along wif wanyin n peiren.. hahaha.. =)
3rd dae.. we haf wet games.. cadets try 2 sabo mi n wanyin.. but 2 bad we gt walkie talkies.. cant get wet.. we not so dumb kx? gif u all our walkie talkies n let u all sabo us.. still fake us sae " we love you" n wan 2 hug us.. haha.. =)
sian.. 3rd dae still mux rush home bath n eat den go hq 4 interunit quiz competition... dots.. went there no more seats 4 us.. so mi & zubaidah let wanyin n nadiah sit the 2 available seats.. den the guys kena scolded for not letting the gals sit.. hahaha.. mux let mi n zubaidah sit.. muahahaha... =P hahah... den so coincidence.. we sat wif PRCS ppl.. dey sec4s leh.. so unfair lor.. haix.. nvm.. but at least is area8... den one guy so shock i chairperson.. den still sae.. gal be..wad the.. gal cant be izzit? he gt a prob? jux becos they boys unit mahx.. doesnt mean gals no good mahx.. make mi soo.. mad..den when we went in 4 the test.. its lyk so.. i dunnoe wad 2 sae... its not wad they call us 2 study lor.. all so diff.. we jux tikam.. den gt over it n done.. well.. look lyk dunman gg 2 con't hist of losing it.. haha .. sorri.. =P!
went 2 eat nydc yest.. was a realli nice place to eat.. the pasta was great n so was their mud pie! yummy!!! haha.. yeah... lyk tt place.. nice n funky place to eat.. =)
went 2 army market 2day.. buy my uniform cover.. time i change liao.. so tattered n torn.. sis gt a new sling bag.. haha =) sis oso bought gifts ... oh..
happy birthday kor kor!! haha=)

well.. 1st n foremost lemme mi wish my jie "HAPPY BDAE!!" happie birthday 2 u.. happie birthday 2 u.. happy birthday to jie jie ...... happie birthday to U....... =) lyk ur pressie? haha =)
hmm.. woke up early this morn.. was kindof cranky.. stomach pain oso.. feel terrible.. stupid headache oso... haix.. went 2 haf breakfast with mom.. den came home to be a couch potatoe.. haha.. relax a lil.. den afta lunch.. came online to do my npcc admin work AGAIN! haix.. stress.. sorry guys.. i will realli try to find back my smile kx? haha.. though u ppl c my white hair.. dun fret.. i will be happy once this stress period is over! hahaha... hmm.. dunnoe wad to sae.. was realli having sum serious thoughts of my future...
the question most commonly asked since young was " wad u wanna be when u grow up?" well.. when i was realli realli young.. i wanted to b a barbie doll.. haha.. real stupid rite? den as i grow older.. haf thoughts of wanna be a tcher.. cos it is a really fulfilling job.. u groom the nxt batch of leaders.. den.. eva wanted to b a police.. (link wif my cca npcc) haha.. pilot? navy? so many choices... haha.. yar.. i was realli fickle -minded.. haha
Now.. when i gif it a thought.. i was lyk.. what do i REALLY want to be in live? for passion or for money? i mean in this fast pace society.. u cant possibly jux survive on ur passion rite? yar.. den i was thinking.. sth with sciences? doctor? or sth i realli lyk? haha.. i oso dunnoe.. hmm.. i kindof lyk debate.. maybe cos i lyk to tok.. n lyk to reason.. or so called "tok back"? haha.. maybe i can be a lawyer yeah? or be a scriptwriter? packed with imaginations tt is sooo...far-fetched? hahah...wadeva it is.. i m quite sure i will gt my calling s0on yeah...? haha
well.. now most impt is to gt my grades beta.. den 'o' lvl... den jc... wad jc? i still thinking of it.. mux mux haf a goal to work towards.. hmm.. shud be to jc den uni... (traditional pathway?) haha.. i oso dunno.. well.. i realli fickle-minded in such things.. =( mux be more decisive nxt time .. haha.. will help mi in handling things nxt time 2...
i will end here den...

*living in self-denial*
(been writing the wrong spelling haha.. sorry =))

hmm.. back online to do npcc admin work again.. yest was doing the attendance.. completed at last.. haha..=) this holi lyk no holi at all.. sch has becom my 2nd home.. or shud i sae i spend more time there? =( jux finish editing proposal.. yeha.. sad cant go 4 the MacRitchie trek.. haix.. nvm lar.. =( studies more impt mahs!
hmm. do i realli look stress this days? or unhappy?hmm.. alot of ppl cum n tell mi leh.. sae they c mi most of the time angry or sad.. no longer my happy go lucky smile and manner.. well.. wad to do..? i will smile more kkx? hahahah.. jux perhaps i m stress over the up-coming camp lor.. haix..
gtg liao.. byebye

* living in self deniel*

well.. today last day of sch.. haf np training.. 2nd time being nco.. well.. quite ok lar.. taught tent pitiching and lashing.. alil rusty.. haha =) yar.. den quite scary lar.. den cadets movement all slow slow de.. wau lao.. can walk faster? haha.. mux be fast mah.. sense of urgency riteX?=)
well.. not exactly happie lar.. took report bk yest.. kao.. do so badly.. all Bs leh.. no As at all..
haix.. disappointed.. hu call mi nv study hard? =(
thsi holidae.. so mani xtra lesson n npcc stuff.. haix.. mux realli listen 2 my cher.. " set ur priorities!!" well.. okie lar.. i will study harder.. spend more time on it.. mux realli work hard.. cant sae sae oni mux show wif action.. hope time dun slip off so fast.. haix.. rmb i was saying i hate myself.. haha.. mux be becos of my pathetic results.. den shi jia sae how cud i? haha.. den she so cute.. sae wad ppl love mi.. family..frens.. lyk wanyin, nadiah.. her.. make mi so touch wor.. haha.. mux love myself..

bloggin so late.. doing np admin again.. haix.. byebye..

*living in self denial*
new past