I really shouldn't be blogging.
Having a test coming up in less than 12 hours worth 10%.
Having a presentation in less than 14 hours worth 15%, which the last I check, still have many lose ends to tie up, plus my presentation timing is 3.30mins! well off the timing and has yet to do conclusion. I need to cut it, seriously...D:
Finished my tutorial for HE101, doing paper for MB103 now. So many things to do.
Still wanna revise for the test in less than 12 hours. D:

Too lil time, too many things.
But why do I still have so many other things on my mind! D:

我真的真的不愿意就这样陷入爱的陷阱

left out on Nov 3 1.16am

Time passes fast when you are having fun, but time passes even faster when you are studying.

Taking a break now to blog alil. Brain abit dead, but at least I'm studying interesting chapts. :D way to go, staying optimistic as usual.

Looking forward to next tues. Shroomy's visit to Hall 14. :D

Arh, I'm still undecided, S/u or not. D:

I am trying to finish my tutorial on time.
I am trying to understand my concepts better.
I am trying to forget all things and concentrate on whats important.
But I find myself lost.
What is important?

Sometimes, doing your best just isn't good enough.

It gets so tiring that whatever you do ain't appreciated, your inputs got taken away and your efforts go to waste.

Why no matter how much you try, some people can just take your work and rip it apart, leaving you in bits n pieces, and walk away...

Words can be so hurting. Intentionally or not.

Words ain't supposed to hurt, they are meant to say "I Love You".

I may laugh it off, give you a smile, but deep down I'm hurting. I'm sorry, I did my best, and if it ain't good enough, go ahead and rip it apart. Because by then, I'll be numbed from the pain.

The cruelty of life, the harshness of it all. Perhaps its time I realise I no longer live in a sugar coated world.

Met up with Min Yu and Anna today at white sands to celebrate Min Yu's bday! :D Wanyin unable to make it, poor girl, she fell ill, wonder is it due to the mounting pressure from the impending As. Jiayou Girl!(:

We ate at Manhattan Fish Market!(: Shared the seafood platter for 2 and ordered the new drink mango popping. The drink tastes like a certain kind of sweet. From Min Yu's happening life, to Anna's Uni life, the convo just kept going. It had been so long since we 3 meet up together! And the feeling is still that great!(:

Gave Min Yu the pressie that Roomie and I picked for her. Was so glad she likes it, the excitement all over her face when she saw it, it was classic! Haha, am so happy that I gave her a surprise!(since she hinted she wanted a surprise on fb! ahhaha) :D

So, happy birthday girl! Enjoy and day and may you grow prettier and prettier as the day passes, but please stop growing taller, if not your short friend her will have neck sore the next time she want to chitchat with you face to face!(: Love you always my beloved partner in cls- ONG MIN YU! Muaxh!

You wouldn't know but that little gesture you did had melted the little heart of mine.

Falling for you- Colbie Caillat

I don't know, but I think I may be fallin' for you, dropping so quickly.
Maybe I should keep this to myself, wait until I know you better.
I am trying not to tell you, but I want to.
I'm scared of what you'll say, so I'm hiding what I'm feelin', but I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.

As I'm standing here and you hold my hand, pull me towards you, and we start to dance.
All around us, I see nobody.
Hearin' silence, it's just you and me.
I'm trying not to tell you, but I want to.
I'm scared of what you'll say, so I'm hiding what I'm feelin', but I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.

Oh, I just can't take it.
My heart is racin'.
Your motions keep spinnin' out.
I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' bout you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you.
I've been waitin' all my life and now I've found you.
I don't know what to do; I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin for you.
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I can't stop thinkin' bout it, I want you all around me, and now I just can't hide it.
I can't stop thinkin' bout it, I want you all around me, and now I just can't hide it.
I think I'm fallin' for you, I'm fallin' for you.
Oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh, I'm fallin' for yah.

Feeling like a zombie today, sleep late and set my alarm wrongly this morning! D: I set as PM! LOLz, lucky the typing sound from my roomie woke me up, if not I sure late for class alrdy! hahaha.

So many things, so little time, was so happy today, cos I ate Mr Bean's soya icecream! -Life Simple Pleasure! :D
SoyaBean is love! :D I wanna be Mrs Bean then I can have lots of Mr Bean products! HAHA. :D I sound so crazily in love with it! :D But I really like all their products!

"Msn" convo during marketing, complete with "whoever is added to the convo" and "nudges" LOLZ.

Feeling much better today, well, have to keep looking forward, stop looking back, because life is too short for regrets, let the past remain in the past, let what is going to happen in the future remain a mystery, just seize today because its a present! :D Alright!

GOGO WINI!:D

You will never know I'm here
Standing right beside you.
Hoping that you will turn around,
to see me smiling because of you.
All this you will never know,
because to you, I'm just another girl.
Another friend you can talk to, laugh with
But you never know that here I am,
standing there,
looking over at you,
wishing you good,
and not wanting anything,
but to just see your smile.
:D BUT TO YOU- IM JUST A STALE CURRY PUFF! SOBZ. hahahahahhahaha

Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb
Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb Im dumb

Had my 2 quizzes today, and it confirmed that IM DUMB. Seriously, after spending so much time on accounting and maths, Im still so lost on the subject. I spent my whole recess week with them, spent my breaks with them, spent most of my waking hour with them for the past 2weeks or so, and yet.. D:

I'm feeling so lousy. Yes, academic grades are very very important to me. I don't care if I will be a stale curry puff or not, what I care most is my grades! Because they are the ones who will lead me to a successful career start or not. D: This is so frustrating. Their refusal to befriend me is driving me nuts.! D: HMPF, I need a night walk. Gosh..

Dear roomie just left hall for home. Going to be alone tonight. Gu jun zhuo zan.

I know im supposed to be reading tt HUGE accounting textbook, because my lecture notes teaches nothing at all. D: But I just wanna take that teeny weeny break. D: Its such a sad thought that not everyone are having pop quizzes after recess week. At least they can have some real break and not bust their whole recess week spending quality time with those huge textbooks.

Plus, I'm having my 2 quizzes on the same day, and for my final exams, the two subjects are held on the same day too. Congrats to me, seriously, didn't know that the 2 of them will be that tough. Grr..

Having Darts training on Mon, but Im not going. Going to con't studying for the quizzes on Tues.

I will be so happy once they are over- at least for awhile.

Because, by then I will have to return back to my cycle of mugging, final exams are looming. Oh gosh. Whoever said JC 'A' Levels was the toughest times? I can tell you stop living in self denial, seriously.

Alright, back to books.

I wanna be a chao mugger.

I begin to wonder...

Life,
is'nt it too short for sorrow?
isn't it more worthwhile to live the way you want it?
isn't it better for the world if we stop fighting, for everything?

Dreams
Why dream when you know you can't reach?
Why let it affect you so much that you can't move forward?

Love
is'nt it supposed to be sugary sweet?
then why are people around me agonising over it?
crying over it?
a mental need for affection and belonging?
what good does it do if it ain't reciprocated?
wouldn't you fall into an endless pit of sorrow?

I longed for a miracle in this gloomy day, let me see there is still beauty and hope in this world we live in. Bless those people who are struggling against nature- natural disasters. Bless those innocent children, before their minds get polluted in this dangerous world.

Bless me to remain sane.

A fleeting moment, a moment of instantenous connection, but poof, its gone, gone with the wind and never back...

I know not what I want.
I just follow what you want.
All this time.
When you are gone,
who is to fill this void you leave behind?
I wonder.

Going to celebrate Ms LIMFENGYI DATOU MUOGU HELMET.......BIRTHDAY later! hahaha. I miss that siao girl many many!!! Even though we met on sunday during Qianying's send off, but I still miss that girl! hahaha, seriously need to talk to her! (:

Been having lesser n lesser sleep in hall, n pimples are all popping out! D: sobz. My eye got infected and my eyelid swell. Had to put this eye drop every hour and eye ointment every night. The eye oilment will make me a one eye monster because it will stick the upper and lower lids together! D: But now the swelling is down! yippee, doc said is its not, I may have to go for surgery! Luckily it went down! yippe~

My ankle's swelling went down too! Now can walk relatively faster! Healing well, though it still hurts once in a while, its much much better! Yippe~

On a random note, I been thinking of expanding the infatuation essay I wrote the other time, expanding it to complete the story because I left the ending hanging, but somehow, it feels like if I put an end to it, then.. its an ending! But love aint supposed to have an ending isnt it? hmmm..

Cant believe I tumble and fall in ntu again! I was on my way to study in the lounge with dear Jingyi and I fell down the stairs. Double sprained because i tried getting up after 1st sprain but tumble again. Was so helpless on the ground. Jingyi was by my side, thanks girl! Without you, I wont know what to do. Lydia was on 3rd floor and she shouted down thinking I was her roomie. I shouted back telling her I sprained my ankle, dear girl ran down to find me on the floor. Justin came out of his room-2nd floor after hearing commotion, holding an ankle guard. Next moment, weiren appeared! hahah. Lydia ran up to get my roomie. Ong junmin super stunned to see me on the floor. Fiaz appeared out of no where, got me a cool can of coke zero while he n lydia went round to find ice for me. Still on the ground, Justin "icing" my leg, while colouring my toe nails with highlighter! >.< Roomie called Mr Welfare- Say Chong who asked me to immobilise my leg by spraying salonpas. HAHA, then justin carried me up to my room- not after much protest. Weiren even suggested bridal carry style! OMG, of cos not! Wanted to pass Lydia my card while Justin was piggy-backing me, ended up struggling him, he took revenge by throwing me on the bed. Thanks arh.. Highly eventful night- one I will not forget for a long time.




Next day, ankle was superb pain. Took super long walk to school! Great Og mates kept sms-ing to check on my condition. (: At the end of the day, ankle CMI. Bruise was damn big and black. Jessica called Kc to drive me out of school to see doc since it was 6.00 by the time I ended lesson. Went to see a sinseh and busted $50.10! D: Sobs.. so much for an ankle. Sinseh commented how i fell, cos it was damn serious. Had like 3 huge bruises.. Told her I fell down the stairs and she looked stunned before pressing acupoints on my ankle asking pain anot. She seems to enjoy it. D:





Learnt my lesson in a painful and expensive way. Fred. Please watch where you are going. Seriously...

Late night tutorial chiong-ing for accounting. My head still swirling with liabilities, revenue, assets, etc.

Tried my hands on my rally.

1st attempt too short.

2nd attempt got disrupted by roomie.

D: tmr having door to door. Pooh bear shall be my buddy!(:

So many things going through my mind. "To be or not to be?" Im just very confused and lost in this world, this new world i'm thrown into. So foreign. Yet one thing is for sure, I will do my best to survive, to remain true to myself and not lost myself in this mess.

Press on Wini! Let your smile guide you through all difficulties!(:

Stop being so kind to me, Im afraid I will....

Sprained my ankle again! 1807, please dont scold me ok? I don't wish to sprain it too! I was just crossing the road and a lorry came charging towards me, I ran, and I sprained. -.-" Sounds so noob. But its not as bad as the one the one I gotten in JC and had to call JiaYi to come and rescue me at some ulu part of TJ. Had on bandages on Mon-Tues and gotten an ankle guard from Jonathan on Wednesday night! hahah. Felt so bad for manfaning so many people to find that ONE first aid kit box! >.< And thanks roomie for looking after your super clumsy roomie!

Must thank all those many many people who help to find tt first aid kit box, though I dont know who, but roomie said alot of people help to find, so I must thank all!(:

Must thank Yixia, the delphi senior who commented on my many many pokka liang teh and Jia En for coming to bandage my ankle on Mon and Tues night at such late hour! So sorry! MANY MANY THANKS!(: ps: though its abit ugly!:x haha, thanks lots! Greatly appreciated!

Must thank everyone for their concern about my health and my ankle! And the constant nagging for me to sleep early! haha.

Special thanks to JINGYI, ZHILIN and JESSICA for staying by my side and assisting me in all ways! Like helping me to carry my dinner, taking tt slow stroll for me!(: Love you Guys to the MAX!

AND of cos my roomie! You are superb BAGUS! Let me rest, wake me up to eat dinner(she even tabao for me), ran down to help me get bandage and panadol! Muaxh! You are the BEST!(: and taking that superb slow walk from north spine back to hall with me! LOVE YOU!(:

Amelene! For walking slowly to lectures with me and always telling me where to watch out, insisted we take the lift instead of climbing the stairs yeah! love u lots!

Im so blessed by the people around me! Being away from home, but having such great friends and seniors around! Though I missed my family lots! Mama kept calling to check on her sick baby! I'll take care of myself! Sick Pig will get well soon!(:

Have you ever live a life of disguise,
one filled with lies

Ever live a life behind a mask,
that you so wish to unmask

Just so you won't show your vulnerability
until you have shown your abilities?

Just had a sudden thought about this. I guess late nights have this effect on u. Gosh Wini, snap out of your daydreams and back to reality!

A highly eventful day today. Gosh, its over, and I chionging my economics homework now. Thank god I still recall my JC lectures. Thanks LILI FONG AND WONG YINGYING! They are the best econs lecturers! Its an impossible task to sleep during their lectures, especially the latter one! I miss their teachings. And of cos I MISS MS AILEEN WONG! The best econs tutor!

Woke up and decided to wash my laundry today! Haha. It was highly entertaining to text Amelene about the progress of my clothes in that machine! I told her I'm waiting for the "giant to vomit my clothes out" and i need to "check out the giant" and she was like " You want to check out a giant?!" ahhahaha. Met up with her after for HE103. No lecture notes, so we were acting very studious by copying what was shown, but we were doing that to stay awake! HAHA, we even wore specs to look more nerdy and mugger-ish!

Afternoon: Amelene lost her EZlink card! ARGH. She was so upset! Hope that it wasn't taken by some psychotic admirer! Poor girl! D: Went looking for her Ezlink card and forgo lunch date with Jessica, Zhilin and Jinyi. But they were so sweet la, gotten lunch for me! Hearts them!

After that went CCA fair with Jessica and Jingyi. Jessica left earlier for lecture so went to find some seats with Jingyi to chitchat before my tutorial starts.

Went for 1st MB101 lesson. Everyone there are so hardcore! Gotten their textbooks and seems very very prepared! Sobs. But the people sitting at my table are very very nice! We formed a team together. :D I was the only freshie in that group! And having presentation next week on tutorial qns! Abit scary! I hope people dont bombard me with qns. I still so raw in this! D: After that went for team mates to photocopy pages from the textbook as we need the qns to prep for tutorial!(: Nice people!

Hungry piggie now, but still no reply from Jessica! >.< I think I shall just go n makan with zhilin! :x hahahaha
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